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MellowMood
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Fridays are the worst
#3234672 - 10/08/04 09:12 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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For the lonely blues. I have no one I can connect to. The only person I would consider a friend has left for college. Not too far i still see him every other weekend or so. I have what I call "drug" buddies, but i dont really hang out with em. Its just so hard when you have no one to connect to. No one to talk to.
Is it that there is no one that i can relate to, connect to, or do i just not know where everyone is. I have more interaction and meaningful moments in my dreams than in waking life... I dont know what to do to meet people like me... Not that the past 3 or 4 months of "basically" solitude havent helped me at all. Ive been playing guitar constantly...writing...drawing...Im not a depressed person im just lonely... Im a pretty outgoing guy...i feel i put out a good vibe and everyone I meet seems to like me. But i guess i meet the wrong people? i dont know...
And its come to be that friday and saturday nights are the worst
My path is a lonely one. Much love to the shroomery you guys are always there
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Redo
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: MellowMood]
#3234862 - 10/08/04 10:05 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Sounds like me, but with one exception, I need to solitude. Others make me nervous.
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Divided_Sky
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: Redo]
#3235068 - 10/08/04 11:10 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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I know exactly how you feel. I've gotten pretty used to being on my own and not being very connected with the people I am around. On the other hand, I have been pretty larthagic regarding my guitar playing and poetry. At least you are being productive. Take advantage of the solitude you have. I lived in New Zealand for about 5 months, and I remember that I for about 4 of them I didn't have a single real conversation with anyone. It really sucked. You start to feel strange about yourself without reinforcement from people around you.
My advice is to not let your sense of ego isolate you. Our self-cherishing is the source of all pain and seperation. Recognize that and you will be able to connect better with others, and feel more content wherever you are.
Always remember that you have freinds here. I hope you feel better and more connected with other people.
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daba
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: MellowMood]
#3235083 - 10/08/04 11:14 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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IF you want companionship, you're not going to get it by staying at home feeling sorry for yourself.
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eris
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: MellowMood]
#3235199 - 10/09/04 12:12 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hey, you are not alone! I don't do shit on the weekends.. I sit here alone pretty much bored out of my mind. All my friends have moved on, my family lives 100's of miles away. I try to find positive hobbies to do on my own. I can relate to that feeling of solitude that you mention only Ive had it for much longer. I come to like spending time alone. It's really not so bad....
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fungigal
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: eris]
#3236034 - 10/09/04 10:00 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Hey friend you made it through friday and you'll make it through saturday. hang in there we are here to support you.
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Locus
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: eris]
#3236704 - 10/09/04 02:53 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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yeah same here, all my friends have moved on.
im stuck here though, and with a slew of problems. it's this viscious cycle im caught in where the problems keep me here and here there are problems also, and it never stops building.
but i can relate to the stuff you said eris, and the others also. so we're all together in this to a certain extent.
-------------------- The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery every day. Never lose a holy curiosity. ~ Albert Einstein "Fear is the great barrier to human growth." ~ Dr. Robert Monroe ~~~*Dosis sola facit venenum*~~~ *Check my profile to listen to my music*
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wandrnshaman
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: Locus]
#3237037 - 10/09/04 04:54 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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May be just a reflective period of your life. Embrace it, stay creative, and learn; know others are going thru the same introspective stage.
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eris
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: Locus]
#3237065 - 10/09/04 05:10 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Well what I find strange is that most of the time I want to be alone, yet once in a while I get an empty feeling. I don't have the desire to go out and try to meet people in bars or parties or something like that. But if i run into someone cool by chance, I wont let the opportunity go by. If any of you are really bored or something and need to talk just check my profile, I have my aol name in there and ill try to add my icq number also.
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druqks46
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: eris]
#3238893 - 10/10/04 11:24 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Its my first year in community college here (hometown), and i have one friend. and hes usually busy or there is nothin to do. so i usually keep busy and whatnot by myself. i look at it like a reflective period. Kind of recouping from this summer and last year when all i did was go out and stuff. At this point, i dont feel like goin out and bein real social. i figure that this is just a phase.. who knows.
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Pathos
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: Divided_Sky]
#3239172 - 10/10/04 01:11 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Divided_Sky said: My advice is to not let your sense of ego isolate you. Our self-cherishing is the source of all pain and seperation. Recognize that and you will be able to connect better with others, and feel more content wherever you are.
Great advice This is my first year at college as well, and I havent really had the desire to go out and be overly social. Ive met a few people, but no truly like-minded friends. I do get feelings of loneliness, but I cherish my solitude as well as it gives me time to reflect, draw, compose, whatever. I didn't do too much this weekend either, so dont feel too bad. Going for a walk can be quite refreshing.
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Grav
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Re: Fridays are the worst [Re: Pathos]
#3241511 - 10/11/04 12:49 AM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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My social needs elude me.
When I'm alone, I want to party. When I'm partying, it feels like a complete waste of time, and I want something 'else'... When I'm with a girl, I feel constrained and want to be free.. when I'm not with a girl, I want to be.
I need to get out of this town more than anything... my history here is suffocating.
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