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I2ancid
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EGO LOSS IS GREAT
#3161634 - 09/21/04 07:10 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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I used to be so afraid of ego loss for a very long time because of a bad experience when I first achieved it. My grandparents walked in on me RIGHT when ego loss occured and I was battling it to try to communicate to them that ill be OK and im just tripping. No wonder it was a terrible experience. This time, I was alone, and knew I would not be bothered. I dosed 8 medium sized weilii and I weigh 185. I had total ego loss and it was the most BEAUTIFUL feeling of FREEDOM i've ever experienced in my life. I saw how everything that seemingly effected me and mattered in my life DIDN'T. It's so hard to explain unless you experience it, but remember, when it happens DO NOT FIGHT IT. If you begin going too far then say something that grounds you, like "jesus" that seems to take you out of the chaos. It doesen't have to be jesus, it can be whatever you wish, just something that brings you back to safety. At this time I also realized why the bible says to ask for help when you feel lost.
Edited by I2ancid (09/21/04 07:12 PM)
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Dark_Star
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: I2ancid]
#3161671 - 09/21/04 07:17 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yeah it's a wonderful thing, congrats!
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: I2ancid]
#3161688 - 09/21/04 07:21 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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It seems your consciousness of Being, the innermost essence if y[our] Life, transcended the obscuring ego.
It is indeed beautiful, and the precise reason why I have a deep respect for this magic-fungi.
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: I2ancid]
#3161787 - 09/21/04 07:33 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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I'm glad that you had such a wonderful, life-affirming experience. Thanks for sharing with us.
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WhiteRussian
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: I2ancid]
#3162285 - 09/21/04 08:53 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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nice, i remember my first ego loss, it was beautiful
congrads
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deff
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: I2ancid]
#3162427 - 09/21/04 09:23 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Quote:
I2ancid said: My grandparents walked in on me RIGHT when ego loss occured and I was battling it to try to communicate to them that ill be OK and im just tripping.
Thats worse than them walking in on you having sex with 2 girls.
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: plexus]
#3162444 - 09/21/04 09:26 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Or goats...
well...
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I2ancid
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: deff]
#3166905 - 09/22/04 08:49 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Anyone ever dealt with petrified grandparents and 10 cops while going in and out of ego loss? You want to tell them that you're just TRIPPING but they woulden't understand anyways.
The half inch thick tube rammed down my throat into my stomach didn't help the trip. Nor did the thick tube shoved down my peehole and the activated charcoal vomitting spasms.
I don't think trips get much worse than that. I'm just glad I got back on the horse and got over my fear. It wasen't the ego loss that was directly responsible for such trauma, it was the SETTING. SETTING IS EXTREMELY IMPORTANT!!!!
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: I2ancid]
#3167043 - 09/22/04 09:11 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Shit man that's horrible.
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: Dark_Star]
#3167067 - 09/22/04 09:13 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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wouldn't ego loss mean you that you would be beyond trauma for a while?
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: truekimbo2]
#3167081 - 09/22/04 09:15 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Yes, but before and after can be bad for people who fight it, or in his situation probably heh.
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I2ancid
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: deff]
#3170231 - 09/23/04 01:55 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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I was pretty much traumatized for a while. Id have flashbacks of it sometimes and break down.
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: deff]
#3171027 - 09/23/04 05:22 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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I thought you said goats?
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: I2ancid]
#3171060 - 09/23/04 05:29 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Congratulations, man! A lot of people are scared of ego loss because they're so attached to their ego. It's what they identify themselves with, so when they lose it, they lose their identity. It takes an adventurous soul to realize that that's not necessarily a bad thing.
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Re: EGO LOSS IS GREAT [Re: I2ancid]
#3171134 - 09/23/04 05:42 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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Mine was worse if it makes you feel better,I walked to gas station and BAM!!! it kicked in I was going to die what is life about O GOD I beat up a gas station punched the glass windows out ripped the registor out of the wall became one with life death fear and the fearle fought the devil worm infested cops then got my ass kicked by police and locked up in a mental hospital.............I was drug free for like a year after that.someone from denmark gave me some bad shrooms.ever since then all my journeys have been heavenly but im scared of the 5th level of enlightenment still.
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Re: deff [Re: I2ancid]
#3171853 - 09/23/04 08:03 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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"Or goats..."
you had sex with goats? lol
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WhiteRussian
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Re: deff [Re: I2ancid]
#3171882 - 09/23/04 08:07 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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"Mine was worse if it makes you feel better,I walked to gas station and BAM!!! it kicked in I was going to die what is life about O GOD I beat up a gas station punched the glass windows out ripped the registor out of the wall became one with life death fear and the fearle fought the devil worm infested cops then got my ass kicked by police and locked up in a mental hospital.............I was drug free for like a year after that.someone from denmark gave me some bad shrooms.ever since then all my journeys have been heavenly but im scared of the 5th level of enlightenment still."
wow thats like something i would do a few years back, at least now you can look back and say, "I was a crazy motherfucker"
pees
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Re: deff [Re: I2ancid]
#3171976 - 09/23/04 08:25 PM (19 years, 6 months ago) |
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my worst ego loss was 2 years ago.............
Me and this girl M, were tripping at this park, then we decided to get some bud cuz the shrooms werent working yet.....we got to this dealers house were there was like 8 people just chillin, by the time we got there, i started tripping balls, and the whole time i thought everyone was fucking with me........oohh bad thought..after 4 hours of controlling it, i had enought, i wanted it to end, i tried meditating, happy thoughts, nothing.......then i had a small plastic orange juice bottle, so i throw it at M, and it hits her right on the head (she said she almost started cry the next day, ) but shes cool as fuck so it was funny to everyone. Then i had a though ok pain =pleasure, and thats the truth, lol yeah right...........this part i dont remember but i hit someone on the back of the head and we started to fight....we did for a little bit, then M and I had to leave.....she was driving, we got in the car and it happened.........
My ego snaped, i couldnt believe i took that guy's shit, i grab the keys lock M in my car, get to the door start banging the shit out of it, someone opens it, i just start walking, i see statues picture, i dont give a fuck, im breaking all that shit.....i see a thurmastat on the wall, (at this point i feel like im god) i punch it, it shatters, then i see a glass pictureframe, i puch that ( my hand is bleeding) then I see that motherfucker, then i go after him and we REALLY start to fight, at this point everyone joins in AGAINS ME (lol) 8 v. 1 what are the odds? 3 people cant hold me down, then this guys father holds me down and I START TO FIGHT HIM (lol) I dont even know these people.......eventually im lying on the floor thinking............ "What the fuck am I doing?".......this is the only way i stoped
Overall this was a fucked up experience, and I deeply regret doing what I did, I left the guys father my # so i can pay for the damages and all, then appoligized for everything......this experience tought me alot, and I never did anyhting like this unless i was forced to by someone else (im from New York, and thats all they know) but this was a really sick experience, angry on shrooms? bad idea....
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holy ...ummm goat crap.
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