my first DMT experience. just to clear this, i DID NOT smoke quite enough to get to the peak experience. i will not go into detail as to why i did not have enough to "get there" as its irrelevant now. i layed back on the couch after inhaling as much as possible or the smoke. i closed my eyes, and all i could hear was my own breathing... very loudly. i vaguely heard my friends, S & P speaking in the background, but they soon were defeated by my internal volume. my very first thought: boy i should have gone to the bathroom before going on a trip... i should have peed.... wait... am i going somewhere? am i leaving? and i was going somewhere. now, for about three breaths, every inhale, i felt as if i was gathering fuel, fuel to take off into space, or somewhere. then i saw the squigle threads... it was beautiful, because i see these whenever i drink mushroom tea, and i feel like im pushing through the ether of the universe, like im seeing these goassamer webs. ive had several thoughts on these "threads"... one is that im seeing the strings of "string theory" fame, probability itself. maybe they are waves of molecules? ive also thought that they are the threads that connect everything that exists... thoughts/feelings travel on them and they grow and die. woo.. a bit off topic. SO, i see the webs and i am comforted by this, i feel like its going to be ok... when i feel that notion arise in my head, i was overwhelmed with a physical sense of awe/exstacy.... i felt AWESOME. no other way to describe it except "magnificent wonder". this has all happened in the span a few moments/minutes, im not to sure... then besides my breathing going in and out i hear this rushing noise all around me... woooshing louder and louder, until i take off... i am flying into some kind of space that exists somehow past the threads of existance i had witnessed... i felt like i was going into hyper space through this round dome-hole... very hard to describe... then just as i got to the peak of my flight this "membrane" came rushing towards me! thats where i was headed, thats where i wanted to go, i knew it! i knew that if i could just push through that membrane my whole reality as i knew it would "pop" like a bubble, and i would have achieved this abstract "thing" i was trying to do/get to. but right as it came just up to my face, and as i was reaching out to touch it, i started falling back down.... I had not taken enough, i thought! i didnt have enough fuel! i was falling back through the strings and onto the couch. i opened my eyes, with a huge grin and i screamed, "NOOOO i needed just a LITTLE BIT MORE!" needless to say it was wonderful, exciting, and it filled me with a renewed sense of wonder and awe about the psychedelic experience. i felt wonderful for about an hour after that, until it slowly faded back to "regular" myself. four out of five starts, boys and girls. and ill let you know what happens on my next adventure : ) peace Edit: to make this relavant to S&P ill pose these stupendous questions. the strings im seeing? they are a common element to my tryptamine experiences... any ideas as to what they are? ive already stated my more common strings of ideas (pun). peace
-------------------- Men look at themselves and they see flawed humans, we look at women and we see perfect GODDESSES Women look at themselves and they seem utterly human, when looking at men they see proud GODS. ~Casil
Edited by Todcasil (09/05/04 08:33 PM)
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