Today I got the Johnson and Johnson vaccine. I didn't like that I had to get it, but my school required it and I like going to school. It made me mad that I had to do it, but I accepted the situation and tried to figure out the best way. My strategy was to use drugs to control my own immune response.
I've had some reactions to vaccines in the past. They tend to trigger my migraines. I got the MMR vaccine 4 years ago and got a splitting headache that made me feel like I was going to pass out for 10 minutes. I felt issues with my migraines were exacerbated for months after this. So I was especially wary about getting this. However, this time I'm smarter than I was before since I understand psychedelics. Psychedelics are powerful pain-killing and also immune-modulating agents. At high enough doses they strongly, powerfully interact with the immune system. So this time around I understood that this was an option to try if I had a reaction. I have probably had my best trips with Bridgesii and during my strongest trip before this I felt like I was completely oblivious to pain. Like nothing in my body that would be pain would register as such. For me at least mescaline seems to block off pain as effectively as an opioid. So, Bridgesii was the first thing I thought of after I had a reaction.
I took a shot of Mezcal with lunch before going to the inoculation center. I chose the J&J vaccine because it seems more honestly made and the side-effects seem more immediate. Some get strong reactions, but those usually happen quickly, whereas the effects from Pfizer and Moderna seem to take longer to manifest. I have a theory as to why, you can take this theory or leave it - but basically J&J actually contains a cell culture while Pfizer does not. I checked the ingredients of both vaccines and J&J has a bunch of preservative but only one active ingredient, which is a cell culture of 'replication incompetent' adenovirus trained to express the covid spike protein. So basically this is a virus culture they'd been working with for some time. In a sense I kind of appreciate that a lot of effort went into it since I've had to work with cultures a lot. They had to work hard with this trained adenovirus, go through many iterations, make sure it didn't replicate. So it was something living. I could wrap my mind around that. I don't like that my school and basically all of society is requiring me to inject a strange cell culture into my body - but at least I thought this was something my body could handle. I'm not at all interested in taking strange mRNA from a culture that isn't living. So that is why I chose the one I did. You can feel free to disagree with this part, it's definitely sketchy and subjective, but I think there's something to it. Whenever I hear about 'long term' side effects I usually hear about them in the context of Pfizer or Moderna whereas J&J side-effects seem to be more immediate. So I chose it because I felt that if I had a reaction it'd be quick and I could gauge what the reaction was and how to respond.
In retrospective the mezcal was probably a poor choice. It didn't help at all. Injection of the vaccine did trigger a migraine within minutes, with aura and loss of vision for a minute. I thought I might pass out at the vaccine center although thankfully I didn't. However, going home I felt like complete shit, could barely move my left arm and felt my breathing was slightly impaired. As soon as I got home I reached for my Bridgesii cuttings and cut off a 3-inch piece. I started eating it right away, eating off exposed bits of green flesh as fast as I could extract them. This actually took a long time because it's a bitch to remove the skin and the spikes, and I could barely use my left arm in the process because of the vaccine pain. Pain relief happened within 10 minutes of starting to eat. I find that even though most of the strong psychoactive effects of mescaline take hours to fully manifest, the pain relief is very quick.
Since consuming this piece of cutting several hours ago I feel a slight buzz, very minor visuals (in terms of words on the page appearing to have many colors to them if I unfocus) and a very relaxed and open mood. I have recovered about 90% or more of the range of motion in the arm that they injected in. Before having any bridgesii I could barely move it at all, which made cutting the cactus tough. Now it feels almost like normal. I did some gardening earlier and it worked fine. I was surprised by how well I could do it. Also, on the way home the feeling like I might pass out persisted and made me dizzy. Ironically here bridgesii has reduced my dizziness considerably.
I have the rest of the cutting and the knife sitting there and I'm not sure if I'll have any more. This amount did the job for me exactly. However, taking some more might help cement the pain relief so I might have more. I think I'll use the signals from my body to decide, wait it out in a few hours and see if I'm up to taking more. I'm not seeking to get blasted and crazy and trip, but I wouldn't mind getting more of this medicine into my body. Perhaps I will finish the cutting tonight, perhaps just a small amount more or perhaps I'll have a go in a week or so.
I guess I should say that I'm not accusing the vaccine of anything in this post. However, some with sensitive immune systems such as myself, one example of which is migraine disorder, can react to vaccines. I offer this to potentially help others eliminate negative side-effects if they choose to get the shot. Again I didn't like that I had to get the shot but I wanted to do it in the safest possible way for me.
The last thing I'll comment on: Some might say you shouldn't do this because if you use a psychedelic to suppress your immune system, the inoculation might not work. I would say this might be the case for some and not others. Some who don't have sensitive immune systems might feel no reaction at all if they took a psychedelic, so for them it might defeat the purpose. Others such as myself, who know their immune system is sensitive, probably need help from substances like Bridgesii. I was pretty sure that I'd have a reaction since I know my body and my reactions to things, and because of my experience with the MMR vaccine.
Also, some might doubt that I had the reaction I did from the vaccine. If you think injecting synthetic virus cultures into your blood can't trigger a migraine, you're a bit delusional. The vaccine is designed to be tough on the immune system to elicit a reaction. But I wanted to get physiological indicators so I used my pulse-Oxiometer after the migraine attack. I wasn't able to use it initially because I was too woozy, but I started using it 5 minutes in (after the aura and loss of vision thankfully subsided). During this time I felt that I could barely keep myself sat up, I was in a folding chair leaning against the wall of the vaccination center. My heartrate dropped to 56, lower than my normal resting heartrate, so a physiological reaction was definitely happening. What I suggest here is, those who are sensitive use select drugs to take charge of their own immune system and minimize the negative effects. That's better than just taking a gamble with your immune system and hoping it works out. I personally think my immune system is too sensitive for me to be getting inoculated at all, but could I find a doctor that would sign off on that? Unlikely. So the next best thing was Dr. Bridgesii.
But what I did wrong was that I only used Bridgesii afterwards in this case. I probably should've used a small dose before. If others liked my report and think you are also susceptible to migraines or other symptoms upon taking the vaccine, my suggestion would be to take a small dose beforehand. If I could do it over I would've split this bridgesii dose into two and taken the first half several hours before getting the shot (1.5 inches) then taken as much as needed once I got back. Some might say that a dose of 1.5 inches is a microdose or subthreshold, for me at least I get some mild effects from it. So adjust doses according to your own sense of what you can handle and take a dose that you think will numb the pain and cause no anxiety. Would other psychedelics work? I think yes, since the immune-modulatory and pain-killing properties of psychs stem from 5-HT2A agonism which they all share. So I assume this would work with mushrooms as well. Also, I think even a large dose would work as long as it doesn't cause any anxiety during the shot. You know your own system and reactions better than anyone else.
Edited by CreonAntigone (08/21/21 09:22 PM)
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