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AbstractHarmonix
Love is like a train...
Registered: 07/08/04
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Mom is in a happier, healthier place.
#4037982 - 04/10/05 05:29 PM (18 years, 11 months ago) |
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My mom passed away early this morning.
She had emphysema, and it was a long struggle.
I tried to make it in time to see her, and I saw her...but I don't think she saw me. She was so dosed on morphine that she was unable to move, speak, move her eyes, or react. She was just "here".
I talked to her on the phone while I was at work before my flight. "I promise I will wait for you, I love you..." she said, and so it goes.
I am just hoping she heard me. I sang to her, a couple songs... She alays loved to sing with me. I played my djembe softly for her, and laid by her side that evening.
I miss my mother. She was my best friend. And I firmly believe that the ones who are here for me now, will be here for the rest of my time.
I am posting this to tell everyone to never take anyone or anything for granted. She never did.
Feb 5, 1946 - April 10, 2005
May the 3-11 breathe on. And much love to the mother.
-------------------- A plethora of music aspirations control my temptations of future revelations beyond "now". The percussion, and the heart beat of my love and devotion. The rhythm goes beyond, prying into the third eye, releasing the creativity held so far inside. The melodicies, through the out of tune pianos and broken classical guitars...there lies a beauty. A beauty as prevelent as the fire inside. To release these energies is pure ecstacy, to deveop these gifts is sacred. The vocality, so pure as can be, shying away from herself, lies within me. For the underlying serenitity, this is what I live for. I plea for harmony, and nothing more. Music equals love. Creation of love leads to the procreativity of the World, and it's spirals and puddles prevailing.
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FreakQlibrium
Son of Uncle Meat
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Loc: Toronto Canada
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Beautiful post mang My mom died apart from me but the rest of the family issued a restraining order so that i couldn't visit her on her death bed even though she was calling my name Glad you fared way better and I'm sure she heard your song(s)
-------------------- "Being crazier than a shithouse rat is not sufficient grounds for banishment"
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World Spirit
PNW
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I hope you have comfort during this transitional time in your life.
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question_for_joo
i'm left. youall can bite me
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I'm sorry for your loss. You gwyn see her again though.
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Dark_Star
train driver pervading a desktop
Registered: 08/20/04
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I'm sorry to hear about loss. I've been lucky enough to get some brief visits to where your mother is now....rest assured that she is in a MUCH better place, we'll all be going there someday. I wish her godspeed on her journey, and I wish you luck in dealing with it, as beautiful as that place is, it's still very hard to let them go. Freak.....a restraining order? That's fucked up man, I'm very sorry to hear about that.
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Le_Canard
The Duk Abides
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Loc: Earthfarm 1
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My condolences. I recently lost a loved one too, although it was rather sudden. Now is a good time to mend fences and cleave closer to your family so that the pain can be shared....
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Adden
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My condolences on your loss.
I could never imagine losing my mother.
When I die, though, I hope I have someone singing me songs and gently leading me into the afterlife.
Take care of yourself.
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egghead1
Nakedly Open
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Your mother now exists where she always has. Inside your heart.
-------------------- All you need is Love! Really thats it! Infinite Unconditional Love! Just develop that and all else will fall into place perfectly!
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UncleMike
Visionary
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I really know what you ae going through. My Mom passed in June 2004 with the same problens. She was in a coma for 6 weeks before she passed. I'm glad to see you know that she is in a better place. I know my mom is.
-------------------- Live each day like it will be your last, tomorrow my never come. SporeSmart
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Todcasil
rogue DMT elf
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mothers are special...
i miss mine also. im happy for everything though.
love.
-------------------- Men look at themselves and they see flawed humans, we look at women and we see perfect GODDESSES Women look at themselves and they seem utterly human, when looking at men they see proud GODS. ~Casil
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Gillette
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Re: Mom is in a happier, healthier place. [Re: Todcasil]
#4045193 - 04/12/05 10:48 AM (18 years, 11 months ago) |
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sorry to hear about your loss, but I'm glad you realize she's in a better place.
-------------------- ~Earth is the Insane Asylum of the Universe~ A closed mind is a wonderful thing to lose.
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Jellric
altered statesman
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I'm sorry to hear this. It sounds like you have the right attitude towards the experience though. May your mother rest in peace, free of pain and the troubles of this world.
-------------------- I AM what Willis was talkin' bout.
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Shroomism
Space Travellin
Registered: 02/13/00
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Again, I'm sorry about your loss.. but glad that your mother is in a better place, no longer in pain. She is at peace.. Take your time. I wish you well up there.
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flowstone
blustering
Registered: 01/25/05
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Loc: precious
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Ares,
My deepest sympathies to you and your family. I can only offer words to the future and a hope for well being. All I have gotten from you is good vibes and your mother must have played a part in shaping who you are. I mourn your mother, and I am sad with you. I know with time the wounds will heal and I know to honor her memory you must deal with many hard emotions. You are strong and vibrant, you will triumph in the positive over the good, and you will see the life over death. The eternal cycle of the universe and how it works in all its mysterious ways is not unknown to you. Stay strong, friend, I send all my love.
-------------------- these long agonizing months without you...have been long and agonizing.. "War Doesn't Decide Who's Right... It Only Decides Who's Left."
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chemistry
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aw mommy.
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AbstractHarmonix
Love is like a train...
Registered: 07/08/04
Posts: 3,509
Loc: The Sea
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Re: Mom is in a happier, healthier place. [Re: flowstone]
#4061947 - 04/16/05 08:55 AM (18 years, 11 months ago) |
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Thank you guys all so much for you loving words of support and friendliness.
It means the world to me. Some of you shroomerites may remember my mother as the one who took us all in after long journeys of psychedelic exploration, mental instabilitation, and providing physical rehabilitation in the warmths of her home in Florida.
She had the biggest heart on this physical world, and I am happy that she can now work her magic in the spiritual realm. Aquarius humanitarianism is what she possesses in her heart, always.
Her service was on thursday, it was very nice. Her viewing was on Wednesday, and to tell you the truth, I havent seen her look that peaceful in my whole life.
Thanks again everyone for all of your support.
-------------------- A plethora of music aspirations control my temptations of future revelations beyond "now". The percussion, and the heart beat of my love and devotion. The rhythm goes beyond, prying into the third eye, releasing the creativity held so far inside. The melodicies, through the out of tune pianos and broken classical guitars...there lies a beauty. A beauty as prevelent as the fire inside. To release these energies is pure ecstacy, to deveop these gifts is sacred. The vocality, so pure as can be, shying away from herself, lies within me. For the underlying serenitity, this is what I live for. I plea for harmony, and nothing more. Music equals love. Creation of love leads to the procreativity of the World, and it's spirals and puddles prevailing.
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trev
comming out of retirement
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You sound like a strong person and your mom special, a great loss. Please accept my humble blessings.
-------------------- Anonymous #14 [quote]There are billions of people on this planet. The world does not revolve around the united states, moron. I hope terrorists crash their collective cocks into your asshole. [/quote]
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Liz
Owl Lady
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Loc: Massachusetts
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I didn't see this thread until now. I'm so sorry for your loss.
We don't know eachother very well, but should you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me. I lost my father a long time ago, and I know how it feels to miss someone close to you.
-------------------- Remember, remember the fifth of November The gunpowder treason and plot. I see no reason why gunpowder treason Should ever be forgot.
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entiformatie
EvolutionaryMovements
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Re: Mom is in a happier, healthier place. [Re: egghead1]
#4073188 - 04/19/05 03:02 PM (18 years, 11 months ago) |
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what egghead said
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egghead1 said: Your mother now exists where she always has. Inside your heart.
this community is full of love
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Help on the Way
Slipknot420
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-------------------- *Divine Moments of Truth* "Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns - it calls me on and on across the universe" ~ John Lennon "Once in a while you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right" ~The Grateful Dead "Religionists, with their guaranteed eventual paradise, of which they know nothing, taking it all on 'faith,' can't be expected to understand or sympathize with those with a yen to storm the Gate of Heaven and see for themselves what all the praying's about!" ~Robert Hunter
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Silversoul
Rhizome
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My condolences. This can't be easy for you, but you seem to be taking it extraordinarily well. I see you have a very mature attitude towards this, and I respect that.
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CrazyShroomMan
journeyman
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Re: Mom is in a happier, healthier place. [Re: Silversoul]
#4076145 - 04/20/05 08:12 AM (18 years, 11 months ago) |
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I wish my mom would croak. That old hag calls me useless, a failure, a terrible person and so on and so on... I wish i had a mother who loved me that much Im still very sorry to hear of your loss though.
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Liz
Owl Lady
Registered: 11/16/04
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Re: Mom is in a happier, healthier place. [Re: CrazyShroomMan]
#4076366 - 04/20/05 09:46 AM (18 years, 11 months ago) |
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you can't wish death upon your own Mother just for calling you names. I'm sure she loves you very much.
-------------------- Remember, remember the fifth of November The gunpowder treason and plot. I see no reason why gunpowder treason Should ever be forgot.
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CherryBom
Yoga Gypsy
Registered: 12/26/98
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Loc: Ontario
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Re: Mom is in a happier, healthier place. [Re: CrazyShroomMan]
#4080993 - 04/21/05 11:36 AM (18 years, 11 months ago) |
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Ares, your mother sounds like she has an amazing soul. She'll always, always be there for you... but I think you already know that.
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CrazyShroomMan said: I wish my mom would croak. That old hag calls me useless, a failure, a terrible person and so on and so on...
I know you don't mean that. And even if you don't realize it now, you will later.
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Rolling
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Re: Mom is in a happier, healthier place. [Re: CherryBom]
#4082013 - 04/21/05 04:20 PM (18 years, 11 months ago) |
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Condolences for your loss...Moms always go to a better place... so wherever she is she'll always be watching over you....:)
-------------------- Rolling Wheels Power Wheelchairs "Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there."
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Roadkill
Retired Shroomery Mod
Registered: 12/11/01
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Loc: Montana
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Quote:
I miss my mother. She was my best friend.
I miss mine too...she was my best friend.
I was depressed for 2 1/2 years...after her death.
One time I got excited about something that happened in my life...and I called her to share my joy...the phone was ringing and then I remembered she was gone...and that she wasn't going to answer the phone anymore.
That was my sadest day.
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My condolences to you and your family!~
The pain gets a little less with time...but there are still sad days.
take care...and I'm sorry for your loss.
much
-------------------- Laterz, Road Who the hell you callin crazy? You wouldn't know what crazy was if Charles Manson was eating froot loops on your front porch! Brainiac said: PM the names with on there names, that means they have mushrooms for sale.
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