First of all; holy smokes, don't underestimate the power of the mushroom.
I have taken 3g lemon tek of dried psilocybe subaeruginosa in 2022 but only got a mild stoning effect. Half was mine I had foraged, the other half was bought. My nightmare came true; buying off of someone & them not working! I've been hunting subaeruginosa for 7 years, and before then I had only experienced 100ug LSD trip.
Yesterday my partner and I started with 3g of dried psilocybe subaeruginosa each, and started seeing slight visuals in the fluffy bedsheet, and a slight uplifted feeling. I had bought beautiful colouring books to play with. Once we got full colourful visuals, geometric patterns, skin looking so strange, breathing walls, it was so beautiful and life felt so blissful. Rainbows, blues and pinks, lovely.. We thought whats the worst that can happen if we take the rest of our mushrooms we had leftover? I had 1g and my partner 1.3g. Both the 3g dosage +the extra 1/1.3g was eaten with sour strap candy and we ate lemon, then We went for a walk. 
My extra dosage kicked in so quickly and I became deeply scared and anxious of people around me and going home to my family. The world looked so completely different and I could see symbols everywhere, like an unlegible language, almost Thai? But no real lettering, and I was seeing aztec/egyptian looking people reaching out to me. The more I tried to understand the more I felt the people were silly and tricking me for fun. I was anxious but having a great time, I started to quickly feel overwhelmed however, and the anxiety took over. We went to an ATM to get cash out, and everyone around me sounded like alien, "bleblebleb" language. Unintelligible. I was like yuck I need to get out of here, then I realised we had to cross a busy road to get home but I was "losing my marbles" as I called it. The visuals were so beautiful and amazing but I felt I couldnt trust my partner to guide me because I was in a completely different dimension. I tried to explain it over and over and the higher I got the less I could understand logic. I really panicked about going home and having to try to socialise with my family whilst being this high, no longer feeling like a mortal being, just a soul. I sat out the front of my house with my caring partner watching the grass grow and grow. He convinced me to come out the back yard so at least I could be safe and away from neighbours. I went outside and i had lost it. I believe I had experience ego death/splitting. I no longer had a grasp on work, money, life, myself. I didn't recognise my name, my body didn't feel real, I felt like a little orb, a soul. I kept saying "this mortal body" and I was still having a good time but lost the meaning of time, logic, everything. All I knew was that the only way to calm the high down was to have a little sleep, so I tried to sleep outside. My beautiful partner took me into my bedroom, got me comfortable with all my stuffed plush friends and gave me some Benzos to try to make me sleep it off or calm it down, made the bed on top of me and did everything he could to bring it back to being positive, and that it became. I was so happy and comfortable in my happy space and he made it perfect. He put rain sounds on the tv with a rainforest background and it helped so much. Open eye visuals were rainbows, yellows, pink and blues, mushrooms, colourful mushrooms, the whole world was moving differently, and everything looked like shrek! 😂 When I closed my eyes it was black, with rainbow 3D geometric patterns. It was absolutely beautiful and helped me realise my previous addictions are long gone now, and I'm okay. It took me a few hours but I started to get logic, time, and myself back.   
I felt like I learned so much, and my partner took on a beautiful caregiving role whilst not experiencing "losing his marbles" like I did, even if it was in a good way. Overall I had an amazing experience and even at my peak ego and mind shift, it was beautiful and I don't regret the extra gram. I now know 3g is perfect, but the extra gram was an amazing experience too.
Next time I will do the extra gram when not worrying about the people I live with. Beautiful time, connections with my partner, amazing visuals and hallucinations, it was crazy to feel like I was dipping into and out of other dimensions 🏻🙏🏻
Next time will be a normal 3g trip for me, but one day I will be daring again when I can just lay outside with my boo and not worry about my family at home
The power of the mushroom is amazing and truly my favourite experience of my lifetime so far   
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