It's hard to say. There are kind of two schools of thought when ones life comes to a close before you. Let life continue as it were or find closure whatever that is. I don't think either are right or wrong so trying to come to some conclusion on planned or not planned is ultimately impossible. I wonder what happened that day. If he argued with the wife or what not. There's only so many scenarios you can assume. Someone cheated or they are splitting, kids aren't his, maybe he was terminal, mental health issues ect ect. Did he have a benzo or alcohol habit and how was he on those. Either are bad for the depressed given how they relieve you of inhibitions. Momentary decisions can be costly. You could say, wouldn't a shotgun be quicker but it's messier. If I ever did myself in with a gun I'd get inside a lot of trashbags inside a tub so I didn't make too much of a mess. I've thought this through. That's planning. Knowing how to tie a noose is planning. Certain things give you time to change your mind. But hanging yourself where your loved ones will find you is not planning. People want to be found because they want to feel safe, because they hurt. If you want to die because you feel alone like me you go out to the woods where no one that matters will find you. No one can tell you any more than that. Something happened or he felt broken in one way or another, as it is for all who go. If it was medical then I imagine you'll find out. If something bad happened in his personal or business life you may never know and maybe that's what he wanted. Sorry about your cousin. My cousin purposefully OD'd last year, leaving behind two little girls. She was cool, and I wished I could have reached out to her because I knew she was going through a tough time and didn't. Can't change that. But we had some good times when we were younger. I know when I get old I'll be glad I have people to miss.
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