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Tasty_Smurf_House
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Have I crossed the line?
#3354483 - 11/13/04 02:26 AM (19 years, 4 months ago) |
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I'm not sure where drug use ends and abuse starts. I may be abusing drugs and alcohol. I'm not sure. Something seems off though. A lot of people lately have expressed concern over my choices and where I'm headed and stuff. I don't see a problem but it seems like nearly everyone else involved in my world does. I'm in debt and I convinced myself to buy alcohol tonight so that I would feel better. I'm still a bit drunk. I feel better. I have no worries. My ex recently told me the reasons she gave me for breaking up with me were a lie and that she was concerned about my drug usage and that to her it seemed to be the only thing that mattered to me and that I have no motivation and that I don't care about myself. I'm confused, and sad, and I don't want help, I still want to do more drugs. I want to try heroin. I don't know. I feel bad about bother everyone again, it seems like I'm always posting my stupid fucking problems in this forum and I have it a lot better then a lot of other people and I feel guilty but at this point I feel like thing are getting really intense and I may be headed down a path that will end my life soon and I don't seem to give a fuck. I'm sorry to waste everyone's time, but I don't know what to do anymore.
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Super_Blunt
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want to try heroine? that's not cool meang
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Pathos
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abuse is when you use drugs to feel better. Sorry to hear you're feeling this way, but if you want to really feel better, you're probably gonna have to take an active role at some point and work to get yourself out of debtm maybe slow down on drugs and drinking. If you start taking care of yourself, you'll begin to feel more motivated and more satistfied
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Tasty_Smurf_House
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Re: Have I crossed the line? [Re: Pathos]
#3354528 - 11/13/04 03:04 AM (19 years, 4 months ago) |
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abuse is when you use drugs to feel better
Then I am abusing.
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Super_Blunt
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A little abuse never killed anyone as long as it is controlled, i am living proof
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Tasty_Smurf_House
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Re: Have I crossed the line? [Re: Super_Blunt]
#3354534 - 11/13/04 03:09 AM (19 years, 4 months ago) |
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Pathos
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Sounds like it.
It sounds like your life is a little unstable right now. Put yourself first, you have your whole life to experiment with and use various drugs, perhaps when youre a bit more settled. Not to say you should quit drugs altogether, but take care of whats truly important to you and put drugs second.
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Super_Blunt
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Have I crossed the line?
I've broke the mold and chopped the line
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Jellric
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The answer is YES. I'm not trying to be cute or anything, but when your loved ones get involved like that- that should be a red flag to you. I saw a post of yours in Other Drugs where you were advising someone on how to do H and I'm really glad to hear you haven't tried it yourself.
Sounds like you are at the proverbial crossroads. Choose wisely, my friend.
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Tasty_Smurf_House
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Re: Have I crossed the line? [Re: Jellric]
#3354546 - 11/13/04 03:20 AM (19 years, 4 months ago) |
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I hate decisions. I'm an indecisive mother fucker.
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Super_Blunt
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Procrastination = Elimination
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Tasty_Smurf_House
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Re: Have I crossed the line? [Re: Super_Blunt]
#3354553 - 11/13/04 03:25 AM (19 years, 4 months ago) |
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what do you mean?
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Super_Blunt
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I don't know just trying to put a good scare into you only kidding around, drugs are supposed to be fun not serious, quit reading into them so much
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Jellric
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If you hate decisions then you will follow the path of least resistance and I predict you'll be doing heroin soon. The river of addiction flows down.. You need to decide because its important. If not to you, then to those who care for you. Exercise your will and make a stand.
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Tasty_Smurf_House
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Re: Have I crossed the line? [Re: Jellric]
#3354630 - 11/13/04 04:05 AM (19 years, 4 months ago) |
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But I want to try heroin
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Super_Blunt
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I've tried it, snorted a qd of brown heroine powder with a total stranger, only time ive ever done it, didnt find it addictive but im pretty sure it prolly is. You want a fun drug & a chill pill get some good extacy some is bound to be filled with lots of hard drugs and not addictive
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Jellric
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You have free will and can do what you want, just be aware of what ground you're treading upon.
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Re: Have I crossed the line? [Re: Jellric]
#3354785 - 11/13/04 06:33 AM (19 years, 4 months ago) |
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But I want to try heroin
From erowid...
"The feeling off smack is like those sunny days when you go swimming and get out of the pool too let the sun dry you off but better. Its like coming in from a terrible cold day to get underneath the blankets and get that warm tingly sensation but better. Its like the relaxed feeling you get after sex but better. You don't care about anything. There's no euphoria just a pleasant feeling of nothingness."
I say go for it. Your problems don't seem to be taking action; they seem more in the line of getting in touch with yourself and actually stepping back from the world for a moment. Indulge for a little while and then start taking care of buisness. Good luck! I recommend the book, "The Heroin User's Handbook" for all the information on getting started. Enjoy yourself!
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Trendal's quick check-list for drug abuse:
1. Are you experiencing physical health issues as a direct result of drug use?
2. Are you experiencing severe mental disturbances as a direct result of drug use?
3. Do you find yourself borrowing money to purchase drugs, or spending money which you need to live with on drugs (if you have to ask yourself "food? or drugs?" then answer yes here)?
4. Do you constantly wish you had drugs, or were under the influence of drugs, while you are sober?
If you answered yes to ANY of these questions, then I would say your drug use has crossed over into the land of abuse. Please use this knowledge to fix yourself up. Identify which drugs you have a problem with, and CEASE ALL USE IMMEDIATELY!!! I would also reccomend that you spend AT LEAST 6 months of detox, so you can become used to being sober again.
Hope that helps!
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Re: Have I crossed the line? [Re: trendal]
#3355673 - 11/13/04 12:39 PM (19 years, 4 months ago) |
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Heroin is boring
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