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 GringoLoco
I spit in theface of peoplewho ain't cool.
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 Re: What is it your searching for?  [Re: Adom]
#450822 - 11/07/01 08:09 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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What is the point? Why are people running around with guns and bombs and pieces of paper with presidents on them? Why is it such a big deal that everyone spread their seed? Why do people feel the need to worship one entity? Why is the nature of the human race to be big?
I have the feeling something much bigger is going on behind all this, what it is, that is my quest.
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 Adom
Totally Nude
Registered: 09/30/01
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Loc: Way Up North
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Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: GringoLoco]
#450846 - 11/07/01 08:32 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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I searched for truth for along time, the thing is if there was a great truth I don't think we are supposed to know, so I just admit I really know nothing and leave it at that.
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~`Tursiops truncatus`~
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Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: Adom]
#451859 - 11/08/01 03:38 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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I can't force myself to search for something I am not ready to be. When I am ready it will be.
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MAIA
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I'm allready it.
It's not what you search, all that matters is on what standpoint you look at things and search the reason for them to be. I still have much too learn but what i search is myself, but myself is allways moving when i learn so i have to search for myself everytime.
Peace,
MAIA
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Kid
Carpal Tunnel
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Posts: 2,365
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Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: Dead Shaman]
#453180 - 11/09/01 04:55 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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There was a time in my life when everything seemed perfect. It was a set of circumstances, including interpersonal relationships, motivation, happiness, and time.
I'm searching for something which most people would say is impossible. I want those circumstances back, but I'd want to be aware that I had them back, instead of just going back and reliving it as though it were the first time.
I'm looking for something magical that I once experienced, which I don't seem to be able to experience again.
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gribochek
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Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: Kid]
#454022 - 11/10/01 02:50 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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I searched for the source of music,
but I was only bumping into the CD player.
I searched for the source of images,
but I kept staring at the TV screen.
I searched for where the thoughts were coming from,
only to keep pulling my hair out.
Only when I gave up looking,
did I find it.
It was hinding in the laugh of a three year old.
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Bullfrog
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 Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: Dead Shaman]
#454418 - 11/10/01 08:35 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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DS,
Life in itself is the reason worth living. Try having a child when you get old enough and you will see what is worth dying for.
I see my own life thru my child. He's only 5 years old. I wish he would never grow older than he is now. The beauty of life is more apparent to a parent. To think that my own father thought the same way that I do now, amazes me.
As far as living in a dream? No one that is sane, does that. Life is harsh from it's inception.
You're just young, that's all. At 40 or so you'll see the light. The shroud of confusion is a side effect of youth. Keep true to your family, at least. Friends come and go. I lost my life long best friend to drugs 14 years ago. When I think of all that I've done without him, since his death, makes my own life and existence all the more treasured. The death of someone close opens one's eyes to the valuation of life.
I laugh when I hear young people who say "I'll never have kids, I'll never get married." I lived alone until I was about 31.
Find someone to cherish and you'll find happiness. People need another person to help them when things are'nt going well and someone to enjoy the things that one used to enjoy by oneself.
Give it time grasshopper, you'll be fine!
Bullfrog
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Crobih
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 Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: Dead Shaman]
#454855 - 11/11/01 10:40 AM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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I found out that LEARNING is the purpouse of life. As much as you learn that much you will use your life. There are two possibilities why we are here.
One is that we are here with no reason. That means that you can do anything you want ..aka hedonistic imperative. But after a whilie you can realise that you can not be happy for ever, even if you use drugs to gain that state. Because happiness is fluctuatig in your life as anything else. So it sucks.
Second possibility is that we are on this plane with some reason. Ifound out that the only thing we can use in our life with no need for dogmas (dogmas are allways her when the system is not working right) is LEARNING again. Trying to be good or soemthing else is not logical..so it is not possible to follow that path.
Shit, there is too many things I would have to say for backing my beliefs, but all in all.. it is all LEARNING, SEENING, KNOWING, FEELING of EVERYTHING (good or bad, black or white)
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geokills
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 Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: Kid]
#456217 - 11/12/01 04:49 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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In reply to:
There was a time in my life when everything seemed perfect. It was a set of circumstances, including interpersonal relationships, motivation, happiness, and time
kid, you've grabbed the thoughts from my head and written 'em down before i had a chance to 
there was a time not so long ago in which i was completely content. i was happy, i believed that i would continue to live my life in this way and with the people i was with and it would only get better as i gained more independence. unfortunately everything has changed. sometimes i hate change, but i realize there's nothing to stop it. if there's one thing that doesn't change, it's the fact that everything changes. this was a very harsh realization for me. i've been mildly depressed since. i don't know where i'm going. i don't know what i'm searching for. i guess an easy answer would be happiness.. but, that's an easy answer because i don't know how to start looking for it, so i'm actually searching for the way to find happiness.
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Kid
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Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: geokills]
#456425 - 11/12/01 07:56 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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In essence we're both searching for the security and happiness of a particular past.
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fuzzysquirelnuts
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Loc: souhwest us
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Re: What is it your searching for? [Re: geokills]
#456533 - 11/12/01 09:27 PM (21 years, 10 months ago) |
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same thing as everyone else the answer to the eternal question......What is the matrix
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Timeleech
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I'm not as interested in *what it is* than *how to get out*.
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