Home | Community | Message Board

Out-Grow.com - Mushroom Growing Kits & Supplies
Please support our sponsors.

Community >> Physical and Mental Well-Being

Welcome to the Shroomery Message Board! You are experiencing a small sample of what the site has to offer. Please login or register to post messages and view our exclusive members-only content. You'll gain access to additional forums, file attachments, board customizations, encrypted private messages, and much more!

Jump to first unread post. Pages: 1
OG shroomerite
 User Gallery

Registered: 10/22/00
Posts: 10,871
Last seen: 8 months, 19 days
what would you do?
    #2750986 - 05/31/04 10:44 PM (13 years, 9 months ago)

*warning long post*

so I had an ex who... really put me through a lot of shit. She got into meth and it was just a real bad dysfunctional relationship... I moved out of the little town I we lived in... got over her... she moved to a suburb of the city I moved to... we attempted things one last time, she hadn't stopped using tweak... it ended with me beating the shit out of her on my porch. (we're both girls so it's not like a guy beating up a girl...).That happened on Valentine's day. I didn't talk to her since then. I was pretty much over her cuz that last time I really didn't expect it to last.

FAST foward three months (exactly, May 14th and valentine's day is feb 14th). Her Birthday. Out of the blue my ex roomie calls me for some bullshit reason something about she's moving out of our old house (that we rented from my uncle) and I had a few things there she was going to leave with him and for me to get them from him... so she brought up my ex and I said 'hey tell her happy birthday' that was a friday... the next monday she calls me real early in the morning about how she misses me and she's not happy with the guy she decided to see and I say 'I'm the LAST person for you to whine to about not being happy cuz it's your fault we didn't work' hung up and left it at that... then I became a nervous wreck. I started going 'under the spell' as i call it, you know, thinking about her all the time, not being able to sleep or eat... just shitty shit that happens when you miss a person... I thought I could just let it run it's course then i'd be fine again.

a few days ago (friday night to be exact) I had JUST gotten in my car to drive to my parents for a weekend on the boat. she calls (I don't know it's her cuz until that moment she had called from a restricted number) and she was crying and wanted some pics from this winter... so I agreed to meet her at this gas station by her apartment.

*sigh* I think that was a mistake. we ended up driving around for nearly 4 hours talking. turns out she got a really good job at a pharmacy and will be a pharm tech in 4 months through on the job training and she stopped ALL drugs because she's randomly tested at least once a month. we stopped back at the gas station so I could get back to my parents and she grabs me and kisses me and says she loves me.

THEN today she calls and says she told her mom about us and how she still feels about me, and that she's kicking her BF out and she wants to be with me. I told her I was glad she's getting herself out of a relationship she didn't even want in the first place... and I'm glad she's turned her life around for the better... but i'm not sure about us happening again (I mean the last time ended up in a brutal comfrontation)

so I kinda left us up in the air and told her to call me in a few days.

what would you do? I will *never* feel for anyone else as intensly as I felt for her... BUT we've had a REALLY REALLY bad past... I feel drugs had a lot to do with our past and now she's absolutely clean (as long as she has a job I'll know she's clean)

what would you do?

We are not human beings going through a temporary spiritual experience.

We are spiritual beings going through a temporary human experience.

Post Extras: Print Post  Remind Me! Notify Moderator
Board Bum
 User Gallery

Registered: 05/27/04
Posts: 671
Loc: Idaho (USA)
Last seen: 12 years, 6 months
Re: what would you do? [Re: StonedShroom]
    #2751152 - 05/31/04 11:35 PM (13 years, 9 months ago)

follow your instincs man, if you feel even a bit uneasy about starting up again don't!

"If you worried about falling off the bike, you would never get on."
Lance Armstrong

Post Extras: Print Post  Remind Me! Notify Moderator

Folding@home Statistics
Registered: 03/11/04
Posts: 6,103
Loc: ny/europe/other
Last seen: 4 months, 8 days
Re: what would you do? [Re: PuZuZu]
    #2751196 - 05/31/04 11:45 PM (13 years, 9 months ago)

Though you haven't been with her completely off drugs right? It may be worth trying for that reason. But whatever you feel, if it's worth a try and the consequences of going through the worst occur in the end.. breaking up yet again.. then maybe it's best at that point for it to be the last attempt with her. If you decide to try again then tell her this will be the last time. If you decide not to try one more time then don't look back.


The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery every day. Never lose a holy curiosity. ~ Albert Einstein
"Fear is the great barrier to human growth." ~ Dr. Robert Monroe

~~~*Dosis sola facit venenum*~~~

*Check my profile to listen to my music* :smile:

Post Extras: Print Post  Remind Me! Notify Moderator
s p a c e d

Registered: 03/23/03
Posts: 447
Loc: London
Last seen: 4 years, 4 months
Re: what would you do? [Re: StonedShroom]
    #2757672 - 06/02/04 07:04 PM (13 years, 9 months ago)

What have you got to lose? You say you've never felt anything as intense as what you felt for her, so it's got to be worth a shot right? I'm a great believer in the idea that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.. Things may work out, they may not, but you don't want to look back on this in 20 years and think "what if I had given it a chance?"

-{ divined from the mind }--

My music

Post Extras: Print Post  Remind Me! Notify Moderator
tumbling dice

Registered: 04/21/04
Posts: 248
Loc: NY,NY
Last seen: 12 years, 8 months
Re: what would you do? [Re: StonedShroom]
    #2763988 - 06/04/04 05:28 PM (13 years, 9 months ago)

i think the meth probably had alot to do with all your troubles. if your shure shes absolutty clean then i geuss go for it if you realy love her

your entering a world of pain

Post Extras: Print Post  Remind Me! Notify Moderator
Jump to top. Pages: 1

Community >> Physical and Mental Well-Being

Similar ThreadsPosterViewsRepliesLast post
* dont want to go out tonite with this girl. fuck valentines day mistadobalina 604 6 02/25/09 09:24 AM
by slowgsr
* valentine's day Ideas? manna_man 498 6 02/17/05 11:53 AM
by MycoJunkie
* I'm putting myself on Mycotopian-Probation for 6 days. GGreatOne234 1,281 9 02/10/04 09:56 PM
by GGreatOne234
* Can't get over this girl
( 1 2 3 all )
silversoul7 7,038 48 07/31/09 12:46 PM
by dr_gonz
* serious panic attacks angryjslice 1,148 5 01/20/04 02:20 AM
by enotake2
* Bipolar
( 1 2 all )
Tasty_Smurf_House 3,187 23 03/19/04 12:49 AM
by Tasty_Smurf_House
* I am astounded and afraid of the brilliance of my own idiocy. shapesnatch 682 4 11/05/04 12:18 PM
by CherryBom
* when you're feeling listless youbreakyoubuy 545 5 11/15/09 01:11 AM
by zorbman

Extra information
You cannot start new topics / You cannot reply to topics
HTML is disabled / BBCode is enabled
Moderator: CherryBom, boO, Rose, yogabunny, Jokeshopbeard, CookieCrumbs, Memories
538 topic views. 0 members, 3 guests and 0 web crawlers are browsing this forum.
[ Toggle Favorite | Print Topic | Stats ]
Search this thread:
SoulSpeciosa Kratom
Please support our sponsors.

Copyright 1997-2018 Mind Media. Some rights reserved.

Generated in 0.063 seconds spending 0.02 seconds on 32 queries and 0.007 seconds on Sphinx.