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MOTH
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my friend died tonight.
#3721781 - 02/02/05 09:36 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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I just got the call. I don't know what to feel. Maybe it will become more "real" when I go to the funeral. this is the first person i've been close to who has died. I'm just really not sure what to feel.
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HeavyToilet
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3721789 - 02/02/05 09:37 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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That really sucks.
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delta9
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3721793 - 02/02/05 09:37 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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A very close person to me died on the 29th. It still hasn't really set in... We can cry together, Ellemy.
-------------------- delta9
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Randolph_Carter
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3721810 - 02/02/05 09:38 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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Welcome to shock. It takes a while to wear off.
I'm sorry, losing a loved one is a horrible experience.
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dressel11
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: HeavyToilet]
#3721812 - 02/02/05 09:38 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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that sucks i've had people close to me pass on and only time can heal the pain. i wish you luck in getting over your tragedy.
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TYL3R
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: delta9]
#3721825 - 02/02/05 09:40 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sorry to hear that Em. Ill take a bong-hit for him !
Edited by x_TYLER_x (02/02/05 09:41 PM)
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MOTH
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: dressel11]
#3721826 - 02/02/05 09:40 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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thanks. I mean...I knew she was in bad shape. she had lung cancer and was in the hospital for awhile. it feels weird to say "was" and "had" instead of 'is'. I don't know. I mean...I only feel...empty.
thanks guys.
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3721829 - 02/02/05 09:40 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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-------------------- - - - - tiny_rabid_birds said: "your avatar is dirty."
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delta9
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: 40oz]
#3721838 - 02/02/05 09:41 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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Cancer seems to take all the good ones... Inoperable brain tumor on my friend.
Stay smilin' because that is what they would want you to do... or that is what I keep telling myself. Mayhap it will work for you, too
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barfightlard
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3721841 - 02/02/05 09:41 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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Im so sorry to hear that. Losing people close to you just makes you feel things you can't explain. I hope you have people who can be there for you and give all the love in the world to that friends family.
-------------------- "What business is it of yours what I do, read, buy, see, say, think, who I fuck, what I take into my body - as long as I do not harm another human being on this planet?" - Bill Hicks
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notapillow
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i am not good with death i just cant deal with it well im soooo sorry about your loss ellemy
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MOTH
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: notapillow]
#3721904 - 02/02/05 09:49 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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Yeah...it's just really...odd. that's the only way to describe it. My memory of her is the only thing that exists of her now. it's just weird.
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Toricious
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3721941 - 02/02/05 09:53 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
EllemyshShade said: thanks. I mean...I knew she was in bad shape. she had lung cancer and was in the hospital for awhile. it feels weird to say "was" and "had" instead of 'is'. I don't know. I mean...I only feel...empty.
Are you a container?
I've never dealt with this but a friend who has says this sentence from a teacher helped her when she said she was empty. But I dunno, just trying to help but I feel ignorant on this subject
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MOTH
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: Toricious]
#3722002 - 02/02/05 10:01 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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well you know...I know that everyone has their own way of dealing with death. But. You'd think I'd feel something. Maybe it's just shock, like Randolph Carter said. It's just so fucking weird. We're here one instant and then we're gone the next. Leaving everything and everyone behind. This is my first experience with death of a loved one. It's just too fucking weird. It makes me wonder about a lot of things.
anyway. thanks for listening, guys.
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Snape
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3722035 - 02/02/05 10:04 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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Toutes mes condol?ances, Ellemy... Le passage d'un ?tre cher vers l'autre monde peut te parra?tre triste et difficile... Mais tant que ses souvenirs resteront en-dedans des personnes qu'elle aimait, elle sera toujours vivante.. Pour l'?ternit?...
Just thought I'd give you some french... It's not easy losing a friend, maybe the sweetness of the french language will alleviate your thoughts...
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I'm floating in the sea of stars, I'm drifting away from the shore I will be lost in the dream when the dark days come But I will make the time run backwards and I'll make the stars shine again
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3722039 - 02/02/05 10:05 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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i'm so sorry, one of my best friends just died a couple weeks ago from a heroin overdose, i know what you are saying. When it happened, i felt stunned and sort of empty and it was hard to really know why i wasnt feeling anything at first
the emotions came later on
i still have trouble fully accepting that he's gone though
so sorry for your loss
may the love of everyone she's touched guide her back home
-------------------- *Divine Moments of Truth* "Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns - it calls me on and on across the universe" ~ John Lennon "Once in a while you get shown the light in the strangest of places if you look at it right" ~The Grateful Dead "Religionists, with their guaranteed eventual paradise, of which they know nothing, taking it all on 'faith,' can't be expected to understand or sympathize with those with a yen to storm the Gate of Heaven and see for themselves what all the praying's about!" ~Robert Hunter
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Todcasil
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laughing and crying helps.
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barfightlard
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3722051 - 02/02/05 10:07 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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When your dealing with a death it can seam complety sureal. It's like having an emotional overload and your lost with nothing because it all seems to strange. Your feelings will catch up with you if you don't let yourself let go and feel all the awful things that you should feel. Once again im so sorry because I know what it's like to lose somebody close.
I know youl get down this road of thorns and be ok, it will be hard and strange, but it's one me all must face sometime in our lives.
-------------------- "What business is it of yours what I do, read, buy, see, say, think, who I fuck, what I take into my body - as long as I do not harm another human being on this planet?" - Bill Hicks
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Trainwreck
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3722057 - 02/02/05 10:08 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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A good friend of mine died my sophomore year in a quad accident. I went through the same thing. When I got the news, I wasn't really phased. I was just like "Wha...hes dea-...what?" A few days later I was at school and it really hit me, and I ended up going home. Life sucks sometimes, but you'll see her again someday. Maybe during a trip
I'm sorry for your loss. I dedicate this bowl of blueberry I was about to burn to her memory
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kadakuda
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Re: my friend died tonight. [Re: MOTH]
#3722066 - 02/02/05 10:10 PM (19 years, 1 month ago) |
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thats really too bad. hope her family/friends and you are going to be ok. never fun dealing with that sor tof thing. but its part fo the circle and life will go on.
emptyness is jsut one way of dealing with it...i am oftent eh smae way. not everyone cries and goes through months of hell. its a differnt way to deal with things, but that doesnt change much
-------------------- The seeds you won't sow are the plants you dont grow.
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