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 I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. 
#27605460 - 01/03/22 04:21 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yesterday I drank 400ML of 35% ole Smokey apple pie moonshine and took 2mg of Clonazepam and blacked out completely. I read about celebrity’s having fatal overdoses from the same things. I just love the feeling though and honestly don’t care if it kills me. Honestly sometimes I feel like if I was dead I could spend more times with friends because I wouldn’t be passed out high somewhere. I feel like if I did die I would be in a better place but I would disappoint my family if I died. But idk I think it’s unavoidable I’m a little drunk and high right now but I can’t quit. I hate being addicted to so many things more than psychical it’s mental addiction too. If I keep doing this stuff I think it will kill me at an early age.
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#27605471 - 01/03/22 04:29 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah you are definitely gonna be dead sooner than later if that's the game you are playing
Keep it up and you won't see the rest of 2022 I'm sure of it
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: TrancedOutBrah] 2
#27605489 - 01/03/22 04:35 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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If there's a UPC it's not moonshine.
Why not take a break?
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: CaptainTrips420] 1
#27605551 - 01/03/22 04:52 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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You should probably stop doing that. I think you already know on some level you should stop, or you wouldn't have made this thread. So stop.
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: CaptainTrips420] 1
#27605555 - 01/03/22 04:53 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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seek help man
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: Double] 1
#27605557 - 01/03/22 04:53 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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its never too late until it is
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: Double]
#27605564 - 01/03/22 04:56 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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im also getting closer to dying a horrible death through my drinking. thing is though, most likely, we will suffer a lot more before we die.
seek help bro, someone loves you
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#27605567 - 01/03/22 04:57 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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i tell you this as im drinking beer, sitting on my bed, unemployed
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: Double] 1
#27605588 - 01/03/22 05:04 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Jesus man, your really playing with fire with this habit.
Just don't take so much, it's not like you gotta join AA just don't die, ya know?
You need to find something fun and healthy to fill your time. Do you live where it's warm?
I absolutely live to fish, maybe look into trying that.
Edited by Notarealguy (01/03/22 05:31 PM)
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: CaptainTrips420]
#27606027 - 01/03/22 09:34 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Damnnnn Daniel
I'm here if you need someone to talk to.
If you really want to quit you need professional help to do so, starting with your doctor. Just quiting on your own could also kill you.
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: r3volution.gurl]
#27606358 - 01/04/22 07:21 AM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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I don’t want to quit though and I’m also unemployed I get social security money cause they say I’m mentally ill. I am going to try quitting for a while I got some new delta 8 distillate so clear it’s see through but I’m trying to save it for something special. I’m just going to finish my reclaimed wax over the next week doing lower doses till I can get my head straight I feel depressed more often I just been constantly using drugs since like the beginning of October. Before that I was in a situation I was forced to quit. I can do it I just don’t like to.
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: CaptainTrips420]
#27606363 - 01/04/22 07:26 AM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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I would just go for some psychological help then because it might help you to get to a place you want to be. Be picky about who(psychologist) you want. I certainly was.
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: r3volution.gurl]
#27606810 - 01/04/22 02:08 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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I’ll be ok I’m actually moving closer to my family next week so my people I get it from will be like 2 hours away. It’s just a week but I’m going to not drink or use till after I move but probably no more benzodiazepines. I might buy a 100 proof bottle of cherry moonshine but I’m not sure maybe the last day with my friends. I’m not smoking my 10 grams till I have less of a tolerance I think I have enough to be high 2 more days then I’ll try being sober.
I just sometimes feel like I don’t have anything good to look forward to and the best part of my life is behind me. When I was a teenager I had a friend kill her self and before she did she got really interested in black wholes it’s said if sucked into one you would die after the universe ends but to you it would feel like seconds. I keep thinking death is like sleeping and I wouldn’t mind going to sleep and never waking up. It seems so peaceful
Edited by CaptainTrips420 (01/04/22 05:03 PM)
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: CaptainTrips420] 1
#27607932 - 01/05/22 11:27 AM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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I got some more liquor but only cause my friend gave me money for a little bit. I haven’t drank it yet it’s cherry moonshine 100 proof I ate a cherry it’s honestly might be the most delicious liquor I ever tasted. They got pickle moonshine too but I don’t like pickles. I’ll probably get drunk later tonight but not at the moment cause I just ate lunch and it makes me throw up if I have a full stomach. I just need to do it in moderation.
Shit I already drank 3 shots and ate a bunch of cherrys im actually just going to drink the juice and mix the rest of the cherry in coke but not right now I popped 2 more klonopins.
Edited by CaptainTrips420 (01/05/22 01:20 PM)
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#27608254 - 01/05/22 04:49 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Just don't do opiates
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: theRealrollforever]
#27608318 - 01/05/22 06:32 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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I already drank the whole thing all the liquid I put on the rocks then poured it back up with coke and crushed it up with a spoon I didn’t eat all the cherrys it was to much but I got the liquor and flavor for sure. I doubt I’ll remember this but on a side note I feel amazing it’s better than anything besides heroin and OxyContin. I love narcotics I want an anonymous narcotics program that gives me freebies I’m drunk and high coming down from benzodiazepines but I feel great. I wish my life was like this.
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: CaptainTrips420]
#27608380 - 01/05/22 08:04 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Ahhh I remember the last time I bottomed out with benzos in the mix. Great way to really get yourself into some bad shit :/ Seek help, please
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Re: I think I’m coming close to real death literally almost every other day. [Re: kreg]
#27608426 - 01/05/22 09:01 PM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Meh.. I straight up had a heart attack when at work.. Chest tight, jaw pain, arm pain.. I cant miss no work.. all these hospitals are going to do is tell me to rest .. thats what I did.. Til next time oh great creator..
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#27608694 - 01/06/22 05:59 AM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Actually strangely enough I remember most of everything including the point I made that post didn’t actually black out just assumed I did. I’m still a little mad about the cherrys they said 50% alcohol but when I looked on the back it says 375ml is 50% but the cherrys where not so I paid like $25 for a pint wtf? But the feeling I get is like hard drugs I like sleepy and care free its why I like opioids. Nodding off feels a little stronger and better though whys it got to be so expensive? I should grow poppy seeds and get opium.
But I just ate 7mg of klonopin by itself I’ll see how it feels without liquor. I might just stop combining them but I think of it like harmala saves money. At $5 a pill it’s not cheap but I get it for free/trade.
Edited by CaptainTrips420 (01/06/22 11:22 AM)
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#27611497 - 01/08/22 10:14 AM (2 years, 3 months ago) |
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Every day you do this kinda shit you are another step closer to death
It's your life but that's a real shitty way to live. You made this thread clearly as a cry for help, you should probably go seek help dude.
Do you want to die? This is how you end up dead.
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Spread kindness, love, empathy, compassion.
Learn from mistakes. Try and do better. Each day is a new day, try to make it a better one.
Coconut and Avocado is awesome for the skin.
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