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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: rxb]
#28462746 - 09/08/23 08:19 PM (4 months, 17 days ago) |
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Seriously_trippin said: Financially yes, I got my disability. Physically, mentally no not really. Maybe a little better trying to watch out for my health more and take walks when I'm not so depressed I can't get off the bed.
hang in there things will get better 

Thank you both one of these days I'm sure I'll break out of the funk for a week or 2 then straight back to it but the 2 weeks or so when I'm walking again will be nice lol
Seriously though I hope it gets better one day, California just approved decriminalization of natural psychedelics so possibly will be having more mushrooms. It does help but I straight up fear it.
Having Depression for over a decade becomes comfortable being in that state of mind,plus even microdosing can lead to be a little high which kinda screws up my responsibilities but not too much tbh. Just have my family talk to me less that day and slow down when using a sharp knife for dinner.
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Seriously_trippin said: Financially yes, I got my disability. Physically, mentally no not really. Maybe a little better trying to watch out for my health more and take walks when I'm not so depressed I can't get off the bed.
hang in there things will get better 

Thank you both one of these days I'm sure I'll break out of the funk for a week or 2 then straight back to it but the 2 weeks or so when I'm walking again will be nice lol
Seriously though I hope it gets better one day, California just approved decriminalization of natural psychedelics so possibly will be having more mushrooms. It does help but I straight up fear it.
Having Depression for over a decade becomes comfortable being in that state of mind,plus even microdosing can lead to be a little high which kinda screws up my responsibilities but not too much tbh. Just have my family talk to me less that day and slow down when using a sharp knife for dinner.
i cant give advice, but only what i would do if that were me. i would take a day, to myself...and megadose... maybe 15 or 20 grams... and have a reset... because its all just chemicals clouding the truth from you and if you can clear out the cobwebs you can live the life you were meant to. love and peace to you.
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: rxb]
#28462801 - 09/08/23 09:08 PM (4 months, 17 days ago) |
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I have been itching for even a tripping dose of mushies and haven't done so in probably 5 or 6 years at least. If I took even 4gs though I'd probably be close to ego death and I really don't want that. I have enigma mushrooms right now that are RIDICULOUSLY potent. I'm talking I get very high on a .3 almost uncomfortably so not tripping but still.
I know it'd be great for me but I'm not entirely sure I wouldn't call the paramedics on myself and I'm very afraid of my demons it's like jumping into lava you'll feel all the pain but you'll be totally unscathed after about 14 hours or what feels like 14 hours lol.
No ego death is not on the menu.
However I'm scared of a psychedelic dose for the same reasons, I know it makes me thinks deeply and honestly with myself which terrifies me but on a 2-3g dose I just may be able to do it thanks I'm actually going to consider it. Even if I go from 2gs to 3gs to maybe 4gs over a period of time I may be able to get the "resets" you were talking about.
It's weird though I can see how a big trip would reset someone else and I'd recommend it to anyone with depression and no psychosis but I just can't seem to take the advice for myself. Surely I'm different. You don't know what kinds of demons I have to face I'd say to no one who asked but we all know that's a load of crap so I will consider it thanks
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take a gram and watch porn edge yourself and pass out.
youll feel great i promise.
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I feel you dude, the come up on mushies is nerve racking for me as well. I am pretty cool under fire but there are those off balance times which I really have to circumvent the fear that creeps in.
Once the seal is broken, its smooth sailing, it's piercing that veil which is the challenge. I guess thats the point. I never like my fear, but strangely I like the challenge (at least when it's done) of the primal mindfuck. There is alot to learn from fear (see Frank Herbet quote below)
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: mushboy]
#28462811 - 09/08/23 09:18 PM (4 months, 17 days ago) |
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youll feel great i promise.
That does seem an enticing starter point.
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: SirTripAlot]
#28462821 - 09/08/23 09:31 PM (4 months, 17 days ago) |
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SirTripAlot said: I feel you dude, the come up on mushies is nerve racking for me as well. I am pretty cool under fire but there are those off balance times which I really have to circumvent the fear that creeps in.
Once the seal is broken, its smooth sailing, it's piercing that veil which is the challenge. I guess thats the point. I never like my fear, but strangely I like the challenge (at least when it's done) of the primal mindfuck. There is alot to learn from fear (see Frank Herbet quote below)
Yeah the first and only time ive had an ego death was really bad i lemon techd about 4gs of really good mushies and i called my best friend having a total freakout because i thought an fbi helicopter was over my house and had a rope directly hanging down into my living room.
I asked him if i SOUNDED insane but i was convinced i was i went outside saw devils and went to face the sun and saw jesus face it was really bad and i dont remember getting any benefit from it at all. But maybe it'd be different this time with more focus on confronting and coexsisting with the demons instead of fighting it.
For me I wouldn't even attempt it until I feel more comfortable with tripping again. It's the surrendering control and everything is going to be alright that I don't seem to have anymore.
I take care of my disabled dad full time so only chance I would have for a trip or ego death is at night and have him be in my room and me outside on a chair atarring at the stars. The tricky part is needing to temporarily sober up everytime he calls me and needs me to do something. So it'd have to be at night which honestly is best for me anyway. But it's doable just tricky. Maybe start at 1g and see what that's like then next time go to 2 then 3 and MAYBE so and so forth
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: rxb] 2
#28462838 - 09/08/23 09:47 PM (4 months, 17 days ago) |
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In my own personal life, I am way better off than I was 4 years ago. I mean, let's just ignore any political implications of the 4 year time span, I'm just talking personally. In every conceivable way I am better off today than I was 4 years ago, by a long shot. I make more money, I have a way better job, I am fucking better pussy, you name it, it's better than it was.
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SirTripAlot said: I feel you dude, the come up on mushies is nerve racking for me as well. I am pretty cool under fire but there are those off balance times which I really have to circumvent the fear that creeps in.
Once the seal is broken, its smooth sailing, it's piercing that veil which is the challenge. I guess thats the point. I never like my fear, but strangely I like the challenge (at least when it's done) of the primal mindfuck. There is alot to learn from fear (see Frank Herbet quote below)
Yeah the first and only time ive had an ego death was really bad i lemon techd about 4gs of really good mushies and i called my best friend having a total freakout because i thought an fbi helicopter was over my house and had a rope directly hanging down into my living room.
I asked him if i SOUNDED insane but i was convinced i was i went outside saw devils and went to face the sun and saw jesus face it was really bad and i dont remember getting any benefit from it at all. But maybe it'd be different this time with more focus on confronting and coexsisting with the demons instead of fighting it.
For me I wouldn't even attempt it until I feel more comfortable with tripping again. It's the surrendering control and everything is going to be alright that I don't seem to have anymore.
I take care of my disabled dad full time so only chance I would have for a trip or ego death is at night and have him be in my room and me outside on a chair atarring at the stars. The tricky part is needing to temporarily sober up everytime he calls me and needs me to do something. So it'd have to be at night which honestly is best for me anyway. But it's doable just tricky. Maybe start at 1g and see what that's like then next time go to 2 then 3 and MAYBE so and so forth 
also i miss zombi3 so much, i still have a tshirt i made for him with the proper missing toes and smurfettes on it never sent it cuz i got real real sick for a while but damn i miss that kid he was a cool fucker shirt says less toes more hoes
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: rxb]
#28463442 - 09/09/23 02:55 PM (4 months, 16 days ago) |
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SirTripAlot said: I feel you dude, the come up on mushies is nerve racking for me as well. I am pretty cool under fire but there are those off balance times which I really have to circumvent the fear that creeps in.
Once the seal is broken, its smooth sailing, it's piercing that veil which is the challenge. I guess thats the point. I never like my fear, but strangely I like the challenge (at least when it's done) of the primal mindfuck. There is alot to learn from fear (see Frank Herbet quote below)
Yeah the first and only time ive had an ego death was really bad i lemon techd about 4gs of really good mushies and i called my best friend having a total freakout because i thought an fbi helicopter was over my house and had a rope directly hanging down into my living room.
I asked him if i SOUNDED insane but i was convinced i was i went outside saw devils and went to face the sun and saw jesus face it was really bad and i dont remember getting any benefit from it at all. But maybe it'd be different this time with more focus on confronting and coexsisting with the demons instead of fighting it.
For me I wouldn't even attempt it until I feel more comfortable with tripping again. It's the surrendering control and everything is going to be alright that I don't seem to have anymore.
I take care of my disabled dad full time so only chance I would have for a trip or ego death is at night and have him be in my room and me outside on a chair atarring at the stars. The tricky part is needing to temporarily sober up everytime he calls me and needs me to do something. So it'd have to be at night which honestly is best for me anyway. But it's doable just tricky. Maybe start at 1g and see what that's like then next time go to 2 then 3 and MAYBE so and so forth 
also i miss zombi3 so much, i still have a tshirt i made for him with the proper missing toes and smurfettes on it never sent it cuz i got real real sick for a while but damn i miss that kid he was a cool fucker shirt says less toes more hoes 
That's awesome you had a custom shirt for him. I understand the toes but what is the significance of smurfette again did he just like smurfette? But yeah I loved that guy. Loses his toes and still skates after he was a tough but very positive sweet guy. I do miss him alot he was a ray of sunshine wherever he went
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SirTripAlot said: I feel you dude, the come up on mushies is nerve racking for me as well. I am pretty cool under fire but there are those off balance times which I really have to circumvent the fear that creeps in.
Once the seal is broken, its smooth sailing, it's piercing that veil which is the challenge. I guess thats the point. I never like my fear, but strangely I like the challenge (at least when it's done) of the primal mindfuck. There is alot to learn from fear (see Frank Herbet quote below)
Yeah the first and only time ive had an ego death was really bad i lemon techd about 4gs of really good mushies and i called my best friend having a total freakout because i thought an fbi helicopter was over my house and had a rope directly hanging down into my living room.
I asked him if i SOUNDED insane but i was convinced i was i went outside saw devils and went to face the sun and saw jesus face it was really bad and i dont remember getting any benefit from it at all. But maybe it'd be different this time with more focus on confronting and coexsisting with the demons instead of fighting it.
For me I wouldn't even attempt it until I feel more comfortable with tripping again. It's the surrendering control and everything is going to be alright that I don't seem to have anymore.
I take care of my disabled dad full time so only chance I would have for a trip or ego death is at night and have him be in my room and me outside on a chair atarring at the stars. The tricky part is needing to temporarily sober up everytime he calls me and needs me to do something. So it'd have to be at night which honestly is best for me anyway. But it's doable just tricky. Maybe start at 1g and see what that's like then next time go to 2 then 3 and MAYBE so and so forth 
also i miss zombi3 so much, i still have a tshirt i made for him with the proper missing toes and smurfettes on it never sent it cuz i got real real sick for a while but damn i miss that kid he was a cool fucker shirt says less toes more hoes 
That's awesome you had a custom shirt for him. I understand the toes but what is the significance of smurfette again did he just like smurfette? But yeah I loved that guy. Loses his toes and still skates after he was a tough but very positive sweet guy. I do miss him alot he was a ray of sunshine wherever he went 
a girl he picked up on here had the username smurfette
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: rxb]
#28464536 - 09/10/23 04:35 PM (4 months, 15 days ago) |
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Oh yeah thats right!! I totally forgot about that. Memory is a bitch but I remember now
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4 years ago was 2019 dude. Yes I'm better off.
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: OutsideOfMyMind]
#28464946 - 09/11/23 01:36 AM (4 months, 14 days ago) |
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I would say worse, politics, politicians, PACs, lobbyists, Special Interest Groups, the Judicial System, Supreme Court, policing, trolls, Fake News, low wages, Culture Wars, War on Woke, War on Drugs, School Shootings, mass shootings, zombies, hookers, fentanyl, sex trafficking, rapers, child molesters, serial killers, and the multitude of assholes that exist in this world have really brought down the mood.
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: Citizen X]
#28464952 - 09/11/23 01:43 AM (4 months, 14 days ago) |
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How's that any different than 4 years ago?
Also, there's lots of good that's happened alongside every shite thing to happen, so there's that. It ain't all bad.
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: The Blind Ass]
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Also, there's lots of good that's happened alongside every shite thing to happen, so there's that. It ain't all bad. 
You’re right, things are awesome
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: Citizen X]
#28464968 - 09/11/23 02:24 AM (4 months, 14 days ago) |
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Citizen X said: I would say worse, politics, politicians, PACs, lobbyists, Special Interest Groups, the Judicial System, Supreme Court, policing, trolls, Fake News, low wages, Culture Wars, War on Woke, War on Drugs, School Shootings, mass shootings, zombies, hookers, fentanyl, sex trafficking, rapers, child molesters, serial killers, and the multitude of assholes that exist in this world have really brought down the mood.
I get where your at I spent years feeling like the world was going to shit and all these political atrocities and people fomenting anger towards fellow Americans in a different party then you does make me sick but I have enough real problems so somewhere last year or so I gave up worrying about politics. For the most part stopped arguing with anyone online. I still have an opinion and strongly disagree with people.
But in all reality even the things I'm upset about politically that I feel really matter doesn't matter at all to me. I can't do a damn thing to change it, my arguments trying to change people's minds intelligently either fall on deaf ears or in a circle jerk of everyone agreeing.
All that matters in YOUR life is you, your family, your friends,maybe a career or hobby and that's it. I feel like it's been a huge weight off my shoulders. I used to be very fervent in my reasoning, did alot of research watched alot of video that wasn't up to interpretation, carefully laid out arguments but it never helped anyone or changed anyone's minds or did anything but piss me off.
Now for example when I see all these indictments for trump the old me would've been commenting all day even on the charges I don't give a shit about just because I had/have distain for trump. The only one I really care about is for inspiring the capitol rioters clearly to overthrow a free and id argue fair election and attempting to install a slate of fake electors.
But even that I'm not going to get into right now or probably ever because half of you would agree and half would be the polar opposite and me being outraged doesn't do anything but fill me with more rage. So I don't even watch the videos anymore, don't comment. What happens happens. If he gets off Scott free I personally would feel it's an affront to justice and democracy but I'm really truly not going to spend anytime thinking about it. I can't change it or control it so it doesn't take up my rage anymore.
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Citizen X said: I would say worse, politics, politicians, PACs, lobbyists, Special Interest Groups, the Judicial System, Supreme Court, policing, trolls, Fake News, low wages, Culture Wars, War on Woke, War on Drugs, School Shootings, mass shootings, zombies, hookers, fentanyl, sex trafficking, rapers, child molesters, serial killers, and the multitude of assholes that exist in this world have really brought down the mood.
I get where your at I spent years feeling like the world was going to shit and all these political atrocities and people fomenting anger towards fellow Americans in a different party then you does make me sick but I have enough real problems so somewhere last year or so I gave up worrying about politics. For the most part stopped arguing with anyone online. I still have an opinion and strongly disagree with people.
Oh yeah me too, you can’t help but read the latest scandal, or a geriatric, lunatic fringe x poster, or whatever the fuck it is
But in all reality even the things I'm upset about politically that I feel really matter doesn't matter at all to me. I can't do a damn thing to change it, my arguments trying to change people's minds intelligently either fall on deaf ears or in a circle jerk of everyone agreeing.
I can’t be bothered with that shit either. I won’t be fooled by their divide and conquer strategy.
All that matters in YOUR life is you, your family, your friends,maybe a career or hobby and that's it. I feel like it's been a huge weight off my shoulders. I used to be very fervent in my reasoning, did alot of research watched alot of video that wasn't up to interpretation, carefully laid out arguments but it never helped anyone or changed anyone's minds or did anything but piss me off.
I hear you there man. Been a rough couple of weeks for me but I’m trying to push through.
Now for example when I see all these indictments for trump the old me would've been commenting all day even on the charges I don't give a shit about just because I had/have distain for trump. The only one I really care about is for inspiring the capitol rioters clearly to overthrow a free and id argue fair election and attempting to install a slate of fake electors.
It’s crazy man, but nothing would surprise me. Fake electors, Pushing MP to refute and insert fake electors? And then send a mob to halt the count when that failed. If that ain’t the craziest election that ever was please inform me
But even that I'm not going to get into right now or probably ever because half of you would agree and half would be the polar opposite and me being outraged doesn't do anything but fill me with more rage. So I don't even watch the videos anymore, don't comment. What happens happens. If he gets off Scott free I personally would feel it's an affront to justice and democracy but I'm really truly not going to spend anytime thinking about it. I can't change it or control it so it doesn't take up my rage anymore.
Dude you got to watch some angertainment. You’ll be mad, happy, then mad again. At the of the program you feel like a real patriot and buy overpriced gold and silver. Very stimulating
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Re: are you better off than you were 4 years ago? [Re: Citizen X]
#28465019 - 09/11/23 04:14 AM (4 months, 14 days ago) |
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as enticing as it sounds nope I'm done
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