I just returned from a trip to Sweden during which I thought a lot about my trip --
First off, this trip was planned and executed within 3 hours, so I had absolutely no time to mentally prepare or think about it (mistake #1). This entire summer pretty much has been looking forward to the next time I could hook shrooms, and since I dosed fine on the half-eighth lastime I figured I could handle a full eighth. Also, my friend who has tripped on an eighth twice was able to handle it, so, again, I figured What could go wrong.
Though my mind thought it was mentally prepared (I was fully convinced it would be the time of my life) we tripped in probably one of the worst locations (my friend's room) and didn't really have room to move around (mistake #2). I figured we'd be in another world so we wouldn't need to go anywhere
No cigarettes (mistake #3) well, actually we had 4 cig's or something in all and we smoked them in the beginning of the trip ...
As for the response to Alice in Wonderland, I wholeheartedly agree with you. I haven't really realized how evil AIW really is -- it was kind of fun to watch on my last acid trip so I thought it would be a nice "introduction" to the full eighth dose. Next time I am going to utilize a happier movie, if I even watch a movie...
LACK OF COMMUNICATION!!! I can't stress enough how little we talked and how we both lied to each other for each other's pleasure ("Was there no communication in this car? Had we deteriorated to the level of dumb beasts?" ... or something like that). After we started feeling the effects of the first half eighth, we decided to go in the bathroom and eat the other half (worst mistake of my life). I was already tripping hard and didn't realize it, too caught up in my ecstacy of having shrooms. And I wasn't even having a fun trip. The towels on the bath were "growing" more and more involved and detailed, but it became so scary that I wanted it to stop getting detailed and just return to a regular goddam towel. When I realized that things were becoming quickly scary, I just had a feeling that I was going to go too far, that it would become a true "wonderland." The most frightening wonderland anybody could conceive. It turns out my friend was experiencing the exact the same thought at the same time, but I thought he was having fun (and he thought I was having fun). And despite what I thought would happen, I really didn't get major visuals, not nearly as much as acid. In fact my ONLY visuals were of those hideous, grinning, cackling faces and eyes. No melting, etc. But these faces induced such fear, only people who have experienced this have any idea what this is like.
Due to the lack of communication, we both just sat there staring, freaking out (the worst freak out). I was trying to groove on anything, but it was all just too scary. When the peak started, I (unfortunately) went to the bathroom to check out how my face looked, and when I say it was just frightening, I mean it. My face looked like THE devil. My hand felt alien...it wasn't mine. I couldn't even bear to look at my friend.
etc etc i could go on forever but i don't want to waste your time with details that aren't even explainable.
I've decided that, sometime in the not too distant future, I'm going to do a low dose trip out where I can be free and have cigarettes and move around and just try to have as good a time as I can. If not, I am going back into acid until I feel ready again for shrooms (how odd did that sound? )
BTW does anybody else here also believe the freakout factor on an acid trip is somewhat reduced due to its' usual tendency to go towards a weird as hell but happier trip? i haven't experienced an acid freakout and I am sure it can be amazingly frightening but I just always feel so much better and happier and more alive on acid than shrooms. Acid is like taking a vacation to a very fun but fucking weird place, but it feels oh so real (visuals and everything). On shrooms, it's like going to mental hell in order to learn something, NOT to have fun. Shrooms are more of a hard learned lesson and are very tough teachers (as i learned on the trip, the shrooms are gods and if not respected they will have fun punishing you). Acid, though oh-so-confusing during the major portion, tends to feel so clear by the end. Everything feels so right with the world (kind of like E).
I dunno, sorry I just rambled on with what thoughts I have been thinking but overall, I decided quitting this quickly is not the right thing to do, but to be smarter with my tripping is the right thing.
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-------------------- So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. - Galatians 5:16
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