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Anonymous #1
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Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously.
#28079973 - 12/02/22 04:54 PM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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You solve one problem, another pops up. Things that you long for, once you get, no longer satisfy you. A perpetual course of yearning and lack with very fleeting moments of satisfaction that make you realize the destination was in fact the journey itself. But you missed it.
My lease is ending and I seem to have no choice but to move in with either of my parents both of which are shitty situations. I stare in the mirror and the body dysmorphia I've been dealing with since I was 5 just has not gotten any better. Last time I had any non platonic physical interaction with a girl was the first (and only) time I had sex, and it was terrible because of how uncomfortable with myself I am (I also didn't really like her at all, just wanted to lose the label of virgin at 21). Almost three years ago.
It's moments like these where I really do wonder if life is just a matter of realizing we do live in hell and the sooner you off yourself the better.
Edit: Just wanted to throw out there that I'm not looking for sympathy or advice, none of that would really help anyway. The title is not an excuse to piss and moan but a genuine recurring question I have internally.
Edited by Anonymous (12/02/22 05:05 PM)
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Anonymous #2
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#28082697 - 12/04/22 09:07 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Ethically the answer to your question is quite clear: ending life prematurely deprives you, and the world, of all the future good that will be created or inspired by you directly and indirectly. It sounds like it’s hard to see right now but things will get better. It’s in our nature.
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Anonymous #3
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #2]
#28082755 - 12/04/22 09:50 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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It doesn’t always get better. That’s just wishful thinking for the most part because it would be considered rude to not say something entirely positive.
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Anonymous #4
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#28082827 - 12/04/22 10:32 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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I have two unique perspectives on this:
Firstly, I had this odd thought. We're all destined to die but it's the one thing we desperately try to avoid. What if life as we know is a sort of prison camp? We stand at the precipice of immortality. What if our instincts to extend our lifespans are part of the punishment? Maybe, after millions or billions of years, we're met with comforting beings like "Shit, what took you so long?"
On the opposite end, I think all experience is beautiful and worth experiencing. As I see it, this will be the only opportunities that we have to experience these things. Maybe, negative things feel bad, but I'm grateful for knowing them. The eternal nothing that is death isn't preferable to negative feelings in love. I'd rather live a life of misery than a life in which I feel virtually nothing. Even that suffering is a gift.
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Anonymous #5
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #4]
#28083035 - 12/04/22 12:29 PM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Could someone please tell me why so many people are freaked out about heir bodies and by sex these days?
When I was in school in the 90s even the weirdest gawky looking dudes were able to get laid. I mean, everybody has some growing pains to learn from but over and over I see these posts about "I'm so young but I'm a loser and nobody wants me, think I'll just give up"
Seriously, WTF?
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Anonymous #3
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #5]
#28083485 - 12/04/22 04:12 PM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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I think it’s a massively different world than in the 90’s. Just in terms of everything.
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Anonymous #5
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #3]
#28083638 - 12/04/22 05:42 PM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Probably so. We're all fucked
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Anonymous #6
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#28085615 - 12/06/22 03:23 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Believe it or not there are many others in similar situations that have similar feelings.
One thing I like to keep in mind is that I know I will die eventually no matter how much I may want to live, no point in rushing it along, it'll happen when the time comes so might as well try to find a little joy in the meantime.
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Anonymous #7
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#28085623 - 12/06/22 03:44 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Every 1,000 years, approximately 1 billion people die from suicide.
Life would be great if people were intelligent.
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Anonymous #8
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #7]
#28088370 - 12/08/22 09:23 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Exercise, eat well, sleep, meditate. Feels good. Problems, life goals, lifetime security, sex, etc. are all survival issues. Develop the best internal state you can with what you have and enjoy it while you're still alive.
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Anonymous #9
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #8]
#28123332 - 01/03/23 08:02 PM (1 year, 24 days ago) |
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i do you learn to meditate properly??, i find boredom and no benefit after couple minutes
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Anonymous #10
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #9]
#28129466 - 01/07/23 03:33 PM (1 year, 21 days ago) |
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you are here for a reason. this incarnation has meaning, purpose. terminating your biological wave function before it can be properly collapsed will only do harm to your ultimate identity and the identity of reality. keep going.
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Anonymous #8
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #9]
#28133229 - 01/10/23 06:43 AM (1 year, 18 days ago) |
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Quote:
Anonymous #9 said: i do you learn to meditate properly??, i find boredom and no benefit after couple minutes
If bored you are having a mundane experience. Meditation can get very interesting. Research potential experience. This knowledge can promote interest.
Belly breathing is a quick way to non-mundane experience. Find the benefit and culture it. The experience will change with practice.
Many people find results with chakra meditation after a few weeks.
At any rate, there's a "time curve" meaning that to some degree you have to train you body/mind to calm down before the interesting stuff begins to manifest. This can take days/weeks. Daily practice with a short term commitment of a few weeks despite boredom is usually necessary, then assess.
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Anonymous #8
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #8]
#28133269 - 01/10/23 07:39 AM (1 year, 18 days ago) |
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Another way to avoid boredom without specific technique is to recognize what mundane experience is and avoid it. Mundane experience is whatever would happen if you were to just sit there and let your mind do whatever it was going to do anyway.
Direct your awareness to the non-mundane that is readily apparent. Heart rate, blood pressure, breath. If a mundane thought enters your mind, vanquish it with silence. Mind chatter is mundane. Silence is golden because it's not mundane. If an itch arises, the mundane thing to do is scratch it. Bend your will to not scratching no matter what.
By avoiding the mundane you avoid boredom. And despite all the various technique that's the crux of what meditation is, to have a different experience.
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Anonymous #11
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #8]
#28158061 - 01/26/23 09:21 AM (1 year, 2 days ago) |
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No I imagine that you were the first person in history that has ever thought the sooner you die the better.
okay that was sarcasm.
I think we have definitely all had the thought before "this life sucks so much the sooner I die the better."
The number one reason to not kill yourself when you want to die is to not satisfy all the other people out there that would be so much happier if you didn't exist.
Maybe it's not a 100% fantastic way of solving psychological problems. Perhaps there is that moment where you just think "this is it. I shoot myself and call it a life. I've gone as far as I possibly can and done everything I could possibly do what else is there? Why ruin it from here?"
Believe me I have thought that. However no matter what you go through in life there's always a point later on where you're like "if I had ended it there I wouldn't be here now. I thought I had done it all but didn't realize there was so much more to experience no matter what experienced I thought was the final definitive moment there was still so much more to experience.
But when you leave the people that are winning are the people that wanted to ruin it for you. They didn't like your sex life they didn't like your job they didn't like your choice of Lifestyle they didn't like your religion or race or Creed or psychological belief or morals and ethics they didn't like your choice of city and state and country to live in or what type of house or apartment you wanted to be in or what type of music you like. They didn't like your goals and ambitions. They just wanted you gone. Because I had some miserable life where their father raped them as a child or something.
When you leave this earth you're giving a bunch of idiots exactly what they want. It's the main reason to keep going the main reason to keep having a life. Is to have the ultimate Revenge. And the ultimate revenge against a hateful person is a 100% fantastic incredible Fabulous Life they can never live up to.
If you give up now you're giving up in the face of everybody that truly ruins the actual reason that life is supposed to be fantastic. Keep going buddy. Keep going. Don't satisfy the haters
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Anonymous #7
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Re: Sometimes I wonder if the sooner you die the better. Seriously. [Re: Anonymous #1]
#28166750 - 01/31/23 09:08 PM (11 months, 20 days ago) |
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Are you sure you want to die? Sure you don't want to be immortal? Want to know what happens when you die? *Spoiler alert* What happens when you die: When you die, "something else" will happen but it will take an infinite amount of time which will pass by instantly. But think... how can an infinite amount of time pass by instantly? Hmm...
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