Anytime I hear someone talking about how their relationship is transactional I just go "oops, that's not going to last"
You're either both on the same team and you're in it for the long haul or you are gonna be one foot in and one foot out and it definitely sounds like you've had your foot out ready to go whenever.
The fact you're worried about who is paying more or who is paying what instead of just having joint account for bills/expenses at the bare minimum just tells me you're not gonna be married for long
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