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My current trip. Need to tell somebody. 3
#28671146 - 02/22/24 09:39 AM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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I took 3.6 grams of golden teachers this morning. My third trip ever. First of all… wow. I went into my head for what felt like days. In real time, no more than 20 minutes. Mostly good things. There was this being there. This being seemed fleeting. Hard to make out fully. Covered in an aura of warm light. I thought perhaps some sort of entity at first. Both masculine and feminine at the same time but without gender. Just a soul. I can’t put it into words. I could feel that this being is connected to the world and could feel all of mankind’s sorrows in this one connected being. I could sense it’s anguish for our dying world for which it shares a very deep connection. We sang. I NEVER sing. Not an actual song I guess. Just a deep hum or chant. It felt like it was thousands of years old and I called to me. Never heard anything like it. But my voice echoed it and matched its time and rhythm absolutely perfectly. Not sure if I actually made an audible noise and I can’t repeat it now. The rhythm grew louder and more intense and the being was there. I felt the being zap into me and then I was awake. It’s like that being I saw was my very own soul.
I had to tell somebody that might get it. Wanted to do it while it was fresh. Now I’m experiencing a wonderful body high. My mind is sharp as a tack. I think I’ll take a shower.
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: HazMatt]
#28671179 - 02/22/24 10:05 AM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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Epic! Nice.
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: Soul Flight] 1
#28671210 - 02/22/24 10:44 AM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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The previous two trips were 2.0 grams and 3.2 grams. Spaced about three weeks apart. 2.0 was a nice body high. Some mild visuals. 3.2 was pretty wild and wonderful. I dialed it up to 3.6 this time. It’s hard to describe. I put an eye mask on and laid in bed both times. Was I asleep? I can’t say. It wasn’t quite like a dream either. I felt like I was definitely some place. In my trip where the being was there, the was also this vault. A cartoonish looking vault. It was pulsing. Like a heartbeat or something. It literally said “>3.6g” on the door. As if that’s the combination. Intimidating yet tempting at the same time.
On my previous trip, I very much enjoyed taking a shower and brushing my teeth. Usually, I hurry through these tasks every day on my way to go make somebody else rich. But today is a day off. I took my time in the shower. Felt the water run through my hair and over my skin. I have always liked clean teeth so magnify that feeling by a million on a trip. The feeling of brushing my teeth is absolutely exquisite!!! Oral B soft bristles and some Sensodyne are my jam. I took my time with some nice sandalwood Prorasso shaving cream and shaved my 45 year old face.
I felt like I had time to take inventory of everything. Naked and wet in the shower. I’m very fortunate. I did 20 years in the military. Lots of deployments to Bosnia, Afghanistan, Iraq, and Syria. I am very fortunate just to be alive and mostly intact. I have all my teeth (always seemingly important to me). I have my family who love me. My wife and I were 19 when we married. Real stupid. Nobody should get married at 19. But I got lucky. My wife is a wonderful, kind hearted soul who pours everything she has into everybody around her.
I’m very fortunate and feel humble enough to realize that I haven’t always deserved it. But here I am anyways. For whatever reason. I had time to take inventory and apologize to myself. Apologize to my body for some of the self inflicted abuse. Lol. My body is a trooper. I’m working on caring for it more and being better to it.
Now, I’m just sitting on my back porch with the dog I didn’t want. Lucy. She has been my shadow for the past five years we’ve had her. I’m definitely her favorite much to my wife’s dismay. We are enjoying some unseasonably warm weather. Lucy is always looking out for me. Protecting me from squirrels and some dog that barked a half mile from here. She seems to get me though. I feel like dogs feel their connection to the world and to us humans constantly. They don’t need shrooms to dumb their brains down to feel it. Lucy seems to get it though. It’s almost like she understands that her life here is short and fleeting. But she has a purpose and a job to do. And she’s great at it. Dogs and shrooms. Do it.
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: HazMatt]
#28671291 - 02/22/24 12:06 PM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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Awesome! So beautiful.
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: HazMatt]
#28671308 - 02/22/24 12:18 PM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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On my previous trip, I very much enjoyed taking a shower and brushing my teeth. Usually, I hurry through these tasks every day on my way to go make somebody else rich. But today is a day off. I took my time in the shower. Felt the water run through my hair and over my skin...
I felt like I had time to take inventory of everything. Naked and wet in the shower. I’m very fortunate. I did 20 years in the military. Lots of deployments to Bosnia, Afghanistan, Iraq, and Syria. I am very fortunate just to be alive and mostly intact. I have all my teeth (always seemingly important to me). I have my family who love me. My wife and I were 19 when we married. Real stupid. Nobody should get married at 19. But I got lucky. My wife is a wonderful, kind hearted soul who pours everything she has into everybody around her.
I’m very fortunate and feel humble enough to realize that I haven’t always deserved it. But here I am anyways. For whatever reason. I had time to take inventory and apologize to myself. Apologize to my body for some of the self inflicted abuse. Lol. My body is a trooper. I’m working on caring for it more and being better to it.
Really powerful stuff. I love how psychedelics take the hurry out of things as well. The extra few minutes spent enjoying the shower end up echoing and brightening the whole day... but a few weeks after a trip, we're back to rushing through life again.
Beautiful to hear your appreciation for both life in general and your life.
Thanks for taking the time to share.
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: shed light]
#28671343 - 02/22/24 12:45 PM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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Great read, sounds like you have the right approach to this, which is really cool to see 
Thanks for sharing and good luck with your journey. Sending positive vibes your way
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: Womble]
#28671355 - 02/22/24 12:51 PM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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Can vouch for dogs as trip sitters; almost like they know you're off somewhere and they're there to anchor you 👍🏻
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: shed light]
#28671359 - 02/22/24 12:54 PM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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Thanks y’all. I was laid off from a company I worked for for five and a half years. A multi billion dollar company. I was the top performer in my department two years in a row. I was paid well. A very technical job that requires a lot of expertise and time invested to learn the skills necessary. But they laid off a bunch of us after the new year. They fuck you every way they can. First, you have to take four weeks of leave without pay. “You’re still an employee and can keep your dental and vision benefits! Hurrr durrrr!!!” But guess what? You can’t file for unemployment. First time in my life I’ve found myself unemployed. I found out today after my trip that my state, Oklahoma, is one of a few dumb fuck states that allows an employer to NOT pay out saved up PTO. My company that made $15 billion in profits last year thanks to people like me, decided they’d take that option and not pay us our PTO. I had about a week saved up. A buddy has like six weeks! Totally fucked. What a bunch of shit heels.
Had this happened to me six months ago before I’d discovered shrooms, I’d have been a wreck. Distraught, stressed out, etc. but today, I’m nice and chill. I can see my path forward. I’ll be okay despite these shitty, greedy fucks in the world. Thanks to the Shroomery and all that I have learned here and thanks to shrooms, I’m clear for the first time in my life. Shrooms give my mind the break needed from depression, anxiety and uncertainty. That stuff clouds your judgment. Break free for a day and you can think clear and more easily find solutions to your problems. I have a feeling I’ll come out even better on the other side of this stupid situation. I feel sorry for my coworkers. Some in a far worse position than I am. Wish I could tell them about shrooms!
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: shed light]
#28671424 - 02/22/24 01:44 PM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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On my previous trip, I very much enjoyed taking a shower and brushing my teeth. Usually, I hurry through these tasks every day on my way to go make somebody else rich. But today is a day off. I took my time in the shower. Felt the water run through my hair and over my skin...
I felt like I had time to take inventory of everything. Naked and wet in the shower. I’m very fortunate. I did 20 years in the military. Lots of deployments to Bosnia, Afghanistan, Iraq, and Syria. I am very fortunate just to be alive and mostly intact. I have all my teeth (always seemingly important to me). I have my family who love me. My wife and I were 19 when we married. Real stupid. Nobody should get married at 19. But I got lucky. My wife is a wonderful, kind hearted soul who pours everything she has into everybody around her.
I’m very fortunate and feel humble enough to realize that I haven’t always deserved it. But here I am anyways. For whatever reason. I had time to take inventory and apologize to myself. Apologize to my body for some of the self inflicted abuse. Lol. My body is a trooper. I’m working on caring for it more and being better to it.
Really powerful stuff. I love how psychedelics take the hurry out of things as well. The extra few minutes spent enjoying the shower end up echoing and brightening the whole day... but a few weeks after a trip, we're back to rushing through life again.
Beautiful to hear your appreciation for both life in general and your life.
Thanks for taking the time to share.
Absolutely. I’m trying to find what works best for me. The last two times, I’ve felt great after. Like I do now. But I find that I start getting rushed again. Not too bad. I have gained new insights and have grown more patient. More patience for other people. Sometimes I think we only focus on ourselves and fail to realize that other people are irritated and stressed too. They don’t mean you harm or ill will. I don’t think humans are meant to live like we do. Working until we die. One of the things a shroom trip does for me, is help me enjoy the here and now. Because you can get in a rut where you feel like you’re always trying to get somewhere. You get there and then what? Hurry to the next thing. Just enjoy being alive. The feel of sunshine and fresh air. My dog I didn’t want but turns out I needed, cuddled up with me.
While I find myself getting back on my bull shit after a couple weeks I still take the insight and lessons with me. The patience and empathy are still there. I’ve approached my relationship with my teenage daughter in a new way that seems to be paying off too. Just good things. But I’m trying to do it right. My daughter doesn’t know that I do this. Honestly, I’m glad I discovered it in my 40s and not my 20s. I think I appreciate it more now that I’m older. I figure I’ll try to take a little 3g trip every two or three weeks. On a nice day. I’m always watching the weather and my schedule for a good time to take a trip! Lol!
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: Ligonnema]
#28671444 - 02/22/24 01:52 PM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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Ligonnema said: Can vouch for dogs as trip sitters; almost like they know you're off somewhere and they're there to anchor you 👍🏻
They just know! My wife saw Lucy on some adoption page back in 2019 sometime. I said hell no! She looks like trouble! I was working and she went to see her at the shelter. Said she was calm, quiet and chill. I relented and said yes even though I didn’t want a pet. We had lost another dog we’d had for 16 years and a cat we’d had for 21 years! That was real hard as I tend to get attached. Lucy came home and she was an absolute maniac! Barking, high energy, doesn’t listen, and always into something causing trouble. Our last dog was real chill. Never made a peep. Lucy was like a psycho! I told my wife that she had to take her back. But we worked with her for a couple weeks and it was like she knew that I was going to send her back. She worked her way right into my heart in no time. Now she’s like my partner in crime. We go camping. She rides on the back of my motorcycle. She is always right there. Rides on the center console in my truck. Lays her head on my shoulder while I drive. She’s still a nut and high energy and drive me nuts sometimes. But definitely the best dog I’ve ever known. She always knows just how to insert herself where she needs to be. Every single time without fail. She’s only about six years old but I hate that their lives are so short. It will be devastating to me when her time comes. But we are going to have all the fun we can until then! I always say that she’s the dog I didn’t want but I’d straight up kill somebody for that dog.
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: HazMatt] 2
#28671519 - 02/22/24 02:36 PM (4 months, 2 days ago) |
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Absolutely. I’m trying to find what works best for me. The last two times, I’ve felt great after. Like I do now. But I find that I start getting rushed again. Not too bad. I have gained new insights and have grown more patient. More patience for other people. Sometimes I think we only focus on ourselves and fail to realize that other people are irritated and stressed too. They don’t mean you harm or ill will. I don’t think humans are meant to live like we do. Working until we die. One of the things a shroom trip does for me, is help me enjoy the here and now. Because you can get in a rut where you feel like you’re always trying to get somewhere. You get there and then what? Hurry to the next thing. Just enjoy being alive. The feel of sunshine and fresh air. My dog I didn’t want but turns out I needed, cuddled up with me.
While I find myself getting back on my bull shit after a couple weeks I still take the insight and lessons with me. The patience and empathy are still there. I’ve approached my relationship with my teenage daughter in a new way that seems to be paying off too. Just good things. But I’m trying to do it right. My daughter doesn’t know that I do this. Honestly, I’m glad I discovered it in my 40s and not my 20s. I think I appreciate it more now that I’m older. I figure I’ll try to take a little 3g trip every two or three weeks. On a nice day. I’m always watching the weather and my schedule for a good time to take a trip! Lol!
You're taking the words right out of my mouth. More patience for others is key. And patience for others translates into patience for self. Like I'm way more forgiving of myself when I'm consciously patient with others. Like I chronically demand perfection from myself and expect the same from others, becoming disappointed or irate (mostly with myself) when I fall short. When I'm patient with others, I give myself more leeway as well and am a lot happier.
And no I agree 100%. We work more than hunter-gatherers worked. It isn't right. And these cities, with millions of people jammed into them. Not to judge anybody else's preferred living situations, but how can anybody be happy in that? I just feel stressed and overwhelmed when I visit places like that, and some people are in that crzy stimulating environment constantly. We mainline stress with work and then keep it going with constant noise and traffic and light.
None of the other bullshit matters when you can be happy with just the sunshine and the breeze.
I agree with the empathy thing remaining too. I think of the insights we gain in the psychedelic state as grains of sand. Many of them blow away over the course of the days and weeks following an experience, but a couple hang around. And over the course of many such experiences, the couple that hang around from each one build up. Its gradual, incremental change that ultimately adds up to large scale changes in mood and perception and outlook, eventually rubbing off on those around us and affecting them positively too.
Sorry for the thesis, but what you're saying really resonates with my experience as well.
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Re: My current trip. Need to tell somebody. [Re: shed light]
#28673444 - 02/23/24 10:36 PM (4 months, 1 day ago) |
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Absolutely. I’m trying to find what works best for me. The last two times, I’ve felt great after. Like I do now. But I find that I start getting rushed again. Not too bad. I have gained new insights and have grown more patient. More patience for other people. Sometimes I think we only focus on ourselves and fail to realize that other people are irritated and stressed too. They don’t mean you harm or ill will. I don’t think humans are meant to live like we do. Working until we die. One of the things a shroom trip does for me, is help me enjoy the here and now. Because you can get in a rut where you feel like you’re always trying to get somewhere. You get there and then what? Hurry to the next thing. Just enjoy being alive. The feel of sunshine and fresh air. My dog I didn’t want but turns out I needed, cuddled up with me.
While I find myself getting back on my bull shit after a couple weeks I still take the insight and lessons with me. The patience and empathy are still there. I’ve approached my relationship with my teenage daughter in a new way that seems to be paying off too. Just good things. But I’m trying to do it right. My daughter doesn’t know that I do this. Honestly, I’m glad I discovered it in my 40s and not my 20s. I think I appreciate it more now that I’m older. I figure I’ll try to take a little 3g trip every two or three weeks. On a nice day. I’m always watching the weather and my schedule for a good time to take a trip! Lol!
You're taking the words right out of my mouth. More patience for others is key. And patience for others translates into patience for self. Like I'm way more forgiving of myself when I'm consciously patient with others. Like I chronically demand perfection from myself and expect the same from others, becoming disappointed or irate (mostly with myself) when I fall short. When I'm patient with others, I give myself more leeway as well and am a lot happier.
And no I agree 100%. We work more than hunter-gatherers worked. It isn't right. And these cities, with millions of people jammed into them. Not to judge anybody else's preferred living situations, but how can anybody be happy in that? I just feel stressed and overwhelmed when I visit places like that, and some people are in that crzy stimulating environment constantly. We mainline stress with work and then keep it going with constant noise and traffic and light.
None of the other bullshit matters when you can be happy with just the sunshine and the breeze.
I agree with the empathy thing remaining too. I think of the insights we gain in the psychedelic state as grains of sand. Many of them blow away over the course of the days and weeks following an experience, but a couple hang around. And over the course of many such experiences, the couple that hang around from each one build up. Its gradual, incremental change that ultimately adds up to large scale changes in mood and perception and outlook, eventually rubbing off on those around us and affecting them positively too.
Sorry for the thesis, but what you're saying really resonates with my experience as well.
You summed it up perfectly. I love how all of the positive effects stick with me for a couple weeks. Really, I don’t have any bad side effects either! I bet the world would be a better dose of everybody could just macro dose one time!
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