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TinTree
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Your life, your choices
#3455936 - 12/06/04 05:14 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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Due to familial, financial, and societal obligations, I go to college, taking vocational classes. I learn how to maximize my message, or rather, my client's message. My classes teach me to impress information and cause the audience to take action, through both direct and subconscious cues, and attempt to inspire a certain state of mind. They do not spend anytime teaching concern for the morality of impressing consumption on audiences. I strive for spiritual fulfillment, meditating in the zen fashion regularly, and try to take everything around me in, while not attaching myself to anything. I drink green tea regularly, because it seems the thing to do. I exercise regularly, am being taught by a Shaolin kung fu instructor. I find the discipline comforting. Before I sleep, I do breathing exercises and try to perceive reality completely. All this is karma. It seems to me to have little more meaning than a flip of a card, and yet I can do nothing else. Forgive me for wasting your time. My question to the Pub is this: Why do you do what you do? For moral, rational, religious, or hedonistic reasons? Are you involved in being what you most wish to be or think you ought be? Why or why not?
-------------------- "I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery." - Aldous Huxley
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TinTree
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: TinTree]
#3455948 - 12/06/04 05:16 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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Err... if you feel this belongs in S&P, kindly send it there, if you possess such powers.
-------------------- "I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery." - Aldous Huxley
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: TinTree]
#3455967 - 12/06/04 05:18 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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Simply because I can't do something that isn't me - I tried and failed.
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: vampirism]
#3455994 - 12/06/04 05:21 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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I'm not always exactly what "me" is. I've got memories, and urges, and habits, and such but other than that...
-------------------- "I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery." - Aldous Huxley
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: TinTree]
#3456006 - 12/06/04 05:23 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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I do what I do because of financial and Family obligations
-------------------- I saw a little green light buzzing around in a tree, and it dawned on me that "they" were here ~~~LouiseLouise
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: JettaJay]
#3456016 - 12/06/04 05:25 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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Confucius once said something like: While your parents live, do not stray far.
-------------------- "I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery." - Aldous Huxley
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: TinTree]
#3456033 - 12/06/04 05:29 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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out of curiosity, what does it say about the day you were born herE:
www.icandosomething.com/mayancalendar ?
Does it mean anything to you?
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: vampirism]
#3456046 - 12/06/04 05:32 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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Justin's Oracle (Jul 15, 1984) Yellow Resonant Star
Guide
Sun KIN # 228 Challenge
Mirror Tribe
Star Compliment
Monkey Hidden
Skywalker
I channel in order to beautify, Inspiring art. I seal the store of elegance With the resonant tone of attunement. I am guided by the power of universal fire.
Green Central Castle of Enchantment ? Court of synchronization, power of magical flight
Yellow Root Race - The ripeners. Key note: flowering
Earth family: Blue Night, Yellow Star, Red Skywalker, White Mirror
SignalKin ? Unravel the mystery Solar-plexus receive
Blood Clan - Red Chromatic
Tone: 7, Note: F#, Name: Resonant, Function: Attunement
You were born in the Wavespell of White Wind in the Year White Wizard
Yellow Star ? Beautifies Elegance * When operating in the light of your energy, the positive aspects are: Expansion, Way shower, Harmony, Tolerance, Self love, Empathy, Clear perspective, Growth spurt, Inner awakening
Shadows When operating in the shadow of your energy, typical symptoms are: Self doubt, not valuing your own unique talents and abilities. Learning the lessons of disharmony.
Transformation To come out of the shadow: Develop tolerance and compassion for yourself and others. Self love is very important to gaining wisdom. Let Love prune away disharmony from your life. Simply express your chosen talents and abilities.
Life Question: How can I attune my service to others
-------------------- I saw a little green light buzzing around in a tree, and it dawned on me that "they" were here ~~~LouiseLouise
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: vampirism]
#3456081 - 12/06/04 05:39 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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I done fucked up.
-------------------- "I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery." - Aldous Huxley
Edited by TinTree (12/06/04 05:43 PM)
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: TinTree]
#3456087 - 12/06/04 05:40 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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hey, the year is very, very important. you were'nt born 2004
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: vampirism]
#3456096 - 12/06/04 05:42 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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Interesting. The purpose of my meditation and spiritual pursuits is liberation from delusion and ultimately self-realization, but that proves nothing. White Spectral Dog: ho ho! I do not get enough sun! Whoops! Wrong year!
-------------------- "I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery." - Aldous Huxley
Edited by TinTree (12/06/04 05:44 PM)
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: vampirism]
#3456102 - 12/06/04 05:43 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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Whoops! Daniel's Oracle (Sep 15, 1985) Blue Overtone Eagle Overtone Guide Night KIN # 135 Challenge Serpent Tribe Eagle Compliment Seed Hidden Worldbridger I empower in order to create, Commanding mind. I seal the output of vision With the overtone tone of radiance. I am guided by the power of abundance. Blue Western Castle of Burning ? Court of magic, power of turning around Blue Root Race - The transformers. Key note: abundance Earth family: Red Serpent, White Dog, Blue Eagle, Yellow Sun PolarKin ? Sound the call Crown receive Sky Clan - Blue Chromatic Tone: 5, Note: E, Name: Overtone, Function: Radiance You were born in the Wavespell of Blue Monkey in the Year Yellow Seed Blue Eagle ? Creates Vision * When operating in the light of your energy, the positive aspects are: Visionary, Belief in Oneself, Visions and Dreams, Global Consciousness, Commitment, Planetary Mind, Hope, Clarity, Insight, Overview, Telepathy Shadows When operating in the shadow of your energy, typical symptoms are: Feelings of futility; loss of hope and meaning; being the rescuer, saving others; unable to say no. Transformation To come out of the shadow: Believe in yourself, follow your dreams and visions. Remember the purpose and commitment you have in the larger pattern. Learn to temper service with nourishment and rest. You are an Awakener, a transformer! Allow your spirit to expand. Life Question: How best can I empower myself? --- On a side note, I identify much more with E than A#.
-------------------- "I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery." - Aldous Huxley
Edited by TinTree (12/06/04 05:49 PM)
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: TinTree]
#3456109 - 12/06/04 05:43 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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You have not wasted anyone's time, as anyone is free to choose not to read what you have written if they begin to feel that such is a waste. I applaud your efforts at an objective view of your own life, I think this is one of the foundations of why I use psychedelics, to constantly re-evaluate myself and whether or not I am moving towards my perceived goals. That said; Due to familial, financial, and societal obligations, I went to college, initially studying the mind out of pure interest in the persuit of a degree in psychology, after two years of which I changed directions towards a business management degree in efforts to persue the dream I've long held since being a very young child, to run my own life and be my own boss.. an entrepreneur if you will. Throughout the course of the business program, I had realized that the training I was receiving was geared towards those who wish to enter the worldwide corporate structure, inevitably requiring those persons to work their way up a heirarchy of power and money.. something I did not strive for. So it has come that I have put my formal learning on hiatus and have begun my own entrepreneural enterprise by becoming a third-party subwoofer distributor in connection with TC Sounds, a company close to me through family ties. I get my kicks out of persuing my own projects, and do not like the constraints of being told how to operate my life, or what objectives are necessary, other than those that I create for myself. Through all this, I have loved, and been loved, but have also felt the bitter sting of confusion with relation to unrequited love and have realized that though one may have the courage to be ideal, in reality there is none to trust but ourself. My personal ideal is to give others the benefit of the doubt whenever possible, live peacefully and at my own pace, and allow others to follow their own desires without hinderance so long as they do not infringe upon my own goals and existence. Thank you for your thoughtful thread If you would prefer it moved to S&P, just fire me a PM and I'll make it so.
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: geokills]
#3456151 - 12/06/04 05:51 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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Thank you, geokills. :bows:
-------------------- "I'm afraid of losing my obscurity. Genuineness only thrives in the dark. Like celery." - Aldous Huxley
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Re: Your life, your choices [Re: TinTree]
#3456295 - 12/06/04 06:22 PM (19 years, 3 months ago) |
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i do what i do cause i dotn have the balls to do what i want to do. been told to work and pay bills so thats what i do. i knwo i want to break the loop, too scared at teh moment. i do what i ahte and dont belive in and cant stand being a hypocrite for it.
nothing religious here, just plain money i suppose.
-------------------- The seeds you won't sow are the plants you dont grow.
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