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xVadisx
MountainsDogsAndFungi



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Death and Divorce, Work, Anger
#28422214 - 08/05/23 06:59 PM (5 months, 20 days ago) |
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Too much fucking life recently! Got out of an abusive relationship of five years. That divorce is almost over. Thank goodness. I was lucky enough to have a friend with a room I could rent otherwise I'd be in trooooouuuble. Car died. Got a new car (and a new car payment). ...and my grandmother just died.
I'm just coming around to starting to try to be healthy again -- and I am -- but fuck, it just feels like one thing after another. Tbh, it's really nice just doing some myco work and turning my brain off. Seems like a much better idea than going out drinking.
My roommate is a wonderful soul, but they also struggle, and so when I told them my grandma died they didn't say anything. I don't blame them. They listened -- and are dealing with their own mental health issues.
I'm doing my best to be kind and raise up those around me. I was too kind for too many years and got taken advantage of and so now I'm focusing on myself for a bit.
Oh, I also have a higher education degree that I used for awhile, but burned out and now work a few lower paying jobs because I actually feel decent about myself and what I do for a living. That I can talk about, which is it's own problem.
Oof.
Feeling alone tonight but also I know my grandmother was ready and passed peacefully. Just fucking-a though, time for some weed.
Edit: the anger bit -- I've noticed my fuse is SHORT recently. Taking time with that one.
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feevers



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Re: Death and Divorce, Work, Anger [Re: xVadisx] 1
#28422240 - 08/05/23 07:30 PM (5 months, 20 days ago) |
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Sorry about your grandmother 
Sounds like you're doing what you can to get yourself back on track though
I wouldn't worry at all about taking lower paying jobs if it's what makes you happy. Think about how much money people spend on booze and drugs and whatever else because they're unhappy. Your mental health is worth a lot more than whatever salary loss you might face
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xVadisx
MountainsDogsAndFungi



Registered: 09/03/21
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Re: Death and Divorce, Work, Anger [Re: feevers]
#28422246 - 08/05/23 07:42 PM (5 months, 20 days ago) |
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Thank you. I really am trying and feel lucky in many ways -- but still kind of wrecked tonight and after the divorce and moving, etc, just not that much community here which is hard. I know it'll build but feeling very lonely and just...sad. Weed helps.
-------------------- Thanks to everyone for sharing what they know . 165F for 24hrs. Better Holes Tek (Use a Step Drill Bit) Don't forget your towel: THE HITCHHIKER'S GUIDE TO THE SHROOMERY
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