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3rdEyeBlind
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My First bad trip. Was this normal? 6.3 Lemon Tek 1
#28036188 - 11/06/22 09:11 AM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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Took 6.3 grams of mushrooms with the lemon tek method. My first time trying lemon tek. I was really excited started drinking the tea had it all down in 30 mins. Was playing fortnite and I started feeling this rush in my head. Then all at once it washed over my whole body and I felt like I was doing 100 mph on a roller coaster. Just pulling G's. As I'm playing the game it goes 3D and I can see fortnite in my peripheral vision. Felt like I could just reach into the game and grab people. Then I got filled with rage for no reason. Kept on telling myself I need to chill with the way I'm thinking then the mushrooms were like BOO and my mind started looping. Couldn't stop thinking about thinking. The rage went away but I was having negative thoughts about the people I love and care for. I couldn't believe the way I was thinking. Like i could see how I was thinking but no control over it. It was like the mushrooms were showing me an alternative way of life but that life included no one but me. I was successful but a piece of shit as a person in this other version of myself. I felt like I hated my mother and my girlfriend for no reason. It was so real. Its was fucking me up. I just cried for an hour I couldn't understand why I was thinking this way. Couldn't stop telling myself I'm a bad person because of all these crazy thoughts. It felt soo real like it was a deep truth that I couldn't admit to myself. So now I'm a bit fucked up. Were those feelings real. Am I lying to myself? Where did those thoughts manifest from. Was it just the shrooms? I was in bed with my girlfriend the whole time but I didn't want to tell her my thoughts because they were brutal. I do have ADHD ADD and aspergers which make me keep to myself more then alot of people. Like I dont have a lot of friends kind of a loner. I dont like going out alot. Just wanna be home where I'm comfortable. I dont show much feelings and not good with them. This trip was really eye opening. Still having trouble 3 days later. Just trying to figure out if my thoughts were real or is there something deep inside me. Shits fucked. I really needed a friend to talk to but I didn't want to bother him with my B.S. No more high dose lemon tek for me. Although I'm very curious to try again. Felt like the mushrooms were trying to tell me something. I wanna see if I'm strong enough to recognize what's happening and stop it. If it went bad again. Or maybe I was on to something but was just focused on the wrong things. Or I'm looking too deep into all of this and need to chill. Sorry for the rant. Feel free to chime in with thoughts. Thanks.
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bridge2far


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Re: My First bad trip. Was this normal? 6.3 Lemon Tek [Re: 3rdEyeBlind]
#28036403 - 11/06/22 11:47 AM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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Welcome to Shroomery
Thanks for sharing your experience. Sorry you had a difficult trip.
Maybe 6.3g + Lemon Tek is beyond your body’s physical tolerance. I’ve learned that physical sensations can manifest as mental feelings while dosed. Nausea has manifested as the feeling of impending doom for me a few times. In the moment, I was not aware of the nausea and was frightened by the feeling of doom that seemed to come from nowhere. When I made the physical/mental connection, I corrected the nausea with posture (sitting with head between knees) and deep breathing. Both the nausea and the doom disappeared in seconds. Maybe prepare your dose as a tea next time instead of doing Lemon Tek.
Is there a reason for the negativity you felt? Doesn’t sound like it based on what you wrote. But only you know for sure. Maybe allow a few weeks to pass before your next trip so you can integrate this experience into your life. You will almost certainly gain some insight on this experience during the integration period.
The mushrooms force new perspective on the tripper. It sounds like you received a heavy handed smack of that new perspective. You were shown a lot of negative stuff and you hated it. But that’s a good reaction, right? If you enjoyed the preview of your negative life, then you would have cause for worry. Maybe your trip experience was encouraging you to be a little more emotionally open to your loved ones to help maintain positive relationships.
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orphee
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Re: My First bad trip. Was this normal? 6.3 Lemon Tek [Re: 3rdEyeBlind]
#28045327 - 11/11/22 01:05 PM (1 year, 2 months ago) |
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3rdEyeBlind said: Couldn't stop thinking about thinking.
i hear ya!
it doesn't sound like a bad trip to me though, where someone calls the cops because you're losing your shit and no one can calm you down.
edit* i don't mean to be insensitive, you're experience doesn't sound pleasant, but i'm not sure what constitute a bad trip, other than thinking the devil is coming for you.
Edited by orphee (11/11/22 01:29 PM)
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