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vampirism
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im i overly paranoid?
#3287803 - 10/28/04 12:52 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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I've come to realize that I feel horrible because of all the conflict I sense everywhere. The world is in shambles already, though not everyone sees this. I feel rather helpless with it all -
"reality" falls into the categories of my life and everything I've experienced, and then everyone else's same stuff.
I don't quite know what to do. I've generally been quite aware and perceptive.. but I can't tell if thats still the case, or if I'm just going crazy. ..
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3287809 - 10/28/04 12:54 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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I've come to realize that I feel horrible because of all the conflict I sense everywhere. The world is in shambles already, though not everyone sees this. I feel rather helpless with it all -
"reality" falls into the categories of my life and everything I've experienced, and then everyone else's same stuff.
I don't quite know what to do. I've generally been quite aware and perceptive.. but I can't tell if thats still the case, or if I'm just going crazy. ..
Hey if you want to start some type us underground militia , lets do it. With a small army maybe we can fix the world? I belive in humanity, its society that I fear.
-------------------- "...Gal's seem to hate the thought of blending chicken shit in a blender. So, wash it well afterwards & DON'T tell them..." -Agar
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vampirism
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: Civ]
#3287820 - 10/28/04 12:59 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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i don't want to fight..
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Wolfe3001
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3288081 - 10/28/04 03:39 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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In short: No.
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: Wolfe3001]
#3288438 - 10/28/04 08:41 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Wolfe3001 said: In short: No.
-------------------- The only thing that burns in Hell is the part of you that won't let go of life, your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away. But they're not punishing you, they're freeing your soul. So, if you're frightened of dying and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away, but if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth... bloodflower6 Yay for Pornography!
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3288546 - 10/28/04 09:37 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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you need to enjoy life
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vampirism
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: Vvellum]
#3289066 - 10/28/04 12:01 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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why? i'm not so keen on the live-to-be-happy thing.
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3289071 - 10/28/04 12:03 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Why? Because being happy... feels good. simple as that.
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3289086 - 10/28/04 12:06 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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cool. enjoy being a curmudgeon.
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vampirism
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: Vvellum]
#3289506 - 10/28/04 01:31 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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why must you be an asshole ? So if I dont follow the retarded mindset of BE HAPPY! LIFE IS FOR THAT, I'm a curmudgeon?
Yes, fun is nice. Yes, pleasure is also nice. No, living for pleasure is not nice. Don't get me wrong, I like fun and etc, but I refuse it when its only at the surface level. Why? Because I find it to be mindless and have some sense of spirituality about me.
I have certain.. goals in life, and I want to meet them. Working towards them makes me "happy." It's more like a mixture of blood and sweat and passion and horror which I accept as my own, and both love and appreciate.
ugh
nevermind, i don't feel like writing a paper on why *i* don't want to be a hedonist and why if you're not hedonistic it doesn't mean you're a curmudgeon.
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3289873 - 10/28/04 03:04 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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if you think you're overly paranoid then you probably are... the world is turning to shit slowly and surely (unless something big is going to happen and suddenly everyone "wake up") but that does not mean you HAVE to feel bad about it... there IS conflict in everything! you just have to find yr "center" and deal with it YOUR way... as long as you act from the heart and do what's important for you everything should be good... but you have to teach yr self how to react to all the BS that society throws yr way...
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3289898 - 10/28/04 03:10 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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did I say anything about hedonism? yes, I do think the key to life to find happiness, but never did I say happiness = pleasure or anything of the sort. where did that come from? go read that book the art of happiness
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: Simisu]
#3289909 - 10/28/04 03:12 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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simisu said: you just have to find yr "center" and deal with it YOUR way... as long as you act from the heart and do what's important for you everything should be good... but you have to teach yr self how to react to all the BS that society throws yr way...
Completely right.
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vampirism
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: Vvellum]
#3290898 - 10/28/04 06:33 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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hem well nevermind. I mixed things up a bit because I was a bit miffed that you told me I'm a curmudgeon.
sim - my way lies in absorbing all of it and trying to fix things in some way. The shittier the world, the shittier I feel. I can't help it. I find it interesting that you say if I think I am something, then I am. People have generally said that bringing attention to second-thoughts is very.. unhealthy . I still don't quite see why..
ah w/e, I posted this in a frenzy, as sometimes happens around full moons. Usually not this late in the year, however... Nevermind, nevermind..
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3290939 - 10/28/04 06:48 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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it's all good man
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3291036 - 10/28/04 07:20 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Morrowind said: People have generally said that bringing attention to second-thoughts is very.. unhealthy . I still don't quite see why..
What do you mean by this? I mean are you saying people generally think that your first thought is the one to go with? I am just trying to understand what you are meaning.
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3291058 - 10/28/04 07:29 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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You should come to grips with the fact the world lives in your mind.
-------------------- What it is, is what it is my Brother. It is as it is, so suffer thru it.
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vampirism
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: Fucknuckle]
#3291087 - 10/28/04 07:38 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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well for example: apparently if you ask if an idea is crazy, then THAT contributes towards it being crazy. I don't know if it's right, but thats what people have basically told me. Then again, i might be saying it wrong b/c i don't quite see the connection.
fucknuckle: i've spent a huge amount of time studying that and the repercussions in my brain.. There are many things in your mind ( which might not even exist ) which are not under your control, unless you find a way to change them. Assuming you actively do so, you've just changed your perception to match what you want to happen. For "real" change I'd have to find a way to effortless and automatically and smoothly do that. I haven't figured that out yet.
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Re: im i overly paranoid? [Re: vampirism]
#3291233 - 10/28/04 08:17 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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I think it is commendable that you feel this way. You are empathetic. I agree that the world is in shambles. You said pleasure is usually on a surface level, and I agree, we live a very superficial life. I think "real" pleasure comes from the giving of ourselves. Whether it is turning off the decorating channel so we can play with our kid, or visiting the elderly at the nursing home, the majority of us DON'T do it. It's almost as if we have an organ in our body that needs to be filled with the joy of giving and we are unaware of how happy it would make us, and we try filling it with other things and the pay off is not the same. It is as you said surface. I'm with you, I know what you are feeling. I remember back about 15 years ago when Saddam had all that oil emptied into the ocean and I saw all those birds suffering. I went to bed bawling my eyes out. Not that I am a "tree hugger", but I value life and I think it should be protected. I think you should want to feel better though. I mean are you in a state you can function in, or are you momentarily depressed, or REALLY depressed. You could give of yourself, that might help.
-------------------- If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything.
Edited by CER (10/28/04 08:18 PM)
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