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Mooey2067
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First heavy trip, late 40's, 3g homegrown, happy days 2
#28423732 - 08/07/23 01:33 AM (5 months, 19 days ago) |
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Over the last 6 or so months grown two batches of cubes (3 flushes from each) from mail-order spores and cracker dried and stored them all. Given a bunch away, dabbled in some microdosing and had a light 2g trip with a mate in nature a few months ago. However Friday was something else... 50% more weight, 1000% more trip....
So I took them with my wife mid arvo, she took 2g, myself 3g and we settled in in a nice cabin in the woods with my dog. Lemon tek (although i forgot to crush them so hard to get down ) and prepared the area with cushions, fruit, eyemask, colouring in, canvas and paint for art, music, a mandala, candles, couple of psychedelic sites on the laptop, and temazepan for a get-out clause.
My wife got right into the colouring in, that and smoking weed so that's what she did really for 4 hours or so, quite happily though. I think she actually smoked herself out of the trip - can that happen?? the trip was underwhelming for her. In the event it was a good thing as she was a great trip sitter for me which allowed me to relax into it.
For me, none of the prep items got a look in.... once it started kicking in (blurring vision, buzzing/tingling fingers) i was blindfold on, playing my pre-arranged playlist and i lolled around the couch for several hours.
Amazing stuff. Knowing my wife was there and had her head together gave me the confidence to just let go, and let go i did, the music taking me to indescribable places.
The trip became a song-by-song journey with me becoming 'conscious' between tracks. During the tracks, i had mad CEV but nothing really specific, no recognisable objects as such (which was a little disappointing tbh) but more so geometric shapes and kaleidoscopes through which i was falling and tumbling.
My wife said (and i recall) i was whimpering and moaning and she kept checking on me and i kept reassuring her all was OK cos it really was. More like orgasmic moans than anything distressing!!
At times, i felt a recognition of a feeling from a long, long time ago and i also felt like i was being called by others to really, 100% surrender but i didn't quite have the balls to do so. It was like a level by level surrender and i got deep, deep, deep but i wonder what would have happened if i'd gone all the way? It wasn't scary and was somewhat welcoming but it kinda felt if i crossed that line, i might not be able to return so i held back. I might have been searching for enlightenment but not at that cost 
Feelings were intense of course but never unpleasant, despite the 'digital', CEVs, it felt very human... at one stage thinking this essence of what it means to be human can never be replaced by technology (i'm an AI worrier) which was comforting.
The dog was interesting... on his mat, he appeared to have an 'aura' of brown mist. Not very nice, like in the old cartoons and he looked old (he's only 3) so that wasn't very pleasant. At one stage he jumped up on the couch and we were nose to nose for a while... His fur felt electric when i touched it. he knew something was up and at one stage he curled his lip a little, like he was about to growl, i guess he was wondering who stole his dad.
Had a couple of big giggle sessions with my wife, tears streaming down, awesome stuff. Also had a big cry... biggest most heartfelt cry i've ever had but it was oh so wonderful as it was cos i felt i connected with my mum who dies 10 years ago. I felt like i was able to give her some love that i should have done while she was alive. It was very cathartic and the dog jumped into action and licked up every last tear. Wife was hugging me too, i felt very loved 
I'm so happy it didn't go bad as i was anxious about that and have been for weeks. In the event, despite being so out of it, i felt mostly in control - it was all linked to the music. In between each song, i felt i could have taken the eye mask off, sat up, concentrated and straightened up to some extent... but i didn't i just kept relaxing into the next song, and the next... Even when i could tell the peak was well behind, i remember saying 'just one more song' and going back in.
When i finally came out for good, i was confused about the shape and layout of the room and thought it was sunrise when it was sunset all good though lol
Things i learnt:
1) prepare all you want with bits and bobs to do (art, fruit, psychedelic websites) but be aware you probably won't need it 2) if you're anxious, for me a quiet setting, wife, dog, just knowing i had temazepan and a beer before kicking off all helped 3) Music made this trip. Flaming lips, Beatles, Tame Impala, Chemical brothers were all amazing
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Soul Flight
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Re: First heavy trip, late 40's, 3g homegrown, happy days [Re: Mooey2067]
#28425557 - 08/08/23 10:17 AM (5 months, 18 days ago) |
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The giggles are the best.
The cathartic crying is the best.
Thanks for the post.
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ellamush
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Re: First heavy trip, late 40's, 3g homegrown, happy days [Re: Soul Flight]
#28426020 - 08/08/23 05:05 PM (5 months, 17 days ago) |
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Very nice post. Glad you had fun An yeah there is something about crying on a trip. I think it would be interesting to do a "crying circle" (like a laughing circle/group) in a group doing psychedelics. -hha although this gives me flashbacks to the movie Midsommar with all the tripping women crying _
One point I can say from my experience is that my scarier points of my trips have made me much braver in letting go and knowing that sure I might see some uncomfortable things or feelings but I'm safe. So don't worry too much about a "scary" (not "bad") trip (I don't find the "bad label" helpful in learning is all).
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Re: First heavy trip, late 40's, 3g homegrown, happy days [Re: ellamush]
#28426241 - 08/08/23 08:00 PM (5 months, 17 days ago) |
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Sounds Awesome!
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Mooey2067
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Re: First heavy trip, late 40's, 3g homegrown, happy days [Re: fatpup]
#28426538 - 08/09/23 12:35 AM (5 months, 17 days ago) |
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Thanks for the responses and the support!!
I’m definitely looking forward to more exploring 😀
Hey one thing I realised since, after listening to this ***excellent** podcast https://hubermanlab.com/how-psilocybin-can-rewire-our-brain-its-therapeutic-benefits-and-its-risks/ is that I had, unintentionally a ‘therapeutic trip’. Simply defined as 2.5-3g with music and eye mask.
Reading trip reports in here that are very different, I think this setup should be considered distinct. Certainly it was poles apart from my 2g in nature
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MindMeower
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Re: First heavy trip, late 40's, 3g homegrown, happy days [Re: Mooey2067]
#28427265 - 08/09/23 02:52 PM (5 months, 16 days ago) |
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Sounds like a pretty good trip, I hope the next one will be just as good ~
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Re: First heavy trip, late 40's, 3g homegrown, happy days [Re: Mooey2067]
#28427493 - 08/09/23 06:43 PM (5 months, 16 days ago) |
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ellamush said: I think it would be interesting to do a "crying circle" (like a laughing circle/group) in a group doing psychedelics.
That would be cathartic.
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Mooey2067 said: Feelings were intense of course but never unpleasant, despite the 'digital', CEVs, it felt very human... at one stage thinking this essence of what it means to be human can never be replaced by technology (i'm an AI worrier) which was comforting...
3) Music made this trip. Flaming lips, Beatles, Tame Impala, Chemical brothers were all amazing
I worry about AI too. And I've had the same thoughts on weed. Sometimes you feel so thoroughly human that it comforts you. You get that feeling and are safe in the knowledge that no simulation could ever truly 'get' humanity.
Nice choices in tunes.
-------------------- Love is everything Life is good The opposite of negativity is gratitude Be KIND
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