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GK-7 Stranger Registered: 10/02/19 Posts: 35 |
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Quote: Hi, First, I'm sorry that I didn't respond couple years ago. And honestly I'm glad I did. Because honestly I certainly would've mislead you. I won't give any details right now. I will just say that's only know that I'm only starting to going down et making sens of a lot of things. I don't where you are in life right know. Where your path lead you. But allow me to tell you this. Even if you are gay, you should have faith in The Lord. He loves you. More than you'll ever know. It's same for the both us as much for all of us. He's there for everyone who have faith in him no matter who you are or what've you've done. You are all forgiven. Your homosexuality is not a problem if you have faith in him. Satan is the problem. Trust me on this I was and still am way worse than you in so many categories. A small list : - Sexual degeneracy. Being gay in comparaison it's nothing. When I say degeneracy I mean real degeneracy. Pedophilia, incest on porn sites or in my minds since really young. It came real close in the physical world. To the point to tried to kill myself several times. I tried to talk about it to different persons like my mother, psychiatrist even a sexologist. Every time pretty much the same answer. From my mother, You are not like this don't, I don't want to hear about it ( It's not verbatim but the idea ). And from the "pros", don't worry about it.... And for zoophilia, online and in my mind. And for my softcore part : Everything else ? Foot fetish, scat, bdsm, several partners at the same time,( From 18yo to 60+ yo from my 18yo to my late 20's ) different sex, under influence from divers drugs... plus other stuff. And yet The Lord forgave me. The next part I hope will be shorter. I honestly didn't plane to write this much right now. Anyway. Next : "Master" manipulator. I always got what I want and can play people like I want. Emotional abuse, lie ( I was and unfortunately for now really good a it ). Obviously I see where it's going. If you are a good liar how can we trust what you say ? You can't. But I will tell you this, no matter what, when you speak truth nothing can hurt you. Tomorrow you know my real name, you come to see me I'll tell you exactly the same thing no matter what. I'm paying for what I was and what I've done. It's hard but I'm still here ( Youtube music -> Hawai - I'm still here ). And best of all it's really worth it. Sorry all I'm a bit all over the place, it's bit overwhelming right now and a bit confusing. What can I say next ? I was and still am disrespectful in a lot of ways. Disrespectful to God, to life, to all of his creations including myself. A lot of violence against others and myself, including against my own family. What else ? A lot of excess and abuse, drugs ( too many of them in too much quantities in too many wrong way/time/place/people ). I'm still having a hard time with it but I can't complain, God helps me well in his own ways. I'm still alive, my place looks better and cleaner ( I threw away a lot of stuff, gave a lot to people (My gaming pc still hurts times to times, especially my recently purchased custom mechanical qwerty keyboard all switches manually lubed with my own mix of keycaps directly from Hong Kong. My dreaming keyboard !!! This one we'll always hurt I think ^^ I love keyboard !!! But I love The Lord more. It was his way to teach me how to be generous and 7 months later a really nice used MacBook Air 2020 m1. And sell a couple when times were hard. And now I don't know if you could resell some things instead of giving it to someone who want it or in really hard time and just the bare minimum needed. I have to be honest, it's pretty "easy" for me. I can't complain about money. For people who knows how in France life is I have 1300e/month and I don't have to work for it. I have a couple debt but nothing big 1,4k more or less. But good news I don't have a car anymore. It should be easier in a lot ways. Well I stop here. Because it's getting really out of hand. Anyway, I hope you are doing good and find your way back to God. Have faith in Him, He loves you. Only One Almighty God, Hell and Heaven are real. Judgement days and the end times is coming. Don't worry there's still time but don't wait too much to start starting things. Oh and God's telling me to tell you magic is no good for you, it's bad for everyone. Believe I understand you, I used to love magic, witchcraft etc... It's not good at all even if you don't see why. Anyway I really need to stop now. I don't know when I'll be back if I'll be back but you are all in my hearts and my minds. Those past 3 years were the 3 more insane years of my life. No one would ever believe me. One day maybe I'll tell more. Probably. I'd like that but it's really crazy. I wish you well. God Bless You All ! Oh another thing, I am / was a male, and I'm becoming a female. Being a woman, also a mother mentally and spiritually. I'm not changing my appearance. It's not the way to do it. But if you've already done it and want to be with God. Don't worry, you have been forgiven. God and I love you all. Ask for forgiveness, have faith in him, be patient, try to listen to him. Remember He knows you better than you know yourself and "speak your language" and more importantly He is The Best thing that can ever happen to you. He is peace not war. Satan is war. Everyone and I mean everyone is loved by God. Religion doesn't matter. Only one God ( no matter how you call him : Yahvé, Allah Akbar, Jesus Christ, Jah,The Univers etc... ) who created everything and that Hell and Heaven are real. War is over. I really need to stop. but one last thing. It's 6:27am I'm a little high, I'm so tired but I'm Blessed with what it seems a magnificent sunset and a morning full of hope. A lot happened those couple weeks. Anyway. I'm out.
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GK-7 Stranger Registered: 10/02/19 Posts: 35 |
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He is. Good Night.
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Kiwi89 Stranger Registered: 06/16/20 Posts: 649 |
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Quote: I have read some stuff on here before and gone yeah OK it is time for a walk, but this right here is someone needing real help. I find it very hard to believe that a psychiatrists would not be very concerned about pedophilia fantasies. Once you have admitted to viewing pedophilia and zoophilia material if some action was not initiated the psychiatrists has veered into malpractice. Quote: I too like a good keyboard but obviously there are levels to loving keyboards it seems.
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GK-7 Stranger Registered: 10/02/19 Posts: 35 |
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One last thing and I'm really out this time... Maybe, I don't know.
I'm sorry to not have taking the time to responding to all the peoples in this thread. I'll take the time to respond to all of you one way or another. But as you can see, things are going crazy since awhile now. There is a lot more to come. Remember, don't worry, no matter who you are, just believe and have faith in God and that Hell and Heaven are real. If you think this is Hell, it is not. It's worse. But hey good news. Everything will be fine. Time to argue and dividing people over religious beliefs is over. You can have been saved by Jesus Christ, Yihavé, Allah ou encore Jéovah or I don't know, I'm still new at this. It depends on your own origins. The things that matter is to believe in One God, Who is Love, Life, Peace, Pacifique, Truth ( Remember when you are wrong one way or another and you know it, truth can hurts really badly, this pain is not because of God but what Satan had made of you and make you believe that this is my Father who is hurting you, but it's not him, it's her. She is a liar. My Father is the Best Thing that can happen to everyone in this world no matter who you are. If you choose Him, be prepared. It will be very good for you, but in the other hand some of your closest family member, friends, children, parents ( My mother came hard against me lately, I mean really hard ). Don't trust people who don't want you to follow God. Or that your mother won't help you with your drug / alcohol / tobacco addiction problem. Or worse, she even give you all those things just after telling her several times you'd like to quit everything because it's bad for you. She is still your mother, but trust me she'll be your doom and damnation for eternity. You don't want that. It's just one of those issues I had that involved my mother. But It can be anyone. No one who loves you, want you miserable, on drugs ( addiction problem, it doesn't concern medicine, only abuse and yes going wild every weekend is abuse ). Who let you drive drunk. Don't do that please for the Love of God. Protect the life and the mind of everyone. Particularly Children, they are in the worse world possible for having a clean mind. Too much corruption. Sorry I lost my train of thoughts. It happens sometimes. A lot happened, a lot is happening for everyone and there is a lot more to come. At one point everyone will have a choice to make. Satan or God ? Death or Life ? Peace or War ? Hell or Heaven ? Money or God ? Meat from supermarket / fast food / intensive elevage or barbaric ritual or God ? Alcohol / drugs or God ? But don't worry HE knows you can't stop like that, you have time to make things in order. He can take some times. But a little everyday in the right direction is better than everything in the wrong way. Go easy on you. You are suffering. Don't be afraid to trust yourself about things that are bad for you. No matter what it is, sexual habits, identity, beliefs, wtf is going on right now ? Don't be afraid to ask for help, if someone don't want to help you, this person doesn't love you. If this person loves you she will help you to find the help you need. Don't be affraid to talk to The Lord in your own way. By the way I'm talking for those who like me don't know anything about what / who God is, except things time to time because of our culture, but sadly pardon my French it was a lot of bullsh$$. The one who already have a relation with Allah don't have to change a thing. Start with a thing like that : For the name of Yhavé, use your own reference : Jah, Allah, Jesus Christ etc... You see the point, what's make you the more comfortable, don't overthink it. So exemple : Lord I ask forgiveness for all the wrong I've done all my life Amen I need your help to get out from this hell in my mind. Please Help me. Amen Please Jesus can you forgive me for all the stealings I've done and all those lies I had to say to cover those bad deeds by making complices people who didn't ask anything Amen. I don't want to be like this anymore. Please Jesus, Help me to be a better person. Amen Please Jehovah I don't want to be small minded, stinky, ugly inside like my mother who is the devil I would love to be like my Father in Heaven, open minded, loving everyone even those who don't love me. They don't know better and don't deserve to be under the spell of my mother. Amen. (Honestly, He loves even a monster like I was before and still am since He is pulling me out from hell, freeing me from satan.) Anyway you see the picture. Never forget, all institutions, all political parties, all religions, all sects, all ideologies etc... are corrupt and corrupted since thousands of years by greed, power, lust, domination, war, but at the end are mainly here to divide everyone and make my Father in Heaven the bad guy but He is not, SATAN IS THE ONE TO BLAME NOT GOD, no matter what it is. And optionally destroying the Heaven that Earth was once, long ago when humanity wasn't corrupted by Lucifer. The worse in all this, everyone can see all the evil in the world and still get along with it. It's time to wake up. So, here we go again. I lost myself. For those who read everything. I don't know, Thank you ? God bless you all. Have a beautiful day / night
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GK-7 Stranger Registered: 10/02/19 Posts: 35 |
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GK-7 Stranger Registered: 10/02/19 Posts: 35 |
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Update
Hi everyone, Here a small update. March 23rd 2023 I went to my local police department and told them about everything in relation with my degenerate sexual past and more. The same day, they seized my laptop and my phone. I got them back yesterday, June 5th 2023. Normally, the case won't go anywhere. Because it's old or no proofs or witnesses. My mother were involved in some stuff, local police didn't do anything against her, but since the day I went to the police, we don't speak together and with my stepfather it's tense because he sides with her despite everything that went down these past decades. Life is still chaotic right now, I don't know when I'll post back. Until then, good day to all of you and take care. Stay safe everyone. God bless you all.
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theRealrollforever I DID-DENT Registered: 08/31/13 Posts: 14,338 Loc: Bada-Bing! Last seen: 6 minutes, 28 seconds |
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This is too fucked up for me to even think of a response
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nooneman Registered: 04/24/09 Posts: 14,683 Loc: Utah |
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Sounds like possible sociopathy. Particularly the manipulation thing, that's a classic telltale sign, especially when combined with the other stuff.
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