Just a three cents worth on Salvia. It is the most powerful thing I have ever tried in my life. II started out smoking it in a super-quiet environment with no lights or sounds lying or sitting in a super-comfortable pose. Taking as many hits as I can without loosing coordination completely. Then I sit back and look for myself. Then I laugh. The closer I get to myself, the more I laugh. Twice I have found myself for about a shortest instant and laughed for many hours afterwords. Never been able to keep myself, once I find myself I lose myself again very soon, but that doesn't matter, because when I have myself, I realize that it's OK to loose myself, and I remember I realized that, so it's fine... Once I find myself, I Know things. But never tell them, I just laugh. Laughter tells more then words. My friends become quiet and listen to my laughter and they rejoyce. But I Know that this is not a surprize to them. I Know that they Know too, but they don't know that they Know. I recognize my friends, I even recognize my cats. And I look at them and I laugh. If I find myself, I can ask any question and it will be answered, but I Know not to ask. I Know and I laugh at the simplicity of the answer. Really, the biggest surprize is the simplicity, because only the creature as stupid as myself can overlook such simple things all the time. And only the creature as wize as myself can create a creature so stupid as to be able to overlook anything. And then, when I loose myself I, once again, start believing it has to do anything with Salvia, or how you smoke it.
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Awareness doesn't have anything to offer me through the meshing of me and salvia anymore. I got the vision, and was able to creatively discharge it, and now when I try it the Master of the House seems mildly annoyed. the same vision, the same feelings, they're certainly Witnessed - but it showed me a new vision of how to Witness, and I learned it - that's all I could learn.... What is Witnessed through salvia anymore doesn't seem to matter much at all. DMT on the other hand is an entirely different story, and my rapport with it is much more lush, friendly, and intimate right now. What is there is so much more tastey to me, and the how to question is scary and awesome to know i can accept the kind of freedom it's shown. i feel it will be a mighty realization when i find an outlet for that!
-------------------- Everything is better than it was the last time. I'm good. If we could look into each others hearts, and understand the unique challenges each of us faces, I think we would treat each other much more gently, with more love, patience, tolerance, and care. It takes a lot of courage to go out there and radiate your essence. I know you scared, you should ask us if we scared too. If you was there, and we just knew you cared too.
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