I took a third of a chocolate bar infused with 15g (as advertised on packaging). After around 40 mins, I didn't feel anything. Thinking that I was scammed and was sold a regular chocolate bar, I began eating the whole bar. 20 mins later, I started feeling tingles and seeing vague visuals. Another 30 mins and the walls were moving, floor was flowing like a river.
Realized that I was tripping, I went out to the garden, and everything was beautiful and vibrant. I can see more detail in everything, the birds, bees, leaves, the sky, concrete. I can isolate sounds and hear them clearly, like I was wearing headphones. My dog seemed to be teleporting and at a time had two faces. I was giggling uncontrollably, covering my face with my shirt. I was watching myself giggling, and at the same time I was watching myself looking at myself giggling, like I was stuck in a loop.
Went back inside, and lied down on the sofa. Had a hard time walking straight. I was having conversations in my head with a voice. I saw large diamond shaped eyes with no face on the wall. It felt like it was watching over everything and at the same time looking at me. I was confused. The more I tried to understand and rationalize what was happening in my mind, the more the answers seemed to turn into more questions. Like plants blooming into questions, and the questions blooming into another question. Then I realized to just let it be.
For a time, I felt that I was confronting myself and trying to get me to admit that I cared about people around me. Talked to a photo of a close family friend that took care of me when I was a kid. She died last year of old age. She called me the night before she died, but was unable to speak to her, because I was finishing some stuff. The next morning, she passed away asking for me. She considered me as her grandson. I felt awful but hid my emotions from the people around me. In my mind, I was asking for forgiveness, for not being with her during her last moments. She told me it was okay, she understands, and she was comforting me. I was crying. She always told me to show my family that I loved them, but I always brushed her off.
After a while, the entity I was speaking to was telling me to just do whatever I want to, and that I did not need to ask permission or get approval from anybody. At a time, I was asking permission to take a cookie, and it just told me to just go ahead, nobody minds.
I asked myself if I was going insane, and I thought to myself, maybe this is what insanity is like. You're stuck in your head realizing you're insane, but your mind has a mind of it's own. Like being conscious in a paralyzed body. I asked if I can go back to my wife, it told me "go ahead, why not?". Came down after maybe 4 or 5 hours.
Overall a very good experience, but I from what I read about others' doses, it did not seem to me that I had experienced a heroic dose. I didn't experience any melting, or any ego death, or what else a heroic dose could do.
Could it be infused chocolate is less potent? or that it was falsely advertised to contain 15g of Pan-Cyan? Before I took the chocolate bar, I did not know that a typical high dose is around 5g, so I was surprised to know that I supposedly took 15g.
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