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 theorganicdomino
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 Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... 
#3924700 - 03/16/05 08:32 AM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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...riding on the London Eye whilst listening to "Brian Wilson's SMiLE".
I've never been keen on heights - think it has something to do with throwing myself out of the huge weeping willow in my parents back garden when I was a kid (yes I did say that I threw myself, I was kinda fucked up as a kid but I'm much better now  ).
As my lovely wife and I are both soon to go for the 5g mushroom heroics, and in honour of what I learnt on the last trip, I made a pledge to myself that I would do something to face my fear of heights (I had my eyes closed about 50% of the time I was up the Eiffel Tower for fuck's sake - that's 50% of a visual memory I denied myself).
So I snuck out early for lunch (all in all I was late back and ended up having a 2 1/2 hour lunch break - oops!) went down to Waterloo, bought my ticket, lined up, nearly backed out but reached the gate , bundled onto the capsule and clung to my seat.
I was fairly fine (although my bum did not leave the seat) until just before the very top when I started to get that vertigo feeling, and everything in my vision wobbled and I felt a panic attack coming on - which is when I put on the SMiLE album.
As the opening track segued into Heroes and Villains I started questioning my fear and where it came from, I slowed my breathing and stood up, I cleared my head like I do in meditation and looked down at big ben and along the Thames. I felt an inner cheerleader voice hit me and felt a warmth flush through me, I had done it, no - I was doing it, I was truly doing something which a year ago would have given me a panic attack. From the top down I walked around the capsule and held on to the rail and peered down - a little shakey but confident that everything was okay.
Definitely one of those moments.
Thanks Brian Wilson, good, good, good vibrations. (If you haven't got the album do - it's not perfect but has some truly inspiring elements).
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: theorganicdomino]
#3924760 - 03/16/05 08:58 AM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm scared shitless of heights. 6 years ago I had an accident that involved falling about 75-100 feet. But this past summer I went skydiving and I plan on doing it again this summer. So, hopefully I can eventually get over my fear of heights that way.
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 Irradiated_Feces
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: Deadmaker]
#3924865 - 03/16/05 09:48 AM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm not a huge fan of heights, but I thought the London Eye was pretty tame.
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grphish
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: Irradiated_Feces]
#3924913 - 03/16/05 10:08 AM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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it isn't about moving fast, its heights, you dumb fuck
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: Deadmaker]
#3924949 - 03/16/05 10:20 AM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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You saying skydiving brought back some memories of wierd ass skydiving dreams I've had.
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: grphish]
#3925238 - 03/16/05 11:51 AM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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I know its not about moving fast you fucking douche. I meant the feeling of being high, It didn't overwhelm me on it, I think because of the enclosure of it.
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: Irradiated_Feces]
#4548230 - 08/17/05 07:13 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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Im pretty scared of heights, but recently got over it by crossing this log suspended 20 ft in the air on LSD, it was fucking NUTS, but i got across it without falling and killing myself so
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: theorganicdomino]
#4548258 - 08/17/05 07:19 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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I was terribly claustrophobic as a child. Couldn't even ride in an elevator. So as a teen I started caving and conquered my fear.
Conquering fears is an awesome feeling! 
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: Deadmaker]
#4548296 - 08/17/05 07:25 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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I'm not too fond of heights, due to an always-present urge to throw myself over the edge (just to see what it would be like!) that I don't like feeling, but the thought of skydiving doesn't scare me at all - due to having a parachute on your back!
I've always wanted to go skydiving, and have recently found someone who will go up with me so we can both be skydiving newbs together.
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: trendal]
#4548329 - 08/17/05 07:30 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
trendal said:
I'm not too fond of heights, due to an always-present urge to throw myself over the edge (just to see what it would be like!) that I don't like feeling
Holly fuck that is exactly what was going through my head when I was reading this thread. 
I'm the exact way, to me its this urge to let loose and just wooosh
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trendal
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: Noetical]
#4548340 - 08/17/05 07:33 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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Yeah exactly! Like you know it would be a fun trip down!
I get that any time I look over an edge more than 20' above the ground.
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Noetical
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: trendal]
#4548365 - 08/17/05 07:39 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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About two summers ago camping my friends were bickering about wheter anyone should attempt to jump off this 50ft cliff into a lake. They were all "... its too shallow ... and you'll probably hit the rocks ... we should make sure no one jumps off here"
I come down look over the edge once, back up and then just bolt off the edge. It just had to be done and it was fucking awesome.
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: Noetical]
#4548411 - 08/17/05 07:47 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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I know what you guys mean about jumping off the edge to see what its like. I get that too, the other day i walked up this 255 foot crane where i work. It was intense. I was terrified but at the same time i felt like i was accomplishing something. The worst part about the climb was that you could see through the floor all the way down. It was a crazy experience and i'm glad i did it. I'm just never gonna do it again hahaha.
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: GratefulDead]
#4548462 - 08/17/05 07:56 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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Lol yeah! I know what you mean!
I was at a friend's farm for a party last year, and he got me to climb up onto the top of his silo. Scared the shit out of me the whole way up, but I made it to the top and got a nice view of the countryside!
Generally I can push myself up as high as I want provided there's something to hang on to at all times. One of my old room mates worked for a silo installation company and he used to work on the top of the things with really NOTHING to hang on to! I couldn't do that...
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Once, men turned their thinking over to machines in the hope that this would set them free.
But that only permitted other men with machines to enslave them.
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Re: Scared of Heights?.....Then why not try... [Re: ToTheSummit]
#4548552 - 08/17/05 08:10 PM (18 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
ToTheSummit said:
I was terribly claustrophobic as a child. Couldn't even ride in an elevator. So as a teen I started caving and conquered my fear.
Conquering fears is an awesome feeling!
I'm like that still. If my mates get into an elevator, i'll take the stairs.
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