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Grav


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lost again
#3126795 - 09/12/04 06:48 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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i cant figure myself out... i've lived in this town for too long i've always been stuck between two worlds... i feel like i've explored too much of my mind and now I dont know where i feel comfortable. i feel like several different people, and I keep switching between them so much that there is no time for any development or progress.
i smoke weed, i have an epiphany about taking control of myself, then the stimulation recedes like the tide and I am pulled back into boredom's undertow, where I play half-contentedly like a child with toys, until I realize how alone I am in a big empty room with inanimate objects.
i have talent and potential and no focus. I bathe myself in distraction every day.
im afraid to make any investment - like im too busy waiting to wake up from this bad dream.
i've had a wonderous and chaotic experience with myself in this life... but i need to see some road signs now. more than ever I crave a sense of direction and a feeling of doing the right thing.
my sonar echoing off the depressions of the earth
im ready to kill to find my soul.
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Fucknuckle
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Re: lost again [Re: Grav]
#3126811 - 09/12/04 06:55 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Grav said: I cant figure myself out...
I have talent and potential and no focus.
I bathe myself in distraction every day.
I'm afraid to make any investment - like im too busy waiting to wake up from this bad dream.
STOP BEING A CHILD START BEING A MAN STOP BEING A COWARD START LIVING IN RISK
You have answered your own questions??
IF you have figured out your talents, then get busy You make the choice to be lost You make the choice to distract yourself You can make the choice to be what you are
Every choice you make is exactly that... YOUR CHOICE
STOP IT STOP RIGHT NOW TODAY CHOOSE TO DO CHOOSE TO LIVE
GROW UP NOW...............ok
-------------------- What it is, is what it is my Brother. It is as it is, so suffer thru it.
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Re: lost again [Re: Grav]
#3126962 - 09/12/04 07:43 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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i find direction by asking myself questions.
what interests you about this world?
what do you want to know more about? what do you feel is most important?
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Grav


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choice is death
inevitable
to choose is to kill
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Fucknuckle
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Re: lost again [Re: Grav]
#3127133 - 09/12/04 08:28 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Grav said: choice is death inevitable to choose is to kill
If you are simply going to say "Death is inevitable" Than that is what you should do, just be in pain and die. Or ....You can get the fuck up and do something. I once stayed in a nutward for 92 days as a teen. I sounded just like you. What a crock of shit that was. Telling everybody.... My life sucks, I can't seem to get it toghter, can someone please tell me the answers, can I get you to wipe my ass. ETC..... Life is all about feeling like shit and finding something to do about it. Get up off your ass and do something about it. Until you realize how selfish you really are being. Then you are in for a world of hurt. No one person is going to be able to help you grow wings and learn how to fly. You must do it. You must find away to become an adult. You have all the power to overcome this petty bullshit. Believe it and live in that power. Make a list of the things you love doing, the things you want to do, the things you are good at. Then start some goals and do them. Get excited when a goal fails. At every failure find joy. For everytime you fall, you build scabs to help you the next time. It is the pains from lessons that we feel. It makes us who we are. You must fall to stand. And be prepard to do this many many times But what ever you do. Don't just stand around and suffer. What is the reward in that???
Edited by Fucknuckle (09/12/04 08:37 PM)
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Wow...you sure said it!
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Re: lost again [Re: Grav]
#3130158 - 09/13/04 02:59 PM (19 years, 5 months ago) |
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Grav,
Do you truly want an eye opening experience, volunteer your time to people that are in less fortunate situations than you.
a) it passes the time which cures boredom b) it makes you appreciate what you have, how little, or crappy it may be.
oh, and if you can, stop smoking pot, at least for a little while.
-------------------- Re-Defeat Bush in '04
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