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 Re: Can I please get a definitive answer?  [Re: GenericHero]
#27565199 - 12/01/21 06:47 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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True. I'd love to hear any stories of diff dosages though. Did you have any realizations on a 1.5 trip? Help your issues like anxiety or depression or addiction? What about a 3 gram trip, what did that do for you? I'm aware they don't necessarily fix those issues but can help you understand them more.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd]
#27565219 - 12/01/21 07:00 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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I never weighed any of my doses. Sometimes I would eat a lot. More recently I would just eat an eighth to a quarter teaspoon of the powder every few days for depression. Worked great for depression but had some unintended side effects. Started getting panic attacks. I've had periods in the past with panic attacks when I wasn't eating mushroom, so I don't know if they are to blame or not. Probably a combination of things. On the stronger trips, it might be awesome, like laying on my back in the yard at night thinking how absolutely amazing it is to be alive. Or it could be hugely uncomfortable and depressing like realizing how shit most of my relationships with people are. Like I realize my mate and I really just annoy one another and are only together for codependent reasons
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: GenericHero]
#27565227 - 12/01/21 07:06 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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Dude I was so close to my friend when I was 7 up until around 12 we just sorta started disliking each other. I remember when the comfortability just kind of disappeared between us. Worst shit I've ever dealt with. Like part of my soul was cut off me and he went from my brother to a stranger.
Can I ask, unless it makes you too uncomfortable to talk about, what you mean by panic attack? From what I know most people describe those as feelings of dying, being unable to breath and stuff. I've had what I think is anxiety attacks which is just unbelievably horrendous anxiety so bad I think I maybe would rather die than feel it again. But I've never felt like I WAS dying or that I can't breath and that sounds horrifying to the point where I would do anything at all to escape it, I assume.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd]
#27565238 - 12/01/21 07:18 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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It was the realization that I'm going to die, possibly horribly, and there is nothing I can do to stop it. My body would go into fight or flight mode and i would either pace or turn into a ball while my heart hammered in my chest. I haven't done any psychedelics in a while. Started taking psych meds again. Mushrooms are definitely amazing organisms, but it's hard to say what the consequence of use will be. Portraying them as a cure all might be a bit irresponsible. I guess it's just like any other med, some folks will have adverse reactions.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: GenericHero]
#27565243 - 12/01/21 07:24 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah true. I had nothing but negative effects on psych meds. Weird dreams, sexual issues, sweating, and OCD getting worse on them. Weed edible made me have a hard time swallowing and its like my organs slowed down. I could feel as the food went into my stomach, pain going through my intestines and stuff. It seemed like my entire bodies functions were just slow and weak. Pretty scary.
I really hope if I do take 1.5 grams I can find more shrooms. I'm gonna be depressed if I can't.
Can I ask if you know what possibly could help your issues besides what you already do? Like the basic things, exercise, leaving toxic places, leaving toxic people, having a better job, meditation,etc?
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd]
#27565268 - 12/01/21 07:46 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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Psychedelic mushroom grow all over the world. You just need to get good at identifying them. Figure out which grow in your area and when the best time to find them is and start looking. There is an id section on this site to help with identifying what you find.
Clonazepam has really helped me with the panic. I was taking every day but since I started working I only take on work days. The best thing is belonging to a group and having a function in that group. I've had this briefly a few times in my life but it's hard to maintain. I alienate people with my weirdness and really just don't like most people to begin with. I have something that sort of approaches this at work. I wash dish with a few other people and we kind of have an us against them attitude. Them being the rest of the staff.
Feels kinda nice, band of misfits kinda thing.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: GenericHero]
#27565284 - 12/01/21 08:01 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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I alienate people with my weirdness and really just don't like most people to begin with.
Every word of this, I resonate with. People want so bad to be cool, have huge egos, care so much about how social you seem and straight hate you if you aren't cool seeming in the way you talk. People are just fucking douchebags 99% of the time. At least in my experience but.. could be wrong coming from someone with a deluded wonky mind. Nice you can have some form of family, wish I had that. Also wish I had some girls toes in my throat and her other foot stabbing a knife into my stomach but, I haven't found my princess charming yet. I should have escaped when I was 12 to some other country or something instead of being addicted to video games and porn for 15 years. Although I will admit my xbox years from 2008-2010 were enjoyable but should have spent more of my teen years having adventures. I remember feeling so many different things as a teen and it all just died and went away when I turned 20. Its like I died even more inside when I turned 20, not sure why.
I guess I sort of had a family at my McDonalds job, abusive family but still a family, at least it felt like that to me. Kinda feel like I realized none of them actually gave a shit about me after I left idk. But I guess a workplace family is what it is and really should end once the job is over. Tired of getting attached to people so easily who don't even think about me ever or care if I really live or die.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd]
#27565302 - 12/01/21 08:24 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've spent a huge chunk of my life playing video games. I don't really get the same feeling from them anymore... Sucks. I spent most of my adult life without the internet so I really didn't have access to porn. Sometimes I would buy a DVD but I would wind up feeling bad jerking off to the same thing over and over. Self loathing kind of and I would throw it away. Got a girlfriend about three years ago and she is all about the smart home with internet. She convinced me to buy a smart phone for the first time. Before that I just used a pay as you go flip phone. We used to have sex all the time... Buncha stuff happen and she no like sex anymore. She says it's the meds but part of me thinks she is lying. Maybe she lied about everything from the beginning. I miss my old minimalist life sometimes. For the past year or so I've had to satisfy myself, so I've been watching porn everyday. Sometimes multiple times per day.
There's no guarantee that having a girlfriend will make anything better for you. It is nice to get your rocks off in a pussy though as opposed to your hand
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: GenericHero]
#27565314 - 12/01/21 08:34 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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Yeah I've never had pussy. I look younger so girls my age don't wanna get with me but I have had girls like 15-17 seem interested... FML. Can't even grow any facial hair or anything on top of looking young so I'm disrespected by other men. I know what you mean about jerking off to the same thing, I think its some like instinctive thing in our male brains that makes you feel like agitated you're only getting one female so to speak, except its porn, but I think our minds kinda see it like a girl in a way idk. But also I have a really hard time feeling close and connected with people, especially girls, which is definitely why I haven't been laid because the one single time I took that edible I felt connected and close to a complete stranger who later came in with her tits halfway out hitting on me but she was like 16. Yeah like I said, younger girls I guess think I'm younger or something and older girls are like "ew what are you 12". Dx
I'm very afraid of having a relationship with a female. Especially because I can't even make a friend so how am I supposed to experience deep passionate romance. Like that paranoid song. Happiness I cannot feel and love to me is so unreal. I wonder if he meant those lyrics.
Btw, I feel you exactly on the video game thing. They were always my happiness and then around 17 they started becoming a little more unenjoyable. Just got worse until I seemed to have lost all interest in them. Fucking sucks, like why does this happen I'd love to know. I know its for the better but psychology genuinely interests me. Maybe our minds just mature and don't find these childish things (gaming) arousing to our success at this point in our lives? Idk... all I can say is my delusional weird feelings mixed in with the games I'd play. I obsessed over mystical feelings as a kid, they ate up my brain more than they do nowadays. I remember my mind just feeling so strange and interesting, almost like drugs from just my natural state of being. I never did any drugs as a teen either but I was more delusional/weird than anyone who did do them. Not like insane but I think my OCD latches on to sooo many things, like certain things in my every day life must have some deeper meanings and just sorta weird shit. Like lots of little things feel mystical to me and stuff idk how to explain myself.
Call it a weird theory but sometimes I wonder if I wait for things to happen in my life because my mind resonates so much with video games. Where you just kind of "play" and things happen to you, adventure finds you, success,etc. Maybe those kinds of games teach our subconscious to expect life to happen instead of needing to engage in it?
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd]
#27565343 - 12/01/21 08:53 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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Deep passionate romance. Heh. At best is probably a temporary state at the beginning of a physical relationship with someone with who you have sexual chemistry. At worst is a fabrication to sell television shows and romance novels.
I didn't do drugs in school either but I was always being accused of being stoned.
Maybe you try to get girl in her thirties or forties. They might have lower standards. I've met plenty of older single women in the work place. Probably be pretty easy to get with one if you tried.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd]
#27565344 - 12/01/21 08:54 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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1.5 is weak, I just don't see any other way to look at it. It's still on the level with being drunk, or doing a line of coke, or getting really high on weed, so it's strong, but it usually isn't shit as far as blowing your mind. But it's still really cool, and a lot of times really wonderful and fun, but not always. Sometimes you just feel like shit.
I guess I feel like no one should ever do more than 2g, like more is poison or something, if they don't think the drug should do what more than 2g will do, because it doesn't really hit, before 2g like all the higher doses do. So if that's bad to have it be so strong, then why do we do more than two. It's because it's not bad for it to be strong, because it is strong, and we don't mind.
Think 1-18, or even more. That's the dose range.
And 1.5 is the beginning. But after that it quickly gets much stronger, so compared to 8g, in the middle, it's not even a blip on the radar in strength. And lots of people do 8g.
Lots of people do it most of the time. Just not first timers. And a lot of people never do.
PE will pack a punch, and it gets pretty hairy around 2g, but you really can't go any lower before it just doesn't do anything. 1.5 might not even get you very high, if at all. But it probably will.
But I suspect some have a low tolerance, and 1.5 can be extremely strong given how different the people and mushrooms are.
I don't have a high tolerance, but 1 or 2g will just make stuff strange and my vision will be destorted, but sometimes the universe will shift into a slightly different dimension and that can be a little unnerving and slightly scary feeling.
But it's definitely a beginner dose. It gets really much different, very quickly, once you go up a g or two, but you can't go much lower. At least I can't.
Three is also a beginner dose, or 3.5, but that's probably going to knock most people's dick in the dirt. But that ok, you just have to ride it out if you don't like it. It will definitely fuck with you pretty hard core depending on the mushroom you eat. But half my 3g trips weren't barley shit, and the other half were pretty damned hard core. A couple were as nightmarish as anything you can ever experience, and beyond, but who gives a fuck. Not me.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Sub-Easy]
#27565389 - 12/01/21 09:42 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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Another way to look at it is, on 1.5, you will have a totally unique experience, unlike anything you have ever experienced, and unlike anything you can imagine, so yes, it might help you, just like any amazing new experience would. And you probably will think amazing thoughts and open doors into the unknown and maybe feel at compleat oneness with the universe, or many such possibilities. But it's different for everyone what they discover. So what it will mean to you is your journey, and it might help you in some way. It often does.
On 3g you can tell your self whatever you want. You can say out loud "I'm just tripping, this isn't real, I will come down in four hours" but that makes not a bit of fuckes, because you will be so confused, and totally overtaken by it that you can't tell yourself shit. You are strapped in the fun park ride and you don't have any control over it. You might be lucky and be in control, but most likely you can forget about reasoning with the trip. It's going to take you were it wants and it's hard to balance between having a grip, and causing more problems by trying to fight it.
For me, I just look straight into it like a wild eyed madman, and tell it to give me it's best shot. And that's served me well, but it has also given me it's best shot and had me scrambling like a baby being kicked around by a soccer team, and nothing I told myself made any difference. And that's 3g.
You will definitely get a wildly new look at your existence from 3g. But only you can know what that will be.
It might very well help you during and after as you spend the following days thinking about what you have discovered. But there is no way to say what that is, how much you understand it, or if it helps you. But there is a good chance you will have some work to do coming to terms with how it effects you, and that can be difficult, or a destraction at the least. Don't make any big life changes based on your thoughts, until you give it a couple months to settle in your brain, if it makes that much impact on you at all.
Now if you do start doing more trips, you will very likely have to give your brain and feelings some attention, because I can have lasting effects.
But after, only one or two small or medium doses, like you have, it's doubtful, you will have to do much more than think about the actual four hours experience, and maybe figure out what you can take from it. It won't have lasting effects, most likely, or not strong ones anyway, but just the experience can help you in different ways. Possiblity quite a bit. If you got to be King of the universe for a day, you might discover lots of useful things you never know, but your still you the next day.
With heavy use, you are not you afterwards, for some people. No one wants to talk about that much, but that's what they mean when they say integration of the trip. You are still you, but your whole perspective can shift, and mostly the things you always believed were rock hard aspects of your beliefs, and now up for interpretation. But that's not necessarily a bad thing, it's just a different thing.
Everyone is different, but you might find you have abilities you never knew you had.
And there are many new possibilities of how you can go forward from there. But that doesn't usually happen with a single 3g trip.
It's binifitial in many many ways, but maybe it's better just to not know all of the possibilities and just be happy working with what you have, already, and not go looking for the answers to these questions. That's a far warning to anyone wanting to step out over the edge of the world.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: GenericHero]
#27565428 - 12/01/21 10:18 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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Jesus dude idk if I'm just seeing something that isn't there but you seem freakishly similar to me. I also don't care for romance because it all seems so fake to pretend something is so infinite and godly when its just obviously sexual chemistry and bullshit just to reproduce or whatever other animal instincts. Doesn't feel like deep purpose, but maybe I'm wrong idk. I mean if my friendship breakup from a young age was so painful I imagine I'd be the type to kill myself after a super hardcore romantic thing ending. There's just something so dark and soul destroying to feel something so powerful and meaningful that just ends. Like how can everything just be so worthless and random and careless that it can just end... something so special shouldn't end like that. Whats life in a world like that?
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Sub-Easy]
#27565436 - 12/01/21 10:23 PM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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What does that mean "ride it out?" What exactly does a bad trip feel like? What does a trip feel like? Would really appreciate more detail on it because you're making me wanna do 3 grams pretty badly. I'm in real serious need of change. Will I see things about myself I wanna change? See demons? Shouldn't I be worried of such a huge dose in my first time, especially as someone who has paranoia, bit of delusions and kinda severe OCD? Please give me answers..
also, how do I ride it out.. and will the breathing techniques, water and good music be enough to not do some crazy shit on 3 gs?
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For me, I just look straight into it like a wild eyed madman, and tell it to give me it's best shot. And that's served me well, but it has also given me it's best shot and had me scrambling like a baby being kicked around by a soccer team, and nothing I told myself made any difference. And that's 3g.
Also what does "scrambling like a baby being kicked around by a soccer team" mean?
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd]
#27565517 - 12/02/21 12:21 AM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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Ride it out just means, it's not going to end just because you want it to. I don't leave my spot, or have any use for music on shrooms, unless I want to play my guitar, but usually I keep my eyes closed most of the time and go into a trance, were I don't notice my body. But if I get up and do something, the trip is weaker or I come back to reality. So doing stuff might help dull. But nothing really stops it. So ride it out.
Bad tripps are all different.
I've had a couple on 2g.
The hamburger I was cooking turned in to baby chicks, and my girl took over a she was violently chopping them up and green puss was bubbling around the chopped up bloody gore.
She turned into a dark witch with an elaborate head dress and cloak, and she hated my guts and was eating chocolate chip cookies and didn't offer me any.
My dogs hated my guts and there noses turned into logges and they were pounding me in the chest like a sledge hammer, and I felt it.
Malevolent spirits were tithing around in my closet, and the whole universe was trying to drown me in hate, and disgust for my experience.
Literally, the whole spirit of the universe.
And all feeling are set at the highest level a human can feel them while on shrooms, so I was feeling hated to the ultimate degree.
But it settled, even though the whole trip was like that.
The other time, I just felt extremely uneasy for about a half an hour, and it turned around. But it was pretty dark while it lasted, and you can feel emotions times a hundred, so it's not a feeling a normal person can feel in a lifetime.
It's like the worst day of your life times a hundred.
I can't tell you what a trip feels like, because you don't know anything it could be compared to.
You won't see anything about your self, you will just be able to understand everything you think of with supper clarity and be able to access everything you ever knew. And possibly stuff you didn't.
You might face your own demons, and I've seen many unimaginable strong demons and other beings.
Everyone should be worried about any dose, but you might bring a dark mind into it because of your issues. But the drug is stronger than you and if you don't try to fight it or control it, and struggle, it will probably take you far from the reach of your issues. You will probably be so amazed by it that you will not have bad thoughts, you will just be in aww. So I think you have just as good a chance as any, but you won't have to worry about your paranoia, because the experience itself is paranoid and delusional. You might even be able to handle it better because you are used to dealing with difficult mental states already.
It is already real, so anyone could feak out.
It's like giving a crazy person a drug that makes them crazy. If they don't do stupid stuff because they are crazy, then why would they do stupid stuff on a drug that makes them crazy?
Just don't leave your house because you don't want anyone seeing you act strange and call the cops, because you will act very strange, even if you can't tell you are acting strange. Your stupid if you leave your house, in my opinion, because everyone can tell you are super fucked up. You won't be able to act normal.
You know not to do stupid stuff or hurt your self even on big doses. Or at least most people do, if they have half a brain. Some people just don't care about what happens to them anyway so they don't have the good sense to stay the fuck inside and not answer the door or phone.
The setting is important to help you be in a good mood going into it, and that helps you stay in a good mood, so stuff you like, like good music, can help you start out in a good state of mind, but after it starts, nothing but the drug really has any control over the outcome, so don't rely on breathing or music to make it go good or stop any discomfort. Things like an upset stomach can make it uncomfortable and most people feel uncomfortable during the beginning half hour to hour, but don't let any discomfort worry you, it's just part of it, and time is destorted so half an hour of discomfort might seem a lot longer, but y also usually get long periods of amazing euforea, or full body orgasm, or telepathically speak with hundred foot creatures that sway above you in a heaven opening up in your roof. And take you through world's made of anything you can dream of.
The baby thing just means feeling helpless while you mind is pushed to extreme feelings, feelings are felt incredibly strong in the trip world.
I usually have werm children creep up the walls of a dimension that is kind in my mind but also I see it in front of me in the room at the same time, and they do stuff like offer me cookies and dress up in costumes and then they ask if they can drill my brain, so I let them, and they bring out a machine that is alive and has different armes and a drill. Usually there are also other beings of all shapes and sizes that come and go and run around, and seem mischievous and interested in what I am doing. And we all take in a highly advanced language, that is telepathic and used emotions as words.
And that's just the first stop, I always go there first, and it just a short time, and kind of like the front porch, and then I open the door to the real trip and actually start tripping. That's when all the amazing stuff happens.
And that's on 2 or 3 grams.
The beginning is always the same and I have gotten to know and love the beings, and visit some of the same ones when I go back. I miss them very much if I stay away to long.
But it took four or so times before I even remember I do that after I come down. But when I go back I remember all of my trips, and now I remember most of them, even when I'm not tripping.
I've even had the exact same trip twice, exactly the same from one moment to moment. And completely forgot I had the first one, until I realized I had written it down and even forgot I wrote it down.
The trip world can fuck with the real world.
You really don't understand in the slightest what we are doing, you have no way of understanding it. It's real as the nose on your face when you are there and unless you do it enough you don't even know we're you have been. Your mind blocks off whole portions of your trip, that you lived, for real, once you come down. A you think it's just a dream.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Sub-Easy]
#27565530 - 12/02/21 12:43 AM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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That's why people say do 1.5. it's not a very good example of a trip, but it's strong enough to make you have a type of trip, but 3 is a real trip, and a real trip is not something you can understand. Have you ever held a conversation with your feelings, with a real life dragon, that sitting right in front of you. No, and there are no dragons there, because dragons aren't anything compared to what is really there. And you wouldn't know what it like to be next to a real dragon anyway, until you did it. It's not like TV or a dream, or your imagination. It's real. You are really there. But maybe not everyone has the same experience as me. Like I said it's always different. You sure you want to try them.
Maybe 1.5 isn't such a bad idea. I always wonder why the hell I took them, after the trip startes.
It's because even after you have been there, your human mind can't know what you're tipping mind knows while you are on them. You just fall back asleep and don't really remember exactly what it was like.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd]
#27565629 - 12/02/21 03:10 AM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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.... But maybe not everyone has the same experience as me. Like I said it's always different. You sure you want to try them.
yeah , definitely not everyone has the same experience as you. mine are nothing like that.. and some of the things you describe as making it easier or more difficult are the complete opposite for me.
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...I have a bit of paranoia and I have OCD but I don't see what I'd be so afraid of to the point I'd call an ambulance. If I think I'm dying, won't I be able to remember I'm tripping and let it happen? (So I can have ego death)?
for me when on mushrooms a lot of times there is no actual reason for being afraid,.. i simply am afraid..very afraid.. even in the moment i'll ask ask myself what i'm afraid of and i can't tell myself .. i simply know i am.. mushrooms are really good at revealing things and introspection and often euphoria and all that , but they're also incredible at fucking with your mind in negative ways.
when going through fear/anxiety/paranoia on mushrooms (for some, like me) it can be to an extreme. so yes there is a side of you that hopefully stays in touch with reality that tells you 'i'm on mushrooms this will be over no matter how bad it gets', but the shrooms can have those negative feelings so amplified that you start to believe that even though you know you took mushrooms something really has gone wrong.
thats where 'riding it out' kicks in.. or should , its that fight with your shroomed self . trying to ease your mind even when you are almost 100% something is wrong..
when the majority of a trip is spent in this mind set, i think thats when the feeling of 'losing your mind' starts to kick in and it can get so overwhelming that you just want out NOW! which only makes it worse when you get into that mind set.
everyone has a different tolerance for that mind set, i dont believe and i think most dont was well.. that because you already spend your time in a certain level of anxiety or paranoia that you'll be able to handle it easier.. in fact i believe that its the opposite..because you are starting at a higher baseline and mushrooms amplify emotions by a lot, that there is more posibility of you 'losing it'
i get some pretty harsh comes ups filled with a lot of anxiety, and i think a big reason for that is because i already have issues with anxiety in everyday life. so even on a good day when my 'set and setting is as good as it will get i'm already coming in with anxiety on a 3.. as opposed to sommeone who doesnt deal with anxiety coming in with a 1 (a one because there is always some aprehension about going into the unknown)
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you effectively cloud the issue by continuing in this.
subeasy's recc's are for him.
you know you.
just stop adding crap to this.
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Re: Can I please get a definitive answer? [Re: Abigherdofturd] 1
#27565799 - 12/02/21 07:53 AM (2 years, 4 months ago) |
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I've watched a LOT of documentaries with interviews of serial rapists/murderers and you seem to have a lot of the same thoughts as them
It's really too bad that you got your thread titled "do shrooms make you admit things?' deleted because there was some pretty revealing and cringy shit in there about being worried about going to jail
So you're admitting to me that you are literally only in my threads to stalk and harass me. Good job bud, you prob just earned a ban. 
Also, talk about cringe. Thought I could open up to you and instead you just throw all this rage in my face. Fuck off. Can tell you right now the universe, God, whatever the fuck you believe in, does not smile on people who do something like that. There's being bad, and then there's wanting to be bad. You're the second one, which is far worse.
I have no idea how you take those things from what I said but I cant say I'm surprised. You've been trying to talk about who deserves a ban since about your 5th post here...what a fucking joke. There is a report button, if you feel you need to use it, go for it
Show me where the rage is in what I said. You can't because your mind is adding that in
...and wanting to be bad is worse than being bad? Uh, ok...
Maybe you don't get anywhere with people because all you do is suck suck suck energy up wherever you can and you certainly have been getting a good feeding here haven't ya? You're a taker and a leech and while that may feel helpful in the moment to you, you should really try giving something back sometime. It's good for you and others
I like how you completely ignored the part about your thread titled "do shrooms make you admit things?" getting deleted at your request
You may be fooling some people here but not all of them
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Deleted it because you were accusing me of things that are not true. You misinterpreted what I was saying and also it was Thanksgiving so felt icky keeping the thread up. That simple bub
Still mad I insulted your band a week ago? I apologized dude , get over it /:
Edited by Abigherdofturd (12/02/21 08:49 AM)
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