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3 Go D3ath
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Spiritual Awakening 3
#28497199 - 10/09/23 12:19 AM (3 months, 18 days ago) |
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Lately (for several months now) I’ve been struggling to figure shit out. There are many areas of my life that I truly want to improve. I want to do away with old unhealthy habits & thought processes, & replace them with healthy ones. I’m on a mission to become the best possible version of myself that I can.
Early Saturday morning (around 5 am) I went out into my garage to take a pork shoulder off my smoker. I keep my smoker in the garage & just move it a few feet out into the driveway when I wana use it. Anyway, I decided to enjoy the early morning & a small bowl in my pipe. Not much, just 4 hits I think. After smoking I was just standing there looking up into the sky & I was completely overwhelmed with love & gratitude for everything in my life. It brought about an intense high, but not in an intoxicating kinda way. I felt so extremely connected with spirit. Stronger than I’ve ever felt. It was so fucking awesome. Its really hard to put it into words unless you’ve experienced something like that before. I was in so much awe that I actually texted a couple people about the experience.
Then today I was again out in the garage/driveway for several hours. Put new tubes & tires on my bike, did some maintenance on my air compressor, & ended up thoroughly detailing my moms car. It really needed a good cleaning. Multiple times throughout the day (in my peripheral vision) I kept seeing someone standing in the garage. When I’d look to see who it was… There was nobody there. It was almost as if I could see her in my minds eye. I couldn’t make out a face but could most definitely sense a female presence in a red dress.
Yesterday my gf sent me a tarot card reading, & she sent another today. Each reading was 2 cards. 1 card was the energy she’s bringing to the relationship, the other card is the energy I’m bringing. It was spot on. Freakishly accurate. In the 1st reading my card was the death card. It signifies transformation & new beginnings. It’s much more in depth than that, but that’s the basic gist of my whole reading.
I’m so stoked to have this strong connection with spirit, it’s bringing so much joy, happiness, confidence & a general sense of certainty into my life.
I want to share this with everyone & ask that others post experiences they’ve had when going through a spiritual awakening. It’d be super cool to start a spiritual awakening thread.
Edited by 3 Go D3ath (10/09/23 12:40 AM)
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Buster_Brown
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The ghost...the past being obdurate, perhaps even passive aggressive by nature. This real thing, the past, passively out of sight but with an overbearing significance and power in the present.
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syncro
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Are you saying you pulled a ghost card for him, or saying his apparition implies it?
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Re: Spiritual Awakening [Re: syncro]
#28497277 - 10/09/23 05:31 AM (3 months, 18 days ago) |
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My point is his significant card: transformation & new beginnings, may only be from his own spectral view, and that for the other 2 the weight of the past would probably remain a constant.
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GenesisCorrupted
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Everything you were describing those first couple paragraphs is where I was before my third trip on Ayahusca.
Afterwords, I feel like a lot of the anxiety of living my life is gone. I’m not gonna go into details. But I feel like there is a bigger plan. We all get to enjoy what we can from here. But it doesn’t matter if we don’t do that well here. I’ve been trying to actualize my ideal life. It’s gonna take time and effort. But now I know I can achieve it.
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Oh, there’s absolutely a bigger plan. I don’t view life as being in this body. We’re eternal souls who chose to come to Earth & have an experience to learn & grow from. In a way we’re all in an extremely realistic virtual reality game.
Did you go to a formal Ayahuasca ceremony, or do it on your own?
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I did a lot of research and I did my own ceremony. It went a little off the rails. Because somebody didn’t know that I wasn’t smoking DMT. But it was still an incredibly therapeutic experience.
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Inquiry I thought to share.
Question: About polarities, ups and downs, bliss and dukkha.
Kên / The Mountain
Above this Mountain's summit another more majestic rises: The Superior Person is mindful to keep his thoughts in the here and now.
Stilling the sensations of the Ego, he roams his courtyard without moving a muscle, unencumbered by the fears and desires of his fellows. This is no mistake.
SITUATION ANALYSIS: There is a higher vantage point available to you, but it is obscured by the visible peak of personal ambition. To climb to this higher plane, you must shake off the desires and fears of the conscious, visible world around you. To make this journey you must quiet the Ego, empty your mind of past and future, and dwell totally in the moment at hand. Thorough mindfulness of what is before you is the only tranquility. Be. Here. Now.
One changing line:
His constant goal is an end to striving. Good fortune.
Transformation:
Ch'ien / Modesty
The Mountain does not overshadow the Plain surrounding it: Such modest consideration in a Superior Person creates a channel through which excess flows to the needy.
Success if you carry things through.
SITUATION ANALYSIS: The Cosmos is moving toward equilibrium. Extremes are being tempered, excess is beginning to shift toward the empty. You can use these moderating influences to strike a balance in the world around you. Remember, though, that this Leveling will not come about through an arrogant confiscation of excess, but through subtler persuasions. Modesty and moderation are the keys.
Edited by syncro (10/11/23 08:24 AM)
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Re: Spiritual Awakening [Re: syncro] 1
#28499753 - 10/11/23 08:08 AM (3 months, 16 days ago) |
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Shaking off the Desires and Fears of the Conscious:
Bit of a power struggle going on here. My rowboat disappears overnight but I track it down without much trouble. The rowlock had been damaged but was in such a state of deterioration that it would have failed anyway perhaps in mid channel thus making the necessary repair a product of Divine Intervention as it were accepted in the scope of 'Love Your Enemy' rather than fueling social division.
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Re: Spiritual Awakening [Re: syncro] 1
#28499780 - 10/11/23 08:37 AM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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I want to share this with everyone & ask that others post experiences they’ve had when going through a spiritual awakening. It’d be super cool to start a spiritual awakening thread.
It would be "super cool" to start a spiritual awakening thread! Let's do it!
From my perspective, you've either had one or you haven't. It's not a sort of "in between" kind of thing. When you are undergoing spiritual awakening, it rips apart all that you know and forces you to review the prism in which you view existence.
You learn that the "rules" that you previously believed were "laws of nature" are not ironclad rules of the world, but rather different lenses of perception, different ways of structuring Reality.
It forces you to undergo a rite of passage, where you transition into new understanding. I liken it to puberty: just like you couldn't understand sexual feelings before hitting puberty, so too could one have not appreciated mystical feelings before having a spiritual awakening.
And, no, we are not talking about psychosis here...
In my spiritual awakening episode, I was totaled for about ~3 months, and I don't think I took it the best way. I was very disturbed by the fact that things that I believed shouldn't be happening were happening. The psychology of it was so severe that I went to see a psychiatrist to see if I became psychotic. They said I was definitely not psychotic, but just having symptoms of OCD and anxiety. Sadly, I think I took what could have been a very uplifting experience in a dark direction because of my background anxiety.
But, with that said, I experienced synchronicities that were just way over the top. Like, I would get an urge that "333" was the answer to everything, and then I spoke to someone the second I got that thought and they mentioned a three-three-three repetition. Or, imagining my brothers coming in with a pizza box, and lo and behold, they come into the room with a pizza box. Or, imagining an obscure person showing up randomly in a location, and lo and behold, they show up randomly in the location. It's not proof, but it's ridiculously low probability that it's just "random noise", in my mind.
At one point, I had a psychedelic experience without even taking psychedelics. I was gone for about 9 hours.
To be honest, I left the experience more frustrated and alienated than I began it. I was upset, as can be seen by my post here.
I was upset that I felt so lied to. Somewhere along the lines, someone (whether that be myself, my environment, other people, some combination) convinced me that the mystical world was just BS.
I thought it was BS.
I mean, don't get me wrong, I certainly had hope for God and all that, but I thought in the back of my mind that it was just a security blanket.
My spiritual awakening removed all doubt. It forced me to see that there were things I could not "see". That there was an ineffable aspect to Reality that, like it or not, very much exists.
Once you experience the "ineffable", your mode of going about life changes, because everything is reordered. The distinction between "in here" and "out there" blurs, and, from my standpoint, there's a lot of uncertainty. It's like finding out your entire compass was just part of a simulation and now here's the real compass you have to navigate the "invisible landscape".
Fortunately, I think my rough experience could have been avoided had I received more guidance. A few things come to my mind:
(1) People should have been clearer to me that the mystical domain / ineffable exists (2) There should be a wider appreciation for the powers of the imagination (3) Humility and faith should be appreciated over dogma and fatalistic (needlessly, negative) doubt--this is a general call for "open-mindedness" (4) People should be aware that there are perhaps countless angles from which to view Reality; the human sober state does not get to count as the exclusive purveyor of truth. (5) Life and existence should be appreciated as an awe-inspiring mystery, a source of endless joy (How amazing it is to exist!)
Once you experienced something that was impossible, you start becoming more open-minded.
In any event, my friend had a spiritual awakening as well that prompted him to write an entire book on the topic! It'll be coming out shortly, and I'll post it once it does.
-------------------- Chopin in Eternal Sonata: "I believe that I am somehow being tested. That I am on this journey to come to some realization. And in order to do so, I think I’m supposed to live my life to the fullest, even if it is in this muddled world of dream and reality."
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Your rowboat sounds like a keeper, or has a shared one. I pulled a Queen of Pentacles.
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Re: Spiritual Awakening [Re: syncro] 1
#28500052 - 10/11/23 12:14 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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syncro said: Inquiry I thought to share.
Question: About polarities, ups and downs, bliss and dukkha.
Kên / The Mountain Above this Mountain's summit another more majestic rises
SITUATION ANALYSIS: There is a higher vantage point available to you, but it is obscured by the visible peak of personal ambition. To climb to this higher plane, you must shake off the desires and fears of the conscious, visible world around you. To make this journey you must quiet the Ego, empty your mind of past and future, and dwell totally in the moment at hand. Thorough mindfulness of what is before you is the only tranquility. Be. Here. Now.
“ why do I climb the mountain?”
“ to challenge the mountain, to challenge DEATH! Why did Kirk climb the mountain. Because he’s in love. And the climb, is going where no man has gone before…”
Edited by GenesisCorrupted (10/11/23 12:18 PM)
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syncro
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Reminded of shamanic earth hugging. If things sync - this was my experience.
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Re: Spiritual Awakening [Re: syncro]
#28500112 - 10/11/23 01:11 PM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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In practice of losing my ego I always discover another one lurking.
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I've wondered this recently. Whenever there is 'grace' like that, any such experience, that it is being given by a guide type or Deity. It would align with teachers saying we don't know squat, don't have it here in our condition and shouldn't think so. On the other hand there is such vision and empowerment had, but it doesn't seem to last, bound to cycles.
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3 Go D3ath
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From my perspective, you've either had one or you haven't. It's not a sort of "in between" kind of thing. When you are undergoing spiritual awakening, it rips apart all that you know and forces you to review the prism in which you view existence.
Absolutely. & I can only speak for myself but it’s also very disorienting. I often feel as though I’m inside a snow globe & someone has shaken the shit out of it, while I’m wearing kaleidoscope glasses. It’s absolutely wonderful & chaotic at the same time.
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My third trip was a hell of a wake up. I spoke to some thing… I’ll post a link if someone asks. But holy shit. The shook up snow globe is a very good way to put it
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Re: Spiritual Awakening [Re: 3 Go D3ath] 1
#28501099 - 10/12/23 12:49 AM (3 months, 15 days ago) |
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Thank you everyone for your input. It’s awesome how many responses this post is getting. I’m gunna come back later & view more of your videos & links. Let’s keep it going! 👍
& yes GenesisCorrupted, please post that link. I’d be very interested in reading it.
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Buster_Brown said: The ghost...the past being obdurate, perhaps even passive aggressive by nature. This real thing, the past, passively out of sight but with an overbearing significance and power in the present.
the brainforest of dreams' seemingly always dreaming of what's seemingly as is - mostly in a manner in which it isn't. seemingly is also quite a powerful phenomenon, like a great magical illusion, seemingly, anyways.
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