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MOTH
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I am a construct not of my own devising
#3150000 - 09/17/04 08:48 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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More and more I am realizing that who I have has so much to do with how I was raised and so little to do with "me." For instance, maybe I just have a rebellious soul but the very essence of my being has been formed because I wanted to be the opposite of my parents.
It was sort of depressing to realize that every part of who I am is because of who I didn't want to be. Now I've just accepted it. I am who I am, even if events determined me.
It's really crazy when I think of how every aspect about me has been shaped out of defiance because of the way I was raised.
Can anyone else share/relate?
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Stinky
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Re: I am a construct not of my own devising [Re: MOTH]
#3150338 - 09/17/04 10:46 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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I think I understand what you mean. You are not just moving away from a certain set of ideals, but also towards your own. If your parents' values did not coincide with your own, I think its a sign of strength that you did not conform to their value system. There are plenty of people that I know that never second guess where they come from and what to believe in. ("My parents are Catholic so I guess I am too.")
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ElfWizard
Wizard
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Re: I am a construct not of my own devising [Re: MOTH]
#3150369 - 09/17/04 10:59 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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I understand but Find it hard to relate for I am "me" and have only been slightly shaped by the way I was raised. the core of my being has not and will not change been told I have an "old" soul if you belive that but what ever the case may be I seem set in my ways
-------------------- "Fear is the Mind Killer" Frank Herbert's Dune "Shoot straight, conserve ammo and never cut a deal with a dragon" Shadowrun street Proverb To announce there must be no critisism of the president or that we are to stand by the president right or wrong is not only unpatriotic and servile but is morally treasonous to the american public Pres. Theodore Roosevelt
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Divided_Sky
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Re: I am a construct not of my own devising [Re: MOTH]
#3150865 - 09/18/04 02:37 AM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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It's always funny when you notice how many of your mannerisms and habits you pick up from other people. Personalities are like everything else a constantly change product of cause and effect. Who we are is really just the sum of our experiences, the synthesis of all the different influences in our lives. I think it is the ego that leads us to believe we are solid, individual and unchangeable beings when we are always changing and our existance is completely interdepedent on others and the world around us.
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truekimbo2
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Re: I am a construct not of my own devising [Re: Divided_Sky]
#3152767 - 09/18/04 11:35 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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i'm glad i was raised by my parents and not LSD. it makes things slightly easier to figure out.
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mecreateme
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Re: I am a construct not of my own devising [Re: ElfWizard]
#3175147 - 09/24/04 01:31 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Have you ever thought there is not a "you?"
-------------------- No ONE wants to know the ultimate TRUTH, as soon as YOU find IT out, YOU want to forget IT. You are everything's way of feeling itself. Happy Schwag, everygodly!
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mecreateme
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Re: I am a construct not of my own devising [Re: MOTH]
#3175163 - 09/24/04 01:33 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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But you are not "you." You are a spiritual being on a planetside trip. Take it for what it is. You become what you resist. The key is not resisting but just letting life flow around you. When you just float around the things you want will come to you and you will find yourself in surprising situations that reflect what your true nature wants. Too much effort ruins something.
-------------------- No ONE wants to know the ultimate TRUTH, as soon as YOU find IT out, YOU want to forget IT. You are everything's way of feeling itself. Happy Schwag, everygodly!
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Gomp
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Re: I am a construct not of my own devising [Re: mecreateme]
#3175193 - 09/24/04 01:39 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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juxtapose
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Moonshoe
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Re: I am a construct not of my own devising [Re: Gomp]
#3175439 - 09/24/04 02:30 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Step one: realize you have been programmed
Step two: Total deprogramming (ego death)
step 3: reprogramming conciously
Be what and who you want
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