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Big_Dub
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loser
#28641089 - 01/30/24 08:03 PM (3 months, 16 days ago) |
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I feel like a loser. Or maybe not. Maybe I'm not satisfied. But why? Life is not so bad. I'm smart. Strong. And physically healthy.
I have an easy job, live rent free. But I feel like I'm stagnating. Is this what life is like? Just growing and growing and growing then slipping into stability?
Stability was supposed to be the goal. But it makes me feel empty.
The adventure is gone but I still adventure. It's like the spark has run out.
I try not to stagnate. I'm constantly learning new things, reading. Playing music. Playing with my dog etc.
I maintain healthy relationships with my family and friends.
But I feel so empty. Is it me? Is it the crumbling of society before my eyes?
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Mystikal
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Sounds like you got it going on. Lots of positive things. I feel empty too sometimes. Don't be so hard on yourself.
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Big_Dub
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Sorry if it sounds like I'm complaining.
I am grateful for what I have, truly.
This was more of a vent. A poorly worded one with no plans or articulations
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Smellyhobbit
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Buddy you’re describing depression
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Big_Dub
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Maybe so. I've felt super emotional recently. Like I was watching something on TV and started tearing up out of nowhere.
It aucks bc I've been so on top of it and doing everything I'm supposed to.
When I don't and I fully behind then I feel worthless.
Now I don't feel worthless, I feel empty. This isn't the first time I've made a post like this
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GenesisCorrupted
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Maybe you’re just anxious that because everything is perfect. It only can get worse from here. Like you said though, everything is constantly moving forward. It’s not like you’re done. There’s still lots of things to experience and do. But I feel like you might have some anxiety because you perceive yourself as being where you want to be. So now you’re sort of sabotaging your enjoyment of it.
Just take stock of everything you enjoy. Really go through your place and appreciate the things that you’ve done. The stuff you’ve made.
Hopefully you’ll realize that you aren’t empty. You’re just worried about losing what you have.
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Re: loser (im sorry) [Re: Big_Dub]
#28641268 - 01/31/24 12:54 AM (3 months, 16 days ago) |
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Big_Dub said: Maybe so. I've felt super emotional recently. Like I was watching something on TV and started tearing up out of nowhere.
It sucks bc I've been so on top of it and doing everything I'm supposed to.
When I don't and I fully behind then I feel worthless.
Now I don't feel worthless, I feel empty. This isn't the first time I've made a post like this
Dude its been a rough up and down month for me too. There was a darkness over the month of January. I felt it.
Do you have any strong passions that get you excited about life? Maybe even psychedelics? Is there any Zest left?
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Sounds like you need your fight/flight response triggered. Go out and fight the most dangerous animal in your area with your bare hands. I bet you will feel a purpose then.....to be alive
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Nothing makes you feel alive like a life-threating situation
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GenesisCorrupted
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You guys realize you’re giving him the same advice that caused the SAW series right?
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Smellyhobbit said: Buddy you’re describing depression
Bingo. Been there. Seems like there is nothing to be depressed about, everything going pretty good in life, however I still felt a constant feeling of deflation.
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Re: loser [Re: Rukus]
#28641852 - 01/31/24 12:32 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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I’m sorry you’re feeling like this, that’s gotta be hard to feel down when you know you have every reason to feel good. I’ve felt kinda like this before. It’s like” why am I not more grateful for what I have, others would love to switch places with me, but I feel empty and like I just go thru the motions.
My scenario is likely different, but I will share what helped with me. I realized that I personally spend a lot of time on self growth. Every book I have is either spiritual or self help, and I have tons of them. One day I realized I spend way too much time in my head, thinking about myself and how I can be better. The fact is I had came a really long way, and the same inward looking that helped me grow, was now keeping me in my head and not as present as I should be for a guy with a family.
So I started putting my attention on the others around me and doing what I could to make their lives better, easier, or happier. It took the focus off me and that was great. But the genuine gratitude I received was more healing than any other practice I’ve tried. This may not help, but I figured I would try. Hope things get more meaningful and positive for you! Sending good vibes your way!
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ashfiken
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Big_Dub said: Maybe so. I've felt super emotional recently. Like I was watching something on TV and started tearing up out of nowhere.
It aucks bc I've been so on top of it and doing everything I'm supposed to.
When I don't and I fully behind then I feel worthless.
Now I don't feel worthless, I feel empty. This isn't the first time I've made a post like this
Go see a music show you've been always wanting to see something that would give you emotional value I get to feeling the emptys sometimes too I went to a show to an artist I'd been dying to see a few months ago. Now if I feel empty( like last night drinking) I put them on and I legit teared up with joy and emotion of the memory/sensory attachment I have and for the rest of the night I felt anything bit empty. Just a little trick I've learned to deal with this very practical problem many of us surely have
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Big_Dub
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spirit_shadow said: Sounds like you need your fight/flight response triggered. Go out and fight the most dangerous animal in your area with your bare hands. I bet you will feel a purpose then.....to be alive 
Honestly sounds like a good time
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GenesisCorrupted said: You guys realize you’re giving him the same advice that caused the SAW series right?

I always liked the premise of those movies haha
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Smellyhobbit
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Re: loser (im sorry) [Re: Big_Dub]
#28642281 - 01/31/24 06:41 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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Nah but for real, have you ever been diagnosed with depression? Is it something you’ve consciously dealt with before? Depression is walking numbness, man. It’s like chronic apathy, even when everything is going well.
I hope you feel better soon. Take some shrooms
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Big_Dub
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I don't see the point of diagnosis. I am against SSRIs and other medication.
It comes and goes, exercise helps a lot.
Weed used to help but then it made it worse so I don't do that shit any more.
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Re: loser (im sorry) [Re: Big_Dub] 1
#28642285 - 01/31/24 06:46 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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Yeah man I personally wouldn’t suggest SSRIs. I had bad depression my whole life. Mushrooms knock it out like I’m treating a mild headache with Tylenol.
Exercise definitely makes it better, yeah.
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Big_Dub
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I haven't tripped in two years. Maybe I need to. Maybe it's another crutch of just dealing with it.
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Man I'm telling you....what are you afraid of? Spiders? Go pick one up. I swear you will feel like a new man
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Re: loser (im sorry) [Re: Big_Dub]
#28642303 - 01/31/24 07:05 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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Big_Dub said: I haven't tripped in two years. Maybe I need to. Maybe it's another crutch of just dealing with it.
So that’s the thing about depression. You don’t “deal with it” to make it better. You wait for it to go away. It would be like me just choosing to have a headache when I could have ibuprofen and be fine.
Depression isn’t being down or being sad. It’s an imbalance.
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