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imaginary-cat-lady
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1.5g APE trip report question - who are "they"?
#28132928 - 01/09/23 08:53 PM (1 year, 18 days ago) |
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First, a little background: I have used shrooms recreationally in my youth, but stopped when I decided it was time to be an "adult". I saw a psychotherapist regularly for a few years, which helped me immensely to build up my confidence and self-esteem from having grown up in a dysfunctional and emotionally neglectful family.
More recently, I self-diagnosed myself with CPTSD--essentially, my therapy experience helped me change some intellectual/mental perspectives, but the trauma was still stored and repressed in my body. This led to some confusion because my "gut" was sometimes in direct conflict with my "brain". I decided to start doing psilocybin therapy last year and have done about 5 trips. Each have been very different and more importantly, allowed me to release a lot of repressed emotions (even ones that I didn't know existed.) In short, they have been nothing but amazing, even the so-called "bad trips".
So, now my question: on my most recent trip, I was able to feel like I was part of the universe. It felt a bit like I was in the milky way. During a part of the trip, I started to cry and feel traumatic emotions come up (there is no memory attached to it, just the physiological feelings), but then I felt there was a presence that "they" were all there, and "they" were all around me. I guess it felt a lot like support because then my crying turned into more of a cry of relief and gratitude. This seems so silly, but I can't stop thinking about this: who are "they"?!
Wondering if anyone else has felt this presence? WHO ARE THEY?! (Personal interpretations welcome ) Thanks for reading
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Rusty2096
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No one can actually answer that.
What I can do on the other hand, is tell you what I personally believe.
Are you familiar with the concept of Gaia - or have you seen the 1st Avatar movie?
Well I think that's it. You are everything and anything. You have always existed and always will. Some greater collective consciousness like let's say pieces of a shattered mirror that can't quit realize they are only 1 mirror.
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Re: 1.5g APE trip report question - who are "they"? [Re: Rusty2096] 1
#28134286 - 01/10/23 07:24 PM (1 year, 17 days ago) |
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Oh for sure, I wasn't looking for someone to interpret my trip haha. Just curious if anyone else has felt this presence and what they think it is Thanks for your thoughts! I haven't watched Avatar but will do so to find out what you're talking about
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