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 Memories from my five gram trip returning 
#3173573 - 09/24/04 04:52 AM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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I'm really high right now and started remembering my five gram trip in which I had an ego loss experience. I remember parts of it sober, but getting stoned really brings back the most intense parts of the experience for me. I remember how everything seemed to be in continuous repetition, just the same thing over and over again. It was like deja vu to the extreme, no moment was original, it had endured forever and it was all the same moment. Over and over again...
Just the memory of this makes me get that familiar feeling in my stomach. I remember how utterly insane that was and I scarcely can't believe it...wow...amazing. Every moment and any moment. I'm getting the flashbacks really bad right now, just thinking about it.
Anyway, that experience to me is a perfect example of "The One Eternal Moment = Only Now" thing. It was just so intense.
I'd say more but I think I'm losing my train of thought, but I just wanted to share this. 
truly,
*me*
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: MOTH]
#3173617 - 09/24/04 05:21 AM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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"I'd say more but I think I'm losing my train of thought, "
its amazing how when you get into such immense states of that sort of recollection words just crumble when you try to portray it to others
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: bmarley3434]
#3173653 - 09/24/04 05:37 AM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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It's like having a penis that is 9 inches erect, but goes flacid every time you get near a girl.
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: MOTH]
#3173827 - 09/24/04 07:12 AM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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When you view the whole - the Big Picture - there is no change.
This is what Ayn Rand calls the divine right of stagnation.
When the cosmos ends it will start again and it will happen exactly the way it did the time before.
Its an infinite loop - for us.
To God its just a pretty (big) picture - to him there?s no beginning and no end - to him its all in the same moment - always. God knows not of change - he is incapable of grasping the concept of change.
SpecialEd: your avater shows the look of the Masters.
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: bmarley3434]
#3174223 - 09/24/04 11:18 AM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
bmarley3434 said:
"I'd say more but I think I'm losing my train of thought, "
its amazing how when you get into such immense states of that sort of recollection words just crumble when you try to portray it to others
Yeah...the flashback was so poignant that my hands started shaking. It was incredible and I felt this uncontrollable urge to communicate what was going through my mind and what I was remembering, but it's so hard to express "It."
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: MOTH]
#3174422 - 09/24/04 12:18 PM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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"it" is what i call it as well.. i think calling god he is limiting it personally
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: MOTH]
#3174976 - 09/24/04 02:56 PM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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Keep getting high and you will remember more of it.
It seems that now more than a year since my nine gram blowout I can still remember things that happened that I had forgotten. As soon as I came out of that trip I lost all memory of what happened. Slowly, the memories came back to me. Now I can remember most all of it except huge parts that I guess were too intense and are still too intense for me. Like some beings revealed an immense amount of information to me and put a seal on it so that I wouldn't remember until I was ready. I guess I am still not ready for some of the things that happened during that trip seeing as how there are some blanks. I am confident that when the time comes, I will remember then, as in anamnesia.
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: MOTH]
#3176883 - 09/24/04 11:27 PM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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de javu ! so true. ! how weird is it, getting that feeling of familiarity, like you've been there before some time!...
shrooms are a reminder of our reality  !
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: MOTH]
#3178239 - 09/25/04 08:08 AM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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Lol special Ed, thats a good way of putting it
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Re: Memories from my five gram trip returning [Re: cleaner]
#3178251 - 09/25/04 08:26 AM (13 years, 6 months ago) |
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I got high again tonight, and it happened again. I remembered how I was absorbed by colors and symbols and so much was happening...so deep into my mind. anyway, thanks for reading. 
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