While both marijuana and mushrooms are not physically addictive, they can be very mentally or socially addictive. Personally I had an extreme case of mental and social addiction with marijuana, at one point I had bronchitis and smoking marijuana would induce vomiting from coughing so hard. The sad thing was, I loved smoking weed so much, that I continued to smoke for an addition 3 weeks, daily, puking every time I smoked! I was smoking cig's also at the time, but when I started vomiting I quit smoking immediately, with no withdrawal effects. This is quite strange, since nicotine is documented as much more powerful and addictive as a drug vs. marijuana. So I feel your pain, even though psychedelic drugs are not addictive, they can be really fun for the experienced user, whom is comfortable with them self and the world they live in. At one point I was addicted to candy flipping at raves. I would take one or two hits of e and multiple hits of acid. I would go to parties every week and trip balls, I loved it. We even once went to like 4+ parties in a two week period, but at least myself and others were naturally not stupid enough to do drugs more then once a week. Technically e is not addictive really either, but come on it feels so great and is physically additive in pleasure rather then withdrawal. See with yourself and mushrooms, you only really have mental and physical pleasure, and the withdrawal effects are neg liable. So what you might find is you either get really sick, or perhaps you just get tired of it. I got tired of weed and don't smoke it anymore ever after smoking for 3-4 years solid. You don't really need to rush into it or anything, but you have at least accepted you have a problem. Now you must commit to change, follow throw with the change and finish the problem you have let consume you. It will be challenging, since you have established a mental map in your brain that taking shrooms is an weekly habit, like working out or doing the laundry. For instance, when you drive to work it is the same way every time. Then a roadblock occurs, blocking your normal way to work, so you have to go another way. On the way back you still go your normal route, hitting the detour once again instead of going the new route. You continue this process for at least 10-30 times before you get it right. You just have to support yourself through this process, or you can go to Na meeting or something to have some similar people to your problems, if you think you need help. Just take it slow, talk yourself into doing the right thing, it is going to take a couple months to change your habits. You sound like you have been doing shrooms like this for a year or so, it is going to take you a year or so to get fully out of it.
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Edited by Fluxburn (01/20/05 02:53 PM)
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Flux, thanks for sharing your thoughts. I know shrooms aren't physically addictive, but personally I think the psychological addiction to any drug is worse than the physiological one. Smoking cigarettes is so hard because of the psychological addiction to sticking something in your mouth, etc. That's my opinion at lesat. The exception could be heroin, which is probably equally psychological and physiological. Bad stuff.
I'm done with shrooms for the forseeable future. I've made my peace with them and moved on. As with any drug, I'm not so stupid as to think that I'm immune from its call. I'll have rough times in the months ahead I'm sure, but I now have someone to call upon when I have those urges. And I will not lie to my brother. An oath with him is solid. Funny how I promised myself something and couldn't (or just wouldn't) do it. I promise him something and I won't break that oath for anything.
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