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[ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? 1
#28380925 - 07/01/23 02:49 AM (6 months, 25 days ago) |
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I took a small dose and realized all kinds of important things. But I'm autistic, and it seems like everybody who knows me doesn't like me a whole lot. And I'm wondering if God is like the normal people, maybe he / she / it / they will hate me too. I could be trapped in an arbitrarily horrible nightmare.
I know this sounds like bullshit but it's actually a real concern I have. I'm growing this stuff now — experimenting with 12% hydrogen peroxide sterilization instead of alcohol because it degrades into oxygen and water. alcohol is poison.
But sometimes I think about just throwing it out because I'm scared.
Edited by Jess_Fukket (07/01/23 02:52 AM)
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket] 1
#28380975 - 07/01/23 05:07 AM (6 months, 25 days ago) |
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The 'last being first' is in your favor in the big soap opera in the sky as reflected in:
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
#28381246 - 07/01/23 10:16 AM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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If you don't consider God as hateful then don't consider the hateful as God. Don't fear.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: syncro]
#28381274 - 07/01/23 10:43 AM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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syncro said: Don't fear.
OP's character, dyed in the weave as it were and portraid in the username and avatar, could telegraph a predictable performance.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Buster_Brown]
#28381328 - 07/01/23 11:54 AM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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I've been working with the idea that if there is an unwanted thought or phenomena, then meditate on its source, whatever it might be unseen, but with the intention, which can have a neutralizing effect. A crap state in the body, or by introduction of chemicals, may be harder and have to be ridden out. But the same principle would apply.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: syncro]
#28381343 - 07/01/23 12:06 PM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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OK, cool, thanks.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: syncro]
#28381356 - 07/01/23 12:16 PM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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Then taking it to the body itself being an unwanted phenomena, at least sometimes, meditating on its source would be what, either meditating on the ego, or further, God, however considered. So, meditation itself, on the Self, is the same act.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
#28381388 - 07/01/23 12:52 PM (6 months, 24 days ago) |
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But I'm autistic, and it seems like everybody who knows me doesn't like me a whole lot.
In my personal experience with NT's, they don't like boundaries, proper names, and measurements of things. You have likely either asked for clear feedback or you represent some form of stable genius that makes them feel guilty.
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Jess_Fukket said: And I'm wondering if God is like the normal people, maybe he / she / it / they will hate me too.
"... that which may be known of God is manifest in them; for God hath shewed it unto them. For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse..." -- from Romans 1
Besides that recurring design features indicate a common designer, natural law is indicative of spiritual law. It is conceivable via down-to-Earth, Bronze Age parables as experienced through the conventional five senses.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket] 1
#28382569 - 07/02/23 12:40 PM (6 months, 23 days ago) |
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Do you hate yourself? Because you are God, or at least a differentiated part of God. God doesn’t hate anyone because he doesn’t hate himself. Even bad people and behaviors he does not hate because evil men are just a differentiated expression of the darker part of God. God is One. All things. Good and evil. And you are both a differentiated part of him, and yet contain within yourself the whole. You will be fine, and it will probably help you. The better question for you I think, is what do you have to lose?
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Beluga]
#28383092 - 07/02/23 11:45 PM (6 months, 23 days ago) |
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>you are both a differentiated part of him, and yet contain within yourself the whole.
this is the kind of thing i'm looking for, thx. i'll continue the search.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket] 1
#28383101 - 07/03/23 12:18 AM (6 months, 23 days ago) |
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I thought that song "what if God was one of us" is about awakening where we realize we and God are one and the same.
If everything is arising from a field of consciousness then how could we not be the same as the deities that we seek?
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Lucis]
#28383588 - 07/03/23 12:03 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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There is a saying about a 'kinsman redeemer' about God becoming flesh and walking among us, to face everything we do.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28383632 - 07/03/23 12:39 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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God redeeming us by succumbing to our temptations is metaphorically the basis of Santa giving gifts, I think.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Buster_Brown]
#28383640 - 07/03/23 12:43 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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There is nothing you can do to earn it. It's supposed to be a free gift.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28383675 - 07/03/23 01:06 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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I don't know if this is making any sense to you but if God puts up fences then the moderators are redeamed in their efforts to keep OTD'ers out of the Pub.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Buster_Brown]
#28383682 - 07/03/23 01:10 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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What is an OTD'er?
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28383692 - 07/03/23 01:15 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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Someone contemptuous of rules.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Buster_Brown]
#28383707 - 07/03/23 01:23 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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While we have a concept of decorum, important times and places, we believe that all have fallen short of perfection. We assume that any contrite person can be forgiven.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28383742 - 07/03/23 01:44 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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In the best of worlds a doctor may accede to the idea of more patience rather than patients but that's probably irrational in majority opinion.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket] 1
#28383745 - 07/03/23 01:46 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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It's improper to give doctrinal and philosophical answers to "I'm afraid..."
Regardless of whether there is a God, or if he hates, or hates you, you are uncomfortable with trying a certain amount. Why aren't you listening to you.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28383803 - 07/03/23 02:33 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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If God puts up fences due to a lack of patience of a thousand years then we would be redeemed, like that's going to happen.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Buster_Brown]
#28383875 - 07/03/23 03:48 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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Buster_Brown said: I don't know if this is making any sense to you but if God puts up fences then the moderators are redeamed in their efforts to keep OTD'ers out of the Pub.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: The Blind Ass]
#28383946 - 07/03/23 04:54 PM (6 months, 22 days ago) |
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My presumption is that we put up fences out of impatience...so, no, moderators are not birds of a feather with god
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28385404 - 07/04/23 09:10 PM (6 months, 21 days ago) |
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It's improper to give doctrinal and philosophical answers to "I'm afraid..."
Regardless of whether there is a God, or if he hates, or hates you, you are uncomfortable with trying a certain amount. Why aren't you listening to you.

It has nothing to do with any deity, real or imagined. Also what Lucis said, which is spot on, as you may come to realize with psychedelics (though many surprisingly don't):
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I thought that song "what if God was one of us" is about awakening where we realize we and God are one and the same.
Oh and guess what...
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28385520 - 07/05/23 12:14 AM (6 months, 21 days ago) |
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durian_2008 said: It's improper to give doctrinal and philosophical answers to "I'm afraid..."
Regardless of whether there is a God, or if he hates, or hates you, you are uncomfortable with trying a certain amount. Why aren't you listening to you.
Also, what is it you feel so tormented or guilty about, that you can't feel loved or are irredeemable.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28385536 - 07/05/23 01:09 AM (6 months, 21 days ago) |
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Op, it's fine, god likes you or you wouldn't have mushrooms to eat. Put on the Beatles and get a blanket and some markers or whatever!
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28386872 - 07/06/23 08:47 AM (6 months, 19 days ago) |
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what is it you feel so tormented or guilty about, that you can't feel loved or are irredeemable.
I don't know. something happened to me When I was very very little. I don't know if I did it or if it was done to me. but whatever it was, it was infinitely horrible, 100% Unacceptable. Evil.
im afraid that part of me might be evil, the "yang" of "yin-yang." That it's necessary sometimes to be aggressive and uncaring about other people, but i'm WAY too meek because i suppressed the evil. now it might come back.
But maybe I'm innocent and just internalizing the external hate from people because I'm autistic. I don't know. I want to explore who I am honestly, But if this journey is anything like my journey of life, everyone I meet hates me and wants to make me suffer and die horribly.
I thought 'shrooms might help me sort all this out, but I'm afraid it just might make it more horrible. a drug-induced ER nightmare.
Edited by Jess_Fukket (07/06/23 08:59 AM)
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
#28386882 - 07/06/23 09:02 AM (6 months, 19 days ago) |
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durian_2008 said: what is it you feel so tormented or guilty about, that you can't feel loved or are irredeemable.
I don't know. something happened to me When I was very very little. I don't know if I did it or if it was done to me. but whatever it was, it was infinitely horrible, 100% Unacceptable. Evil.
im afraid that part of me might be evil, the "yang" of "yin-yang." That it's necessary sometimes to be aggressive and uncaring about other people, but i'm WAY too meek because i suppressed the evil. now it might come back.
But maybe I'm innocent and just internalizing the external hate from people because I'm autistic. I don't know. I want to explore who I am honestly, But if this journey is anything like my journey of life, everyone I meet hates me and wants to make me suffer and die.
I thought 'shrooms might help me sort all this out, but I'm afraid that just might make it more horrible, a drug-induced ER-visit nightmare.
Edited by Jess_Fukket (07/06/23 09:07 AM)
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
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durian_2008 said: what is it you feel so tormented or guilty about, that you can't feel loved or are irredeemable.
I don't know. something happened to me When I was very very little. I don't know if I did it or if it was done to me. but whatever it was, it was infinitely horrible, 100% Unacceptable. Evil.
im afraid that part of me might be evil, the "yang" of "yin-yang." That it's necessary sometimes to be aggressive and uncaring about other people, but i'm WAY too meek because i suppressed the evil. now it might come back.
But maybe I'm innocent and just internalizing the external hate from people because I'm autistic. I don't know. I want to explore who I am honestly, But if this journey is anything like my journey of life, everyone I meet hates me and wants to make me suffer and die.
I thought 'shrooms might help me sort all this out, but I'm afraid it just might make it more horrible, a drug-induced ER nightmare.
Abuse and it's amelioration is central to the plot.
Fences are nature's way of initiating dispersal.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket] 1
#28387045 - 07/06/23 11:42 AM (6 months, 19 days ago) |
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durian_2008 said: what is it you feel so tormented or guilty about, that you can't feel loved or are irredeemable.
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Jess_Fukket said: I don't know. something happened to me When I was very very little. I don't know if I did it or if it was done to me. but whatever it was, it was infinitely horrible, 100% Unacceptable. Evil.
I believe that altered states can help restore lost memories, if any.
I could eventually recover forgotten conversations and social situations, to the nth degree of fine detail.
In my case, none of it was outrightly illegal or terrifying.
There was this "room" I was not supposed to go into, in my dream of a 'memory castle' that looked like a white, clapboard house. Full of existential dread.
Just remembering condemnation and disrespect, and weighing it, takes far less effort that burying it and holding it down inside.
I think, misremembering things, no matter how bad, is probably the main cause of psychosomatic illness.
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Jess_Fukket said: im afraid that part of me might be evil, the "yang" of "yin-yang." That it's necessary sometimes to be aggressive and uncaring about other people, but i'm WAY too meek because i suppressed the evil. now it might come back.
Malignant, narcissistic sociopaths are probably well aware of the effect they have on others and consciously choose to weaponize it, afaic. They don't see themselves as aggressive or uncaring.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
#28391254 - 07/10/23 11:12 AM (6 months, 15 days ago) |
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I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me?
I guess if God exists, he would be unconditional. By creating you, he also created your mistakes. Criticizing your behaviour would therefore be God criticizing himself.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: durian_2008]
#28394500 - 07/13/23 02:44 PM (6 months, 12 days ago) |
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OP is listening to himself. at some level OP knows that everything of value requires effort, risk and courage. This instinctual knowledge is in conflict with his fear. He wants some help from some here in order to buff up his courage so that he can take the plunge.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Beluga]
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>He wants some help from some here in order to buff up his courage so that he can take the plunge.
well, not exactly. I want to see if it's possible to integrate the various neural sub networks that it turns out I consist of. I thought I was a little girl with a kitty, but it turns out I am a pile of icky strings of unfeeling microscopic animals that communicate blindly with electricity and chemicals.
And what happened to my little kitty? It turns out she was just a network of veins and nerves too. She died and turned into rotten meat.
Truth is not beauty.
Knowledge is not power.
And I don't know WHAT the hell I am.
So whether it's God, the aliens behind the universe creation simulation (which is what I suspect), or just recursive feedback in my neural subnetwork; I'm afraid it might mysteriously hate me like everyone else instead of... well, something else. I don't even know.
I just want to see what other people think about that before I go. i'm not looking for any particular answer. They might tell me I'm about to go to hell, I don't know. and if it's true, I guess I deserve it. I guess God will tell me why, because I sure as hell don't know.
or maybe something else will happen, something good. Important information . I don't know. that's why I want to find out. it will be terrible though, if past is truly prologue.
It'll be like the one time I went on a date. god will be sitting next to me asking me questions, and I'm staring straight ahead too afraid to move or say anything at all — even in response to, "Are you okay?"
Should I make sure I have a chemical ejection seat abort enable if I want to escape hell, or if God convinces me I should?
At very least, I guess I should give the house phone to somebody else. god knows who I might call.
Edited by Jess_Fukket (07/13/23 09:14 PM)
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
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"Can music save your mortal soul? And can you teach me how to dance real slow?"
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket] 2
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durian_2008 said: what is it you feel so tormented or guilty about, that you can't feel loved or are irredeemable.
But maybe I'm innocent and just internalizing the external hate from people because I'm autistic. I don't know. I want to explore who I am honestly, But if this journey is anything like my journey of life, everyone I meet hates me and wants to make me suffer and die.
I thought 'shrooms might help me sort all this out, but I'm afraid that just might make it more horrible, a drug-induced ER-visit nightmare.
To me, it sounds like you are totally innocent and are internalizing hate. Some women do this to themselves because of past trauma. You dont have to do that to yourself. Whatever happened when you were a young girl is 100% NOT your fault. You were just a child. You dont have to blame yourself for the incident.
God is Creation. Creation is the Totality of Everything: people, animals, the Earth, the Solar System, the Milky Way, the Universe and even farther into the Multiverse. Its not pure Evil or pure Good but some complex mix of both. It is Everything. Both sides of the spectrum, at different times, all the time.
I would recommend doing smaller doses of shrooms before taking a large dose. Say 1 to 2 grams dried. Maybe even experiment with daily microdosing. You have some hardcore PTSD you need to confront and you should do cautiously with smaller doses of shrooms.
Good luck and be easy on yourself.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: LogicaL Chaos] 1
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: LogicaL Chaos] 1
#28395917 - 07/15/23 12:56 AM (6 months, 11 days ago) |
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>Whatever happened when you were a young girl is 100% NOT your fault.
it is if I did it.
>You have some hardcore PTSD
Yeah, but believe it or not I only just realized it recently. I don't know what happened except that it wasn't sexual and I don't know if I was the giver or the receiver. but I know that I Blocked something out and believe it or not, I actually can't remember what it is.
I'm afraid there may be a good reason that I prevented myself from remembering it too
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket] 1
#28397234 - 07/16/23 06:34 AM (6 months, 10 days ago) |
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Not to put words in your mouth...
Quote:
Jess_Fukket said: I don't know if I was the giver or the receiver
If you meant to say that you might not be culpable, the discussion has changed from God hating you.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
#28402523 - 07/21/23 05:59 AM (6 months, 5 days ago) |
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God is dead and you are the overman. Go into your trip in a good setting with a straight mind and you’ll find what you need. Much love
-------------------- Because everything has its origin And I come going from place to place from the origin...

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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
#28412589 - 07/29/23 09:17 AM (5 months, 27 days ago) |
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Quote:
Jess_Fukket said: I took a small dose and realized all kinds of important things. But I'm autistic, and it seems like everybody who knows me doesn't like me a whole lot. And I'm wondering if God is like the normal people, maybe he / she / it / they will hate me too. I could be trapped in an arbitrarily horrible nightmare.
I know this sounds like bullshit but it's actually a real concern I have. I'm growing this stuff now — experimenting with 12% hydrogen peroxide sterilization instead of alcohol because it degrades into oxygen and water. alcohol is poison.
But sometimes I think about just throwing it out because I'm scared.
If he hated you then you would be in a horrible situation in life. He loves you seeing as how he's about to let you eat it's flesh..the mushroom
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: number47]
#28412845 - 07/29/23 12:25 PM (5 months, 27 days ago) |
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Nice;
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
#28413011 - 07/29/23 03:36 PM (5 months, 27 days ago) |
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When you use the word arbitrary, do you meant to say that NT's use the color of authority, arbitrarily? Also, that a bad trip is God's arbitrary punishment?
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Jess_Fukket
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: number47]
#28413634 - 07/30/23 07:49 AM (5 months, 27 days ago) |
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is there any way to vote a post up here? I don't see a button like Reddit.
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Re: [ SERIOUS ] I'm afraid to try a full dose because I might meet God and what if he hates me? [Re: Jess_Fukket]
#28413905 - 07/30/23 11:28 AM (5 months, 26 days ago) |
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On each seperate post there is a the re: thread subject/title
All the way at the end is the blue username - just to the right of that is a grey box with a plus sign , that is how you +1 on the shroomery
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 54. The true nature of things is to be known personally , through the eyes of clear illumination and not through a sage : what the moon exactly is , is to be known with one's own eyes ; can another make him know it?
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