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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3955665 - 03/22/05 07:42 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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Hey blink. I have the same problem off and on.
I don't know if it's normal for us to feel like this, but really, apathy is the root of all this nonsense. I treasure my life and all the experiences I've gathered over the years just as much as the next guy, but I too have the overwhelming sense that it doesn't matter. I can't say that I don't jump out of the way of cars if they're going to hit me, but I can say that I go through periods of hopelessness just bad enough for suicide to enter my brain, but never severe enough for me to go through with anything.
Maybe you need a big slab of inspiration. A nice job, girlfriend and good friends are all great, but maybe those just aren't doing the job to satisfy you.
Or maybe it's chemical. Here, have a zoloft.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3955684 - 03/22/05 07:47 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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Yeah, been there, done that. I've also felt like taking my own life, but couldn't do it because of the pain it would cause my family & friends. As time wore on, I slowly got more and more numb to that, but then things suddenly got better (thanks to LSD, music, and reconnecting with many beautiful people.) Needless to say, I was very fucking grateful that I didn't do it....ride it out brother, you'll get back on your feet soon enough.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3955896 - 03/22/05 08:24 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3955909 - 03/22/05 08:27 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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I believe it to be just a phase. It to will pass.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3955916 - 03/22/05 08:28 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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yah man we all been there i think
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: Rebirtha]
#3955935 - 03/22/05 08:30 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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Quote:
Evan said: I believe it to be just a phase. It to will pass.
Good advice. Keep in mind some people spend years in situations like you describe. You need to find what makes you happy, and sometimes that takes a long time. Don't go for short fixes like drugs or new age movements- happyness takes a lifetime!
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: flowstone]
#3955966 - 03/22/05 08:34 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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pardon me but your avatar is plain freaky
nice
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CherryBom
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: LilShank]
#3955968 - 03/22/05 08:34 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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I've started to recognize the cylcles that I go through. They last about 6 months or so.
For so long I'm crazy. Job-hopping, partying like a rockstar, being mouthy...and then I just get sick of it all. I calm down, work hard, pay off my drinking debts, cook clean, make dinner and love it all the same.
Right now, I'm the good Bom. Crazy Bom is in hibernation or something. I don't know what it takes to wake her up, but when she's up she's in charge. I haven't been passively suicidal since my mid-adolecence. I'm grateful for that, it was a terrible place to be trapped.
Wait out the cycle, Blink. Spring is here.... maybe it will make a world of difference.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: Rebirtha]
#3955975 - 03/22/05 08:34 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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I understand, particularly the passive part. Lately, I've been finding myself in ridiculously dangerous situations, and I haven't tried to escape from any of them either (even moving cars). Personally, the green fairy makes me giggle when I really need a lift. Listening to Phish 03-22-93 also helps a good deal. If you would like a copy, PM me.
Good luck.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: 4bin]
#3956318 - 03/22/05 09:21 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3956334 - 03/22/05 09:22 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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you should look in to Jesus
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WildCardsRevenge
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3956413 - 03/22/05 09:29 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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It happens to all of us, don't worry it will pass. From the sounds of it you have lots to be happy about in your life, look at what you do have and bring things back down to the earth in your life. I find it helps me sometimes.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3956437 - 03/22/05 09:31 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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This guy is depressed, asking for advice, and someone gives the thread one shroom.....yeah, that'll cheer him up.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: Dark_Star]
#3956658 - 03/22/05 09:49 PM (19 years, 10 days ago) |
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you know what, man? maybe you should take a look at that list of things that you said you have to be grateful for. they are not to be taken for granted.
the worst thing i could imagine happened to me and you know what it did? it stopped me. it made me look at all thes things i pass by without a glance. it made me realize how precious they all are. and why? because at any time they can be taken from us
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3957971 - 03/23/05 04:20 AM (19 years, 9 days ago) |
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definitely some sound advice puritybinge
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In(di)go
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3958024 - 03/23/05 05:38 AM (19 years, 9 days ago) |
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yeah, man... we have all been there... as i always say... happiness is a choice inside our hearts... you cannot let happiness depend on exterior circumstances in your life... just choose to be happy... i know it's easier said than done, but with time one learns... i have to admit that i also have my lows like the one you are going through... in fact i am just now coming out of one... in those cases the only thing that keeps me going is the knowledge that everything comes in phases... in the words of brandon boyd "it's just a phase and i'm waiting for it to be over too" keep your head up! seek for the answers inside yourself
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: oDin]
#3958182 - 03/23/05 07:44 AM (19 years, 9 days ago) |
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oDin said: pardon me but your avatar is plain freaky
nice
Dont you just love my awesome photoshop skillz? PS- That is a picture of resident meth head shroomerite afoaf.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3958488 - 03/23/05 09:33 AM (19 years, 9 days ago) |
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seriously... i think you need to eat more amino acids, and start are more nutritious diet if you dont already. things like flax seed oil are converted into hormones like dopamine, naturally, to help increase a persons overall well being.
its a very subtle thing to pasivly suicidal, and also a very subtle thing to enjoy life... a very fine line between the two.
my best friend has the same problem you do a lot of the time, and he doesnt believe me, but i notice he gets down when hes not eating healthy. so i try to feed him those good green foods!
good luck blinkidiot.
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: blink]
#3958546 - 03/23/05 09:45 AM (19 years, 9 days ago) |
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^^ yes
improper diet can and will lead to mental depression
nuts are high in essential fatty and amino acids.. eat more nuts and eat plenty of RAW fruits and vegetables.. less coffee/refined sugar/white flour, etc.
don't forget to drink water and think positively.. life is great even when it sucks ass
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Re: Passively Suicidal [Re: Shroomism]
#3960964 - 03/23/05 05:27 PM (19 years, 9 days ago) |
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yeah blink, I'm like that alot, like sometimes I think maybe I'll just run that red and let someone hit me. I don't, but its still a thought, like its not really suicidal, but you can't help but think, really I don't care too much if I die tomorrow, theres no point to this anyways. And then the fear that I may miss something good, like one more wickedly exciting thing may happen and I keep on pushing through the everyday sludge. Thats what it is sludge. Don't worry, your not alone....and I'm just down the street for a coffee if you should feel like it.
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