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well... last night i finelly had a chance to trip! i've grown my own mushrooms and i have been wating for this expiriance for a long time... i decided to trip on my own becouse i've been dealing with alot of issues and was prepered to delve into my self and make peace with everything
my perents left at about 7:30 and i didn't waste any time and chewed on two mushrooms thinking that would be a good dose for my first time i was very excited to say the least. then i decided to meditate for a while just to relax my self and welcome the expiriance after that i put on some music and tried to relax some more i was anticipating too much maybe and about an hour and a half went by and still i could not put my finger on anything substantial! i played my didge for a while and then decided to take another small mushie and head out for a walk...
i was out for several hours just walking around or sitting somewhere quite (every time i passed someone i couldn't help but smile like crazy...) i felt pretty good and relaxed and i realized that in assance the expiriance was somehow always there only my consentration was somewhere alse... i had no visuals (closed eye or open) no breathing no living things around me no color changing... but something was defently diffrent my hair kept bugging me and felt weird...
at some point i sat somewhere and it suddenly hit me... i had a dream about that place a LONG time ago (it was near my old school so...) and i kept expecting to see this girl i saw in my dream then this guy and his little dog came along and i had a dejavue i'm pretty sure he was in my dream too
then i decided to go back home and smoke some weed to hopfully generate some visuals or something but again... it was just like always in a way! i played my didge some more but this time i REALLY got into it and finelly was able to play it naturaly (i've learned to breathing thingy a while ago but never was able to really flow with it) it was an amazing expiriance and at one point i actualy lost my consentration on the breathing and just played... after a few minuts it was like "how did i do THAT"
i moved to my room and put on Terry Bozzio (solo albume... only drums) and kept playing my didge untill my perents came back after that i watched some tv and went to sleep...
all in all it was a good expiriance but it kept feeling like i was missing something... maybe i was just expecting too much or something? i was pretty scared i was going to "see my self for what i am" and not be able to take it... but insted i felt quite in tuch with my self and realized that i WAS the whole time but my consentration was on other things and THAT made me "loose the plot" so basically i've decided to take a bigger dose sometime soon becouse i feel much more secure now and i know that it can't be bad at all
any comments or questions are more then welcome
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