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RJ Tubs 202



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4.5x3.25 inches. Then I can just...write shit down. No particular purpose. Just feel like writing shit down once in a while, and so I do. Great for random...uh, stuff. It's also great for shopping lists and taking notes.

I started using these almost 2 years ago, and carry a short pencil in a sheath I made. I recently switched to using small Moleskine pocket notebooks, as they hold up better. A 3 pack is around $12 at Barnes & Noble. I use it at family events I organize. Usually to record names. I've been approached by people who are curious about what I'm doing. I guess writing things down is unusual these days? Writing a name down feels very different than typing a new contact in a pocket computer.
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Kryptos
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They're definitely a conversation starter. Most people whip out their phones and start scrolling. Consume content.
Writing is creating content.
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loladoreen


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Journaling is therapeutic for me.
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GenericHero
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loladoreen said: No Not like that Example Ill deal with that tomorrow If you don't remember leave it
I understand
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GenesisCorrupted said: Thinking of not existing is mu. I think more of the opportunities you have because of existence. I think your anxiety is the number one determining factor of your unhappiness.
There seems to have been some trauma in your life that is kind of emerging in a number of different ways. I could be wrong. But the agoraphobia in particular is something that you can conquer.
But the longer you avoid the problem. The worse I feel like it’s going to get. That doesn’t mean it’s time to lose hope. It means it’s time to get ready. Because you’re going to fight this thing.
When you go on your walk and you feel this anxiety. Try to question why.
If you can make yourself, realize that there is no reason to feel anxious. That you have nothing to fear. You can make yourself not anxious. It just takes a lot of practice.
Focus on your breathing. I find that to be the main first step of meditation. Then you focus on your heartbeat to slow it back down.
As long as you can control your breathing in your heart rate. You’ll find that you are remarkably calm.
I’m just throwing these out here because I don’t want you to have to use medication. I want to treat the condition. I don’t want to cover it up with medication.
I try to move around and get exercise. I do a bit of volunteering. It's helpful. I know everything living will die. I know this is natural. I know I'm just a side effect of swirly chemicals. With every pass I feel like I'm getting used to the idea. My symptoms are improved since the original post. I'm on a beta blocker now. When my body doesn't react with racing heart, ideas are easier to sit with. I know people don't like meds but some of us benefit from them.
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Kryptos said: Just out of curiosity, OP: Have you ruled out medical causes?
Thoughts of imminent doom (the second kind you describe) is pretty classic panic attack. Combine that with loss of appetite (especially if sudden) and I'd be considering a doctor, if you don't have a history with this.
I am seeing a doctor, but I don't think they understand the severity of my issues. I was telling them the other day about my death thoughts and a few minutes later they asked me if I've ever had a panic attack. Huh, I thought that's what I just described. I don't know. I think I present as too calm out something. My classic coping behavior is stone faced flat affect kinda thing. I also feel safe at the doctor's. There are nurses around and there's probably an aed around the corner somewhere. I feel like this makes them sceptical of my claims. I dress poorly and don't comb my hair or shave. They know I've partied in the past. I think most assume I am drug seeking. I don't even ask for stuff like benzos. Dunno, I've been documenting the symptoms for the next time I see the doc. I will try to make them understand the magnitude.
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syncro said: A concentration practice, Zen, mantra, something. In it you choose (non)thought proactively. It is healthy. Try to develop something regular but if not at first don't let it stop you from practicing however you can. Starting small is fine. Just sitting or relaxing and counting your natural breathing... Find some intro reading on what appeals, or just a simple instruction.
I've got a meditation track that I listen to. I practice putting my thoughts and concerns into a box. These thoughts are too big. I can't do anything about the terror.
I'm gonna take a different tack from the rest of the comments, go back here, and start over.

I've taken to sticking one of these in my back pocket. 4.5x3.25 inches. Then I can just...write shit down. No particular purpose. Just feel like writing shit down once in a while, and so I do. Great for random...uh, stuff. It's also great for shopping lists and taking notes. Plus, it helps balance out my back pockets, since it's about the width of my wallet. Avoid scoliosis and remove the mental load of unnecessary thoughts, all at once!
They're like 99 cents at walgreens.
I will give it a try. Thanks for the suggestion
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Kryptos said:
4.5x3.25 inches. Then I can just...write shit down. No particular purpose. Just feel like writing shit down once in a while, and so I do. Great for random...uh, stuff. It's also great for shopping lists and taking notes.

I started using these almost 2 years ago, and carry a short pencil in a sheath I made. I recently switched to using small Moleskine pocket notebooks, as they hold up better. A 3 pack is around $12 at Barnes & Noble. I use it at family events I organize. Usually to record names. I've been approached by people who are curious about what I'm doing. I guess writing things down is unusual these days? Writing a name down feels very different than typing a new contact in a pocket computer.
Heh. The "grandpa computer"
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GenesisCorrupted
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I’m just glad you’re doing better. Keep working on it.
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GenericHero
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Thanks, I'm going to try journaling as others have suggested. I intend to keep trying the meditation as well
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loladoreen


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If you ever get stuck with journaling try guided or prompted journaling.
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GenericHero
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What do you recommend? Yt video or something?
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Kryptos
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When I get sick of journaling I just stop journaling. But I'm no expert.
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GenesisCorrupted
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Usually it’s good to coincide it with something. Like a dream journal. Or your mushroom grow journal. Or your marijuana journal. Whatever really. You could just use it to gather your thoughts and write down what you tried to do every day. Maybe plan out your activities in advance. Or maybe just use it to keep your thoughts. A regular diary style journal.
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