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alg0181
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Second real trip - 2g enigma tea 1
#28262510 - 04/04/23 05:59 PM (9 months, 19 days ago) |
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Everything in (parentheses) was added the next day for context and detail. I’ve done doses around 1g or less at parties but haven’t used mushrooms for personal growth/mental health until these last 2 trips. I find it hilarious I wanted a meaningful trip and got the silliest experience of my life. Of course, I learned that’s also meaningful, so it’s all good! Happy reading, I guess I feel the need to share with someone.
PS: thanks for all the info here, I learned a lot lurking!
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Drank at 11, done by 11:08 am
(Ground up in coffee grinder, some lemon added as water boiled, hot water added to lemon/shroom mixture for 20 mins, add honey and strain)
11:14 I’m excited. Happy and ready. It should hit harder because I’ve been fasting and ate lightly yesterday. I’m so grateful for my last trip, it was like a gift to know I don’t need to fear them or myself. I’ll carry that with me in all future trips.
(I felt a really strong “message” my last trip that I have no reason to fear my own mind. I had a huge mental health turnaround last time)
11:26 first hint of magic energy
11:45 smoked and ate the mushroom pieces from the tea because still not feeling very much? Music sounds good in headphones though
12:03 yeah this shit is working lol. Songs and eyes closed is like another universe.
12:24 went and laid down with eye mask and I just wasn’t feeling it so went back outside
(this was come up anxiety I now realize, I felt restless about starting the trip “right” and learning something)
12:30 just gasped visuals! For the first time. Traces, melting. I’m melting too but I’m laughing about it lol
1:34 ok so I just spent almost an hour on the floor of (son’s—he has a star projector) room listening to music and watching the lights LOL. Weird how it comes in waves though, I totally talked to my dentist on the phone but I felt a wave coming and saw rainbows I was like “keep it together!!!” like giving birth LMAO
(the call interrupted my music, probably around 1pm, it was just about rescheduling an appt, kinda had to be done and I felt confident enough to have that quick convo despite it generally being a bad idea to answer calls. Next time I’ll download the playlist and do airplane mode but it didn’t harsh my vibe at all)
1:37 I keep thinking “alright I must be finally peaking”, uh oh 😂
1:50 the music is inside my brain when I use the earbuds. My brain is the universe. So amazing. Hardly any real visuals? Weird because everything else got really intense.
(Learned later I did experience real visuals: splitting, faint tracers, pattern and color enhancement, peripheral wiggling, just not the stereotypical fractals etc I thought I should expect. No CEVs but i had lots of fun imagery in my mind’s eye, which I didn’t expect, like a “feeling” of an image. I kept imagining the music filling my mind and pouring out into the galaxy)
2:03 seriously how does anyone do this without earbuds?
(My phone told me to turn my headphones down but it may as well have asked me to stop breathing)
2:35 I asked the mushrooms for another message and they said they love music but can’t dance so they make psilocybin so they can dance with us
(Visual suggestions in my minds eye of the fungi worshiping music and I had this sense that I had to show the mushrooms a good time???)
2:54 each song is its own trip. They played a joke on me when I said I preferred outside. I am the mushroom and the music. Lots of muscle and jaw tension.
(This is one of those types of statements that somewhat creeped me out about trip reports, but turns out it’s just wonderful and groovy to be a mushroom and to be music!)
(Somewhere in here I had time distortions strong enough I checked my phone to see if I accidentally changed playback speed on the music. It was going so slow, and for a moment the song seemed to grow to the size of an eternity, but then it snapped quickly back to normal. In the moment it was a bit unsettling and I guess I was too out there to write it down. I can’t really account for the hour between 3&4. I was still on the floor with the star projector and music but thought I was taking notes at regular intervals)
4:00 I left this earth for a bit. The music is here to take me away again!
4:23 can’t stop laughing long enough to drink water
(I had gone back outside, and stripped down suddenly hot after feeling cold for hours)
4:27 laughing my ass off remembering that I ate the mushroom pieces after making the tea because I didn’t feel anything
4:36 dude. Naked outside and just vibing with the universe. Stuff that I thought would be scary about tripping like seeing eyes is just funny as fuck. I love weed and mushrooms. Thank you Mother Earth 🌎♥️
(This was pareidolia, the concrete outside looked like eyes and faces to me, not seeing actual OEVs)
4:41 still laughing still haven’t finished the water 😂
4:47 DID IT 💧😂 starting to come down. Gotta do this with (husband) on my birthday!!
5:05 still laughing and peeing. Why does peeing feel so good??? 😂 texted (husband) “can’t help with dinner, sorry and I love you” it’s exhausting being a music festival for mushrooms!!!
(I seriously probably laughed for the better part of an hour, at everything, the hilarious contrast of my husband taking our kids to do family stuff while I became the universe, the fact that a mushroom can make this happen to you, laughing at the fact I couldn’t stop laughing, laughing at my feeble attempts to drink water)
5:30 saw this and cried so hard but in a good way
(poem about relationships and depression)
5:34 I keep saying “wow I get why you can only trip every so often, it’s tiring.” How do people do LSD???
6:00 ok actually coming down. My eyes are tired. So much love 😊 amazing perfect day
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Re: Second real trip - 2g enigma tea [Re: alg0181]
#28263261 - 04/05/23 09:04 AM (9 months, 19 days ago) |
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laughing and peeing is the best,
enjoy,
great report the joy comes through.
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Re: Second real trip - 2g enigma tea [Re: alg0181]
#28263828 - 04/05/23 03:46 PM (9 months, 18 days ago) |
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alg0181 said: (this was come up anxiety I now realize, I felt restless about starting the trip “right” and learning something)
The more I do this, the more I realize how silly it is to feel anxious about any of it. I still *do* get anxious: will it go well, will I have fun, will it be *meaningful*, will I take too much? will I take not enough?? should I prepare more?? should I prepare less? what if I get bored? what if I have a bad trip? and on and on...
And then when it hits me, I realize that none of that ever mattered, and I'm going to have a great time.
So, enjoy! and worry less!
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alg0181
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I'm learning this too! It's a fine line because you do want to be responsible with your set and setting. But...Shrooms gonna shroom. It was so funny to me that I planned to meditate and look within, and ended up dancing for 3 hours.
edit: Meant to reply to seventhmushroom. I haven't used a forum like this since LiveJournal hah
Edited by alg0181 (04/05/23 05:21 PM)
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Re: Second real trip - 2g enigma tea [Re: redgreenvines] 1
#28263927 - 04/05/23 05:27 PM (9 months, 18 days ago) |
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redgreenvines said: laughing and peeing is the best,
enjoy,
great report the joy comes through.
It was pure joy start to finish. I'm kind of a "prepare for the worst" person due to a traumatic upbringing and was ready to face some anxiety and darkness. I'm sure that awaits me one of these trips, and it was only 2g of course, but the sheer love and beauty I've experienced so far has been so reassuring. Like, I'm doing this to help me, not to get fucked up, but that doesn't mean it has to be drudgery. Joy is a big part of that process.
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Re: Second real trip - 2g enigma tea [Re: alg0181]
#28263940 - 04/05/23 05:46 PM (9 months, 18 days ago) |
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Here are a couple more details I was mulling over today:
- There was a point during the 3-4 window where it was really intense, that I felt pinned to the ground. I was looking around at the star lights and then wasn't really able to move my head anymore, I remember looking around using only my eyes, but even then it took some effort. This only lasted until the end of the song maybe 15 seconds later. It kinda felt like my whole body was made of lead. It was accompanied by like a huge joygasm and I could have cried from the beauty if my body still worked.
- In the moment it truly felt like I was dancing with/for the mushrooms and their consciousness was with/inside me. I know it's somewhat common to get "answers" from the mushrooms, but is this normal to feel the mushroom presence this strongly? it happened my first trip too (not the dancing, but I felt like the conscious mushrooms were with me) I am not a new age/spiritual person in general. It isn't something I've read about in a lot of trip reports.
- At one point the ceiling fan started looking pretty ominous, the exposed light bulbs were lit up by the star projector and looked like creepy eyes, and I wanted to look away. BUT I was like "fuck no, that's how a bad trip starts" so I made myself keep staring at the fan, refused to be creeped out, and the effect faded. Also at the moment I was listening to All is Full of Love by Bjork and I told myself even the weird stuff is full of love. In your experience is it generally effective to tell yourself "this is just a wild thing happening in your brain and it'll pass" or is a bad trip going to find you and fuck you up no matter what you tell yourself? It seemed very helpful to me in the moment. It also helped when I felt "pinned". I'm not cocky and I know I can't avoid bad experiences entirely, just curious what you guys tell yourself when things go pear-shaped.
Thanks all, it's helpful to type it out the kids came home right as I came down, and then our baby got sick the next day so it's been hard to get the time to process this one. <3
Edited by alg0181 (04/05/23 05:54 PM)
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Re: Second real trip - 2g enigma tea [Re: alg0181]
#28277203 - 04/14/23 10:35 AM (9 months, 10 days ago) |
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I have the same prescription for all things, relax and be present.
but for the issues that deserve a bit more examination, my prescription is to see how decisions or what might have been considered decisions, are really mental reflexes and not indicators of a good or bad self.
Examined in detail all perceptions and responses are reflexes. but the quality time comes when you are present.
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"and they said they love music but can’t dance so they make psilocybin so they can dance with us"
I love this idea
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alg0181
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Quote:
redgreenvines said: I have the same prescription for all things, relax and be present.
but for the issues that deserve a bit more examination, my prescription is to see how decisions or what might have been considered decisions, are really mental reflexes and not indicators of a good or bad self.
Examined in detail all perceptions and responses are reflexes. but the quality time comes when you are present.
It's so interesting to me how related Buddhism and the mushroom experience seem to be. I'm not really a Buddhist but maybe an aspiring one. So many lessons from meditation can be applied to trips and vice versa.
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Re: Second real trip - 2g enigma tea [Re: Corundum]
#28283130 - 04/18/23 04:20 AM (9 months, 6 days ago) |
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Corundum said: "and they said they love music but can’t dance so they make psilocybin so they can dance with us"
I love this idea
This concept came across so strongly and clearly that it felt like remembering something I knew to be true. And I laughed at the scientists because it was so obvious. LOL
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