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Redo
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its called HPPD, and its hell.
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skullfarmer1979
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Registered: 05/02/04
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: Redo]
#2864860 - 07/07/04 12:16 PM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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Thanks a million R edo.i never knew they had a website all about HPPD.now i'm really scared shitless.www.stormloader.com.now see.......... i'm not a troll!
-------------------- I TASTE THE WREAKAGE OF CRUMBLING FACES,I KNOW THE PALE THING IN THE DARKEST OF PLACES. -DAX RIGGS- get the most out of life,listen to ACID BATH!!!!
Edited by skullfarmer1979 (07/07/04 12:18 PM)
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BlueCoyote
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Ok, I 'was' definitively god, covered as John the Baptist for over 1 1/2 year. Most of my friends ever thought I would never come back. My dad wantet to send me in a 'mental hospital'. In this time I realized a lot of synchronicity (or how it's called) and I don't know until today if my mind had tricked me, or if it was real. After realising, that I wasn't wrong with wat I spoke, and realised the different levels of 'falling of believe' by different people, it was my decision to come back in - it lasted some more months. The main reason for this was the lack of compatibility with the 'all-normal' consciousness of others, which was not able to cope with my state of mind. I think my consciousness totally went in the right half of my brain, that's how my recognitions and my talkings did show. I talked mostly in metaphors and recieved my surroundings in a very holistic way. Realy crazy stories I could tell, for example I was able to influence the television. Better said, the television reacted to what I thought. Or that I practiced the revelation as a ritual (breaking the seals). I heard the voices of all humans in my mind as they pleaded for mercy at the end of the world. Everywhere there were signs and I could see everyone as true from his many incarnations. I categorized people from nonbelievers to believers, all with their special characteristics. As my father wanted to send me to mental hospital he put me in a trap (literally) with police and so on and I escaped, using signs, then convincing the police that my dad was doing wrong. It all was really not bad for me, because everything really totally worked out. So, even if it was totally amazing, I didn't want to go back to this state for a longer time. If you are in, the ways to escape get very small and you must be very clever, strong and paradoxly very faithful to get out. You must see the reason, why you must get out of this state of mind. Otherways I think it's hopeless. I think, if you really don't want to come back by yourself, you really wont. At leat, some understanding people had helped but really finally, I helped my self. Befor that I occupied much with occults, spirits and practiced some. I was a 'fighter' for believe and faith. my dream was to open the spiritual world to the real world. I dreamed about beeing some kind of holy person. I wanted prooves and evidences. So for this time, it came true for me, but badly only for me. No one (except one) could follow me to the conclusions of my thinkings. I learned really a lot fom this and it was a really hard way. Especially at the beginning, as it seemed as my uncounscious mind broke into my consciousness and at the end, to settle down back in reality. That, I have done with prayings and hard 'wanting'. So, it left as a prescious treasure inside of me and as long as society is not able to cope with those mindstates, I wont carry it out for the extreme anymore. Blessings Ad: This was over 10 years ago
Edited by BlueCoyote (07/07/04 03:44 PM)
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skullfarmer1979
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: Ekstaza]
#2865126 - 07/07/04 01:35 PM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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listen up!yea of little faith and littler minds!
-------------------- I TASTE THE WREAKAGE OF CRUMBLING FACES,I KNOW THE PALE THING IN THE DARKEST OF PLACES. -DAX RIGGS- get the most out of life,listen to ACID BATH!!!!
Edited by skullfarmer1979 (07/07/04 01:36 PM)
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Vulture
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my best friend in the whole world went psycho and tried to kill his dad cause he thought he was going to get raped and murdered in front of the whole world. When he finally got out of the looney bin...he was gay...and didnt make any sense when he talked.
He just called from california where he is chilling at a rehab thing for a while and he seems back to normal for the most part now.
but ill save the details for a later thread
-------------------- Work like you dont need the money. Love like you never been hurt. Dance like nobody is watching.
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splifftoter
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I know a guy whos pretty much retarted from eating acid pretty much everyday. He can still do stuff like hes an amazing drummer, but hes stupid as hell. He basicly blames everything on the acid and the fact that he was heart broken by alot of his girlfriends...i think he was just fucked up to begin with. Hes still a cool guy though.
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Ekstaza
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skullfarmer1979 said: listen up!yea of little faith and littler minds!
Exactly what does this supposed to mean? I don't recall saying any negative shit to you.
-------------------- YOUR EXPERIENCE WITH ANY GIVEN DRUG ISN'T THE DEFINITIVE MEASURE OF THE DRUGS EFFECTS.
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skullfarmer1979
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: Ekstaza]
#2865585 - 07/07/04 03:31 PM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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sorry dude, i just clicked on your quick reply. they know who they are.
-------------------- I TASTE THE WREAKAGE OF CRUMBLING FACES,I KNOW THE PALE THING IN THE DARKEST OF PLACES. -DAX RIGGS- get the most out of life,listen to ACID BATH!!!!
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hugo
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ive seen it before they look like they are having a blast
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Xlea321
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: hugo]
#2868637 - 07/08/04 11:46 AM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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I thought I was a glass of orange juice for 15 years. I was terrified I was going to "spill". Then someone pushed me over and I died.
-------------------- Don't worry, B. Caapi
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BlueCoyote
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skullfarmer1979 said: listen up!yea of little faith and littler minds!
Yep
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FatVsAsia
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Registered: 01/24/04
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yah there is HPPD,but i've never heard of someone stuck in a trip, just someone mentally stuck... i dunno. My step dad had a friend who tried acid for his first time and never came down and today is still in a mental institution
-------------------- Smoke The Weed
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Redo
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: FatVsAsia]
#2871206 - 07/08/04 11:49 PM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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FatVsAsia said: yah there is HPPD,but i've never heard of someone stuck in a trip, just someone mentally stuck... i dunno. My step dad had a friend who tried acid for his first time and never came down and today is still in a mental institution
Thats what we call HPPD, with other illnesses all in one, which is basically HPPD.
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nosaj
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Registered: 04/03/03
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I've experienced a bunch of these symptoms, but they vary and are spread out over time. I've come down from a couple hits of acid and was definitly not myself, definitly insane to some extent, this lasted for about 12 hours after the trip, so 24 after the dose. I loved it. I remember listening to some Barrett Floyd, I think the Live side of Ummagumma, and screaming as loud as I could with Syd and getting the greatest satisfaction out of it. Since then I've tripped a bunch more, mushrooms, acid, 5meodmt, and have more, different symptoms. I can usually get closed eye plasma visuals at will, usually, yellow on purple. Sometimes I can be in a train of thought, while I'm simultaneusly somewhere else and see nothing, a hole. It's weird, and must sound odd, but sometimes I see a complete absence of everything. I get trails of light, which causes me to see what if i didn't know any better appear to be UFOs. Then I hit a low point, about after the first time I did coke, coming down from acid. I was doing OC here and there, along with coke and took a great liking to them, had dreams about getting hoards of them, etc.. Then I dropped out of high school, half way through my senior year, got more depressed and basically lived 'Wharf rat'. I then started getting paranoid when smoking, and around my friends. I felt like an outsider, and I think I got a little weird. I had a great shroom trip recently though, and I wont ever do anything but trip and smoke from now on. Im a little less paranoid now, but still in isolation, not fitting in anywhere but in my own head. I don't know why Im writing this, but it feels good to get out. Maybe others have felt this way too. Just be careful, serious depression and drugs don't mix well. That's alot off my shoulders.
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MOTH
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Registered: 06/06/03
Posts: 23,431
Loc: In the jungle
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: nosaj]
#2871705 - 07/09/04 02:27 AM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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nosaj said: Im a little less paranoid now, but still in isolation, not fitting in anywhere but in my own head.
That's how I feel alot of times. Also, I have a preoccupation with constantly worrying that nobody is "listening" to me, and I noticed this especially during a recent trip. So when I think that nobody is "listening," it makes it harder to communicate because I think, "What's the point..."
Anyway, I've always had this problem. Growing up in a large religious family, often times nobody would ever listen to me at all. Parental units never cared to hear what I had to say, and if I said anything they ignored it, and so I grew up feeling constantly invalidated and hurt by that.
Just recently this has come up from shrooming, which has excerberated my feeling that "nobody is listening." Personally I think it's a good opportunity for me to confront these issues that I have. I've always had a rough time communicating my thoughts and feelings, and now this dilemma is pushed to the forefront of my awareness so that hopefully I can move past my own misgivings and concern about communicating with others.
Anyway, sorry this was sorta off topic.
*me*
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skullfarmer1979
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: nosaj]
#2871909 - 07/09/04 06:30 AM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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yeah ,i 'can't really say i suffer from the symptoms of HPPD,but i do have symptoms.the one that gets me every time is when i'm all alone at my place and i see something move out of the coner of my eye,and when i quickly look to see who or what has found it's way into my house and scared the shit out of me, there's nothing there!this happens almost daily.
-------------------- I TASTE THE WREAKAGE OF CRUMBLING FACES,I KNOW THE PALE THING IN THE DARKEST OF PLACES. -DAX RIGGS- get the most out of life,listen to ACID BATH!!!!
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sHrOoMeRrR420
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Never tried acid before. But it sounds like it really fucks with your head.
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Xlea321
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: FatVsAsia]
#2872491 - 07/09/04 10:53 AM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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My step dad had a friend who tried acid for his first time and never came down and today is still in a mental institution
Pretty much everyone has a "friend" who never came down, and usually a "friend" who thinks he's a glass of orange juice. It's an urban myth.
-------------------- Don't worry, B. Caapi
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BlueCoyote
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Re: never stop tripping????? [Re: Xlea321]
#2872660 - 07/09/04 11:44 AM (19 years, 8 months ago) |
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Alex123 said: My step dad had a friend who tried acid for his first time and never came down and today is still in a mental institution
Pretty much everyone has a "friend" who never came down, and usually a "friend" who thinks he's a glass of orange juice. It's an urban myth.
Believe it, or not. I speak from experience. Perhaps you should visit a mental institution and ask the dorctors there why the patients are there (for some scientific essays you are working on). I think you will find more than one, who is there, perhaps already for a long time, who is wearing out the effects of 'never coming' down, dude.
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Redo
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sHrOoMeRrR420 said: Never tried acid before. But it sounds like it really fucks with your head.
Most people are fine, but the people that get fucked up you never hear about, because they are in the institutions.
If your going to do psychedelics, shrooms are always a much safer bet then acid. And more fun too
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