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coAsTal
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed]
#27140163 - 01/10/21 04:41 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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We're all here for you-- no matter what. I know you will find the right way through this for you, and we'll all still be here on the other side of the storm.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed] 1
#27140182 - 01/10/21 04:51 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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DJ Ed said: Basically, the real love of her life, her soul mate, dumped her twice, before she ended up coming back to me 22 years ago. She never stopped loving him. “Accidentally” tracked him down on Faceboook, he was available, and off she went.
And he'll dump her a third time in fairly short order when she starts "being herself" with him. She'll crack up emotionally, and by that time you will have healed and have moved on.
You heard it here first. Good riddance to bad rubbish.
Love 'ya. Remember, we're your family too. If you need us, we're here 24/7.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: Nature Boy] 1
#27140196 - 01/10/21 05:01 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hope you have a good trip man
I second the "good riddance"
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: coAsTal] 1
#27140250 - 01/10/21 05:32 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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coAsTal said: I say this with all love and respect to your terrible situation-- but brother, there are no mystical shortcuts to free you from the hard responsibility of working through this life event, and coming to terms with it over time. It's just going to suck. I don't think mushrooms are going to make the road to recovery any easier at this point-- I think they might provide an escape from them... or they might make your situation far worse if you did something under their influence that you regret when you come back.
No shortcuts but mushrooms can take you straight through the heart of trauma and out the other side, a process which will admittedly be more painful second by second then just taking your time - but a lot easier when you get it all out.
Take the battery out of the phone and hide the phone. Make it so you can't call people up and vent to them. Just you and the elephant in the room. The elephant is just you anyway and OP is a divided self seeking some sort of reunion right now. Mushrooms in high doses put you in touch with the spiritual realm and that's what can do the healing, and often in unexpected ways (they don't just fix you they fix what's around you as well).
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: PrimalSoup] 2
#27141605 - 01/11/21 09:36 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thank you all for so much love and support, it has really been helping me stay focussed. My counsellor, the first who has spoken any sense to me in 15 years worth of counsellors, said it as it is. There are no meditation or Buddhist shortcuts to heartbreak; nothing can remove that acute pain. So all the distraction techniques do work to well distract you from your thoughts, but this is dealing with the symptoms not the cure.
It’s just like anti-depressants which may work for a while but only subdue the symptoms of depression. At some point you have to come off those meds and face the causes of the depression.
So in terms of the heartbreak, I have at some point got to face and address the emotions and thoughts in order to reach acceptance and forgiveness (not sure of that last bit anymore but hey, let’s see.....).
So that’s why I’m sort of convinced a mystical mushroom journey will force me to face these emotions. No choice. Hopefully job done in one hellish evening.
My dad said it best this morning, and strangely has made me feel so much better about the future. He very rarely criticises somebody, but when he does you listen. He simply said: “I just wouldn’t talk to her again, (DJ Ed) If she can do this to you, then she’s obviously not a nice person.”
That somehow makes it so much easier not to want her back. And it’s the wanting back which causes the pain. I may be onto something......
Take care everyone, and mush love DJ Ed
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Nature Boy
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed] 1
#27142633 - 01/11/21 08:13 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Time heals all wounds. Tincture of time is the cure.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: Nature Boy]
#27143411 - 01/12/21 09:25 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I love tinkering with time
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Yeah, that Salvia REALLY "tinkers" with time in a serious way...and I mean SERIOUS with a capital "S" way. I know you love it, but man, it makes me fear (it's an age thing) like I'm having a stroke as it's coming on. Scares the bejesus out of me every "time." Consequently (although legal in my state) I just can't go into that headspace but once every few years when the urge becomes overwhelming.
It's mindfuckery at its most extreme...and I'm not up for it much anymore. I'd feel safer and better on 300ug of legit, clean LSD.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed] 1
#27144526 - 01/12/21 07:27 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I hope you find yourself feeling stronger than ever after you process all this. I'm just now reading this thread; your vulnerability is inspiring Ed.
Much luv dude
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: Psicomb] 1
#27145414 - 01/13/21 09:13 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thank you. Somehow I have turned a huge corner on Monday morning talking with my dad. I don’t know how, and I do know that deep down inside me I want her back, nd probably always will. 37 years! But it’s suddenly stopped hurting and I’m thinking of the future.
My dad is laid back. In fact he’s almost horizontal. He always sees the good in a situation, or is practical about it, and he always sees the good in people. His few simple words have had such a profound effect on my psyche.
He said; “I just wouldn’t talk to her again, son. If she can do this to you then she’s not a nice person.”
I do wear my heart on my sleeve; I’ve always been conscious of that. Almost as though I’m lesser than others I deal with because they always seem so mature, so grounded. But I’ve got to the stage where I’ve had enough,and I’m now working to get to the state, I am enough. So to be honest, I’m proud I wear my heart on my sleeve. I hope this thread can help others. That’s why I came back here, to give back 
I watched an 11 year old camcorder tape I made of me playing guitar ready to put on YouTube. Watching it back I suddenly realised: “I bloody well love that dude, he’s awesome” 
Take care DJ Ed
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed] 1
#27145462 - 01/13/21 09:35 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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DJ Ed said: He said; “I just wouldn’t talk to her again, son. If she can do this to you then she’s not a nice person.”
+1 on your dad's advice from me as well. Cutting off contact with an ex is a very healthy thing to do. It's not easy, though. It's like quitting a drug.
Sure is a transformative experience, though
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very empowering, and very few pangs afterwards. less than I would have imagined, if you are cutting relations for any good reason.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed] 1
#27148829 - 01/14/21 11:16 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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DJ Ed said: Thank you. Somehow I have turned a huge corner on Monday morning talking with my dad. I don’t know how, and I do know that deep down inside me I want her back, nd probably always will. 37 years! But it’s suddenly stopped hurting and I’m thinking of the future.
My dad is laid back. In fact he’s almost horizontal. He always sees the good in a situation, or is practical about it, and he always sees the good in people. His few simple words have had such a profound effect on my psyche.
He said; “I just wouldn’t talk to her again, son. If she can do this to you then she’s not a nice person.”
I do wear my heart on my sleeve; I’ve always been conscious of that. Almost as though I’m lesser than others I deal with because they always seem so mature, so grounded. But I’ve got to the stage where I’ve had enough,and I’m now working to get to the state, I am enough. So to be honest, I’m proud I wear my heart on my sleeve. I hope this thread can help others. That’s why I came back here, to give back 
I watched an 11 year old camcorder tape I made of me playing guitar ready to put on YouTube. Watching it back I suddenly realised: “I bloody well love that dude, he’s awesome” 
Take care DJ Ed
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anybody know where he's been? offline for >1 month...
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: epilectric] 2
#28112762 - 12/26/22 10:19 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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He's barely posted this year.
Maybe life is just getting in the way.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: Northerner] 1
#28113376 - 12/26/22 08:58 PM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Interesting that this is an old thread but I was kinda wondering the same thing myself...
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: Northerner]
#28113677 - 12/27/22 07:06 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Northerner said: He's barely posted this year.
Maybe life is just getting in the way.
hopefully 🙏
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: epilectric]
#28114811 - 12/28/22 08:01 AM (1 year, 1 month ago) |
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Hey all, thanks for coming back to this thread.
DJ Ed, brother, we all miss you. While I haven’t been around much either this year, I wanted to let you know I still think about you, and the wonderful community here, daily.
If you read this I hope everything is unfolding positively for you. I’ve been going through my “dark night of the soul” lately so I know life can really pull us away from the things we love.
Anyway, just a reminder DJ Ed, you’re a huge and important part of the community here!
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