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Unfolding Nature Shop: Unfolding Nature: Being in the Implicate Order

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OfflineTerdleMountain
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Oh SHIT! DID...
    #27752113 - 04/26/22 12:54 PM (1 year, 8 months ago)

I never could figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Depressed? Yes; unbelievably so. Anxiety? Oh goddamn, beyond what I can describe.. to the point of hallucinating. Voices in my head? Check, I would have entire conversations with them... I've had friends with schizophrenia and I know for certain it wasn't that. On and off for 30 years I've been in therapy, been on all sorts of drugs, got all sorts of diagnoses...nothing ever worked. No one ever really listened to what I was telling them. It should have been obvious knowing what I know now.

As it turns out, it's dissociative identity disorder... (formerly multiple personality disorder). My current therapist recognized what I was telling her, she recognized the symptoms and started the testing process. So, yep, no more wondering WTF is wrong with me... everything matches, DID actually explains everything.

The further I explore into myself the more I see how big of an impact this has always been in my life. In some ways it's really weird, I mean so far there are about 12 independent alters living in here, each has their own perspectives, emotional states and thought processes. Making decisions usually involves getting a consensus rather than just making a decision. Alters will move "up front" and from there be my interface into the rest of the world, but they switch in and out a few times a day based on what is needed at any given moment. Some are good with money, some hold my technical knowledge for work, some have really good people skills... It's and extreme form of compartmentalization that happens as a way to deal with severe childhood abuse.

And it is nothing close to the bullshit you see on TV.

I'm just throwing this out there. If anyone is interested, just ask, I think I can do a decent job of answering most questions.


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Re: Oh SHIT! DID... [Re: TerdleMountain]
    #27752143 - 04/26/22 01:16 PM (1 year, 8 months ago)

Did you ever have episodes of vivid hallucinations when trying to fall asleep?


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Everything I have ever said is total bogus bs I am full of crud therefore everything I say should never be taken literal.

And I am mentally unstable.


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Re: Oh SHIT! DID... [Re: budmanman]
    #27752411 - 04/26/22 04:51 PM (1 year, 8 months ago)

Depends on the type of hallucination you're asking about. Schneiderian Symptoms type of hallucinations are the ones  people normally think about... Those are part of schizophrenia and are completely different than the type that happens with DID, which are more of the emotional flashback type, which I have had and still go through occasionally as part of the healing process. In schizophrenia the hallucinations tend to be detached from reality while flashbacks in DID are memory recall events that overwhelm the mind.


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Re: Oh SHIT! DID... [Re: TerdleMountain]
    #27756974 - 04/29/22 07:53 PM (1 year, 8 months ago)

Thanks for sharing your story. Sounds like a reasonably good ending so far.


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