So i am quite well experienced and have had many trips on various psychedelics.
My GF recently got into the hobby and enjoys them also, so we started to go away on weekend trips to the woods where we would get a cabin, star gaze, have mind-blowing sex if the mushrooms allow.
We have done this dozens of times.
Then, we got ahold of some Penis Envy. I wanted to have a strong trip, and the Mrs always takes less than me, being smaller and also not as adventurous.
So, here's where I made the first mistake. Instead of testing the potency with a low dose, I took a 12g dosage for the first time.
She took 6g.
The second mistake was that we had a cabin with an open fire pit, I had started the fire at night and had 4 huge chopped logs fresh on when we took our doses.
Things were great to begin with, as they always are.
My GF then goes 'oh shit, am I on fire?!' I'm like 'no, you're fine lol'... I then felt the same feeling. So we decide to go inside as the shrooms really start to hit hard. She isn't from the country like me, and the outside spooked her a little bit that night, it was deep in a creepy forest.
Now I'm tripping balls and it's on me to extinguish this fire. I've never even used the hose before, and I don't know where it is, nor the faucet. Its pitch black and I cant use my phone.
Anyway, after what was a heroic struggle.. i managed to figure out how the hose faucet worked and got water flowing. That was extremely difficult in this state, but i wasnt aware of the next step.
What then began was a battle of biblical proportions as I poured water on this raging inferno which threw up what seemed to be tornadoes of smoke (i guess it was steam) into the sky. I felt like the entire forest was going to burn down, the cabin, and us with it. It was frightening.
All the while I saw lots of indescribable patterns, sparks, fractals, cartoons, and shapes flow out of this molten fire pit that i was struggling to contain with my tiny little hose pipe.
I finally seemed to get it under control and turned off the water and stumbled back to the cabin.
At this point the battle against the volcano really jolted me off my trip in a bad way, i was just anxious and paranoid.
The crazy thing is, this was only the beginning.
Once we both got settled into the cabin i sat there watching the cabinet which was white with black knobs, there were hundreds of the nods, moving around - and i was struggling to focus.
My GF then turns to me and is like 'are you OK?'
I guess i didn't respond quick enough because I'm tripping balls, and she continued to ask me again. and again. (i should say this is being told to me after the fact, at the time i didn't hear her. She tells me she was talking to me and i wouldn't respond).
Once she got my attention i told her 'yeah I'm OK, we just took WAY too much'.
and she says to me 'No. We took the right amount'.
The next part was the craziest experience I've ever had on psychedelics.
I started to become aware of my conscious, the being that's me - i felt it inside me.
I cannot describe this feeling well, but you know how you feel like you - and your whole body feels like you... Well, my body just felt like a suit. It felt separate from me. My inner voice felt like a separate being inside of me.
It was fucking crazy.
I don't know if this is what people term 'Ego Death' - but it was like the complete opposite. It was like my consciousness/ego was suddenly a physical thing inside me that i could feel, i could sense it inside me, where as my body was just attached to this consciousness inside of me.
All this while I'm seeing wild shapes, fractals, multiples of everything. Just lots going on. Too much.
I turned around to my GF and she had eight eyes like a fucking spider. This was stronger than LSD trips I've had. This didn't scare me as i knew it was the trip, it was just another reality check of 'holy shit this is alot'.
She sat in the corner of the room and i curled up in her legs as she held me.
I just kept saying 'its just the mushrooms. its just the mushrooms'.
There was a lot going on in my head at that time, especially as i was watching fractals fly across the room, i decided to close my eyes which helped as it was like watching a movie behind my eyelids and it helped me distract from my consciousness which started asking crazy questions like 'what happens if you just decide to jump in the lake outside?'
Since i was disconnected from reality i guess my paranoia started kicking in that i might do something completely disconnected from rationale.
I also had vivid paranoid thoughts about the fire burning down the forest, and us in the cabin, and news papers running stories about the two trippers who died in a firely blaze etc. You know, just typical rabbit hole paranoia when you let it take control of you.
Then we noticed the fire stared back up outside! I had to somehow get myself together and fight that beast again. A repeat of the first episode against the volcano of doom, but this time about 1/3rd the experience as it wasn't as large.
So after what seemed like an eternity, we went to bed and started to cuddle, and eventually fuck - which then put us back on a positive trip for the tail end.
Then as we finally approached the end of the trip the fire started again, FFS. This time i went out and had enough of my faculties that i water logged it completely.
The bad part of the trip was maybe 90-120 minutes, but as you all know - that seems like an eternity at the time.
Since then we have been using the same mushrooms and realized they are VERY potent.
Normally i take 6g to get a decent trip, but on these 3g is more than enough.
Same for microdosing, we normally do .2, but for these you feel .2, so we do .1.
So, 2 main lessons were learned that weekend:
1) In the future never heroic dose a new batch of mushrooms without testing first. (seems obvious in hindsight).
2) never have a fire pit blazing when tripping if nobody is sober to deal with it (or at least taking heroic doses) It's just a recipe for a bad trip.
3) told my GF if i ever feel like I've taken too much and i say 'ive just taken too much mushrooms' don't keep telling me 'no you haven't, you've taken the right amount'.
Afterward, she told me she was trying to comfort me, but i told her its the opposite. If i feel like I've lost a grip on reality, telling me that its just the mushrooms and they will wear off is a good thing. Don't tell me 'no its not the mushrooms, you took the right amount'.
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