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solarshroomster
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When I had my spiritual awakening, it came on me very dramatically in a way that felt like it was "impossible" to bear. Like, how did I so miss "this"?
I was upset.
I felt lied to. Like, how can I so have completely missed "this"? (What is "this" this which I cannot grasp.?)
"this" something i've never seen before. something never born before.
Something, I've never seen "before". "Before" "before" even meant anything.
-------------------- Chopin in Eternal Sonata: "I believe that I am somehow being tested. That I am on this journey to come to some realization. And in order to do so, I think I’m supposed to live my life to the fullest, even if it is in this muddled world of dream and reality."
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traveller_47
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I think I just had a rude awakening the way you described. Still reeling from it. I feel strangely present and grateful for lifeQuote:
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I want to share this with everyone & ask that others post experiences they’ve had when going through a spiritual awakening. It’d be super cool to start a spiritual awakening thread.
It would be "super cool" to start a spiritual awakening thread! Let's do it!
From my perspective, you've either had one or you haven't. It's not a sort of "in between" kind of thing. When you are undergoing spiritual awakening, it rips apart all that you know and forces you to review the prism in which you view existence.
You learn that the "rules" that you previously believed were "laws of nature" are not ironclad rules of the world, but rather different lenses of perception, different ways of structuring Reality.
It forces you to undergo a rite of passage, where you transition into new understanding. I liken it to puberty: just like you couldn't understand sexual feelings before hitting puberty, so too could one have not appreciated mystical feelings before having a spiritual awakening.
And, no, we are not talking about psychosis here...
In my spiritual awakening episode, I was totaled for about ~3 months, and I don't think I took it the best way. I was very disturbed by the fact that things that I believed shouldn't be happening were happening. The psychology of it was so severe that I went to see a psychiatrist to see if I became psychotic. They said I was definitely not psychotic, but just having symptoms of OCD and anxiety. Sadly, I think I took what could have been a very uplifting experience in a dark direction because of my background anxiety.
But, with that said, I experienced synchronicities that were just way over the top. Like, I would get an urge that "333" was the answer to everything, and then I spoke to someone the second I got that thought and they mentioned a three-three-three repetition. Or, imagining my brothers coming in with a pizza box, and lo and behold, they come into the room with a pizza box. Or, imagining an obscure person showing up randomly in a location, and lo and behold, they show up randomly in the location. It's not proof, but it's ridiculously low probability that it's just "random noise", in my mind.
At one point, I had a psychedelic experience without even taking psychedelics. I was gone for about 9 hours.
To be honest, I left the experience more frustrated and alienated than I began it. I was upset, as can be seen by my post here.
I was upset that I felt so lied to. Somewhere along the lines, someone (whether that be myself, my environment, other people, some combination) convinced me that the mystical world was just BS.
I thought it was BS.
I mean, don't get me wrong, I certainly had hope for God and all that, but I thought in the back of my mind that it was just a security blanket.
My spiritual awakening removed all doubt. It forced me to see that there were things I could not "see". That there was an ineffable aspect to Reality that, like it or not, very much exists.
Once you experience the "ineffable", your mode of going about life changes, because everything is reordered. The distinction between "in here" and "out there" blurs, and, from my standpoint, there's a lot of uncertainty. It's like finding out your entire compass was just part of a simulation and now here's the real compass you have to navigate the "invisible landscape".
Fortunately, I think my rough experience could have been avoided had I received more guidance. A few things come to my mind:
(1) People should have been clearer to me that the mystical domain / ineffable exists (2) There should be a wider appreciation for the powers of the imagination (3) Humility and faith should be appreciated over dogma and fatalistic (needlessly, negative) doubt--this is a general call for "open-mindedness" (4) People should be aware that there are perhaps countless angles from which to view Reality; the human sober state does not get to count as the exclusive purveyor of truth. (5) Life and existence should be appreciated as an awe-inspiring mystery, a source of endless joy (How amazing it is to exist!)
Once you experienced something that was impossible, you start becoming more open-minded.
In any event, my friend had a spiritual awakening as well that prompted him to write an entire book on the topic! It'll be coming out shortly, and I'll post it once it does.
I guess I had this rude awakening this Friday. Still feeling buzzed (exactly like a snow globe that has been shaken rudely). To your five points, I would add a sixth. Death. Everything that I was shown I was able to accept relatively easily. But even when you have prior experience with psychedelics and meditation, the trip can actually take you close to actually experiencing death. Not in a way that you think you'll die. Like you definitely know you are not. But it so close and intimate, almost as if your last moments. It is as if it is asking you "are you ready to go?". I accepted, felt peaceful after that. So any new trippers, please if the question of death arises, trust the process and accept it.
https://tricycle.org/magazine/death-awareness/
The next day, I am not feeling bad at all. I feel grateful to be alive. Humble because I know my physical form is finite. Thinking more about my parents who may be facing the same fear I felt.
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3 Go D3ath
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I've been doing quite well since my original post. I still feel a strong connection with spirit & know that I’m being guided.
Today I didn’t pay attention to my intuition & suffered an undesirable consequence. The consequence itself (although I don’t know exactly what it’ll be) feels minor compared to the disappointment I feel within myself for not listening when that inner voice said, nope this is not a good idea, don’t do it. I obviously wasn’t hearing what spirit was trying to communicate, but they’ve got my full attention & awareness now.
I know it would be greatly beneficial to develop friendships with like minded people. Just not sure how to find them other than internet threads which aren’t nearly as intimate as talking to someone in person getting to know them. You guys got any suggestions?
-------------------- We are the music makers, & we are the dreamers of the dreams...
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syncro
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Re: Spiritual Awakening [Re: 3 Go D3ath] 1
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Contentment in the Self, within, not without - this is drilled.
Not saying it's not conflicted and that we don't need human (mind) connection. Even on the forum and trying to keep it spiritual, we are externalized at the screen etc.
Part of Jivatman is Paramatman (individual soul is the Self), is in finding where is the truer complete connection. The external senses are in and encompassed by it, But I am not in them.
It's both, like says Forrest Gump, and in globe and flat earth, perspective.
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RareTricho
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traveller_47 said: I think I just had a rude awakening the way you described. Still reeling from it. I feel strangely present and grateful for lifeQuote:
solarshroomster said:
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I want to share this with everyone & ask that others post experiences they’ve had when going through a spiritual awakening. It’d be super cool to start a spiritual awakening thread.
It would be "super cool" to start a spiritual awakening thread! Let's do it!
From my perspective, you've either had one or you haven't. It's not a sort of "in between" kind of thing. When you are undergoing spiritual awakening, it rips apart all that you know and forces you to review the prism in which you view existence.
The last 3 years appears to have jump started many who were previously choosing to hit the snooze button repeatedly.
A great thread, peace.
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