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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed]
#27113774 - 12/29/20 08:58 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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DJ Ed said: Check out the signature pics, D3monic; I got my psychedlic safe place sorted; 2 days after she walked out! Don’t actually need it now, as it’s only me and the two dogs. £15,000 feels a bit of a kick in the teeth, but....... I’ve turned it into a Dolby 7.1 movie room with 55” telly 
Space is looking awesome!!

Did you end up taking that big trip?
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DJ Ed
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No, my sister and bestie talked me out of it. Although I was feeling empowered at having seen the light, I’ll not lie, I’m still fragile as hell. I find my subconscious now making excuses for her trying to get me to kill my self. Being realistic, even though I know I have made my mind up, I still have 37 years of brainwashing to reverse, or ideally just let go. So I jumped at the excuse that my “set” is pretty mashed up at the minute. I know a large dose would probably help me accelerate the letting go.
Believe me with this; the mushrooms have been telling me to leave her for years. I can now fully integrate so many lessons they gave me. They were too cryptic in real time;,yes hindsight is a wonderful gift, but I am convinced from various trips what their particular messages were. One theme was being taken back to the 20 year old me that had just had his heart broken for the first time by the ex. For fuck;s sake people, how clear could they have made it. I thought they were helping my depression. They were, but I didn’t realise the message was actually leave your wife, you were happy back then.
So I’m hoping I have the bottle to dose tomorrow night. I have 55ml Mazatapec extract; 2ml = 1g. Thinking of doing a full bottle, 10ml, 5g 
I’ll let y’all know  DJ Ed
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed]
#27114170 - 12/29/20 12:35 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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A lil early but once the heart ache passes just gotta find you a tight young lil wook girl to drop with 

Though at our age ... 😤
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed]
#27114202 - 12/29/20 12:53 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Congratulations on your new freedom, clarity of thought and wonderful years to come and lol "For fuck;s sake people, how clear could they have made it. I thought they were helping my depression. They were, but I didn’t realise the message was actually leave your wife, you were happy back then."
mushrooms does that i thought i was having ocd under mushroom till i realize leaving my old life and job was the best decision i made.
Dj ED you got this and the trip report is going to be amazing
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: pesa]
#27114433 - 12/29/20 03:09 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: D3_Myc]
#27114628 - 12/29/20 05:04 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Wow dude she is fit. I feel liberated, wow, I have al these experiences to come. Friggin Nora, there hope.
Mush love DJ Ed
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: pesa]
#27114630 - 12/29/20 05:06 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I’m determined, 5g liquid psilocybin extract. Could be wild, could be scary. I know one thing, it will be life changing and will certainly make me think (for thousands of years) through my marriage and what is now left for me.
Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
Wish me luck people.........
DJ Ed
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed]
#27114634 - 12/29/20 05:13 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Positive vibes
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed]
#27114639 - 12/29/20 05:14 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: coAsTal]
#27114709 - 12/29/20 06:07 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Hope it brings you serenity brother
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed]
#27114952 - 12/29/20 09:01 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Must be about at the afterglow now... 
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DJ Ed said: They were too cryptic in real time;,yes hindsight is a wonderful gift, but I am convinced from various trips what their particular messages were. One theme was being taken back to the 20 year old me that had just had his heart broken for the first time by the ex. For fuck;s sake people, how clear could they have made it. I thought they were helping my depression. They were, but I didn’t realise the message was actually leave your wife, you were happy back then.
'Cause you know, they bring the message, but you still have to figure out what it means.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: PrimalSoup]
#27114992 - 12/29/20 09:26 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I have read about what has happened and damn, that is rough... May the coming years be way better and enjoy that trip ~
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: MindMeower]
#27115670 - 12/30/20 08:01 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Good morning, hope you’re feeling renewed and empowered.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: D3_Myc] 1
#27115919 - 12/30/20 10:21 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Early evening here in the uk. I’m just about to take some liquid Mazatapec extract. Think I’m gonna chicken out on the heroic dose and go for 3 maybe 3.5g. Been absolutely bricking it all day!
See ya on the other side DJ Ed
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: DJ Ed]
#27115932 - 12/30/20 10:25 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: coAsTal]
#27116228 - 12/30/20 12:44 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Good idea on dialing it back. Hope it is what you need - and maybe also what you want. The two often are quite different. ...and pleasant journey, brother.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: Nature Boy]
#27116251 - 12/30/20 12:55 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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The last time i went on a trip i was looking at 5g dry. it was daunting. While i poured my self some oj as chaser i was seriously rethinking the whole thing. I had to implement the strategy that the mushrooms showed me. Just be calm and allow things to flow. So while i had a few moments of peace i furiously chewed them down.
I have to push my courage to the limit every time i dose. Its weird because it seems to require more and more courage each time.
We're just waiting for the results here.
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: LosTresOjos]
#27116257 - 12/30/20 12:58 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Good vibes brother
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Good luck buddy. Mushies with life changes can definitely help you gain some closure, in my experience. Onward and upward!
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Re: DJ ED, we miss you brother! [Re: SynKyd] 1
#27117433 - 12/31/20 01:42 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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What can I say? Mushrooms never cease to amaze me. At times I’m sure they are self-aware! Anyway, here’s what happened, though I’ll keep it brief, haven’t had my second morning coffee yet!!!
So I had decided I needed a “heroic” dose to ensure I had no control and I could,let the mushrooms tear my soul open to find what is really holding me back. But I chickened out a few days ago. Reset and decided yesterday was the day.
So I dug out a bottle of Mazatapec alcohol extract: 10ml which was equivalent to 5g dry. Absolutely scared and or apprehensive all day yesterday. It drove every thought. So in order to calm the nerves, I decided 2.5g was more sensible given my current “set”
Squirted 2ml from syringe into my mouth and it tasted absolutely vile. My lips went numb and mouth became very oily. Took stock for a few minutes trying to decide if it had gone off and I was about to poison myself. Pressed on and had the full 2.5g. Anyway within 20 minutes absolutely nothing at all. So I had another gram. Still nothing, so I drank the entire bottle: 5g. After 60 mins, still feeling barely nothing at all.
So dug out some frozen fresh Mazatapec tea. Had two ice cubes so another 3.6g on top of the 5g.
Fuck me guys, it was instant! Within a minute, an extremely fast come up started nd I knew immediately I’d made a boo boo!!!
I have never experienced such a fast come up, such strong open eye visuals off cubensis, and such an out of control ride.
So what did I do? I rang the ex! To be fair, she was great and just spoke enough gentle words for me to stop panicking and settle into the experience.
And what a strange trip it was. None of the usual patterns, or flow from one phase to the next.,each phase seemed to be out of sync from normal trips. It was all over the place. All very powerful and all very confusing.
But I did make some huge revelations:
1. My ex doesn’t want me to die and in fact still cares for me. 2. Nothing lasts, not even love and marriage, everything is transient. So with that thought, I concluded I was actually blessed to have spent so many years with my ex wife. 3. I can move forwards now while at the same time remembering fondly my memories with the ex wife. I have worked out that I don’t need to hate her for me to move forwards in life.
Not the normal after glow this morning, I think it was just a bit too strong lol. Feels like my brain is completely drained of hormones!
I have had 2 of those ice cubes in the past and my thoughts were: I must take 3 ice cubes next time, as 3.6g was not quite enough to go over the cliff. So the 2 I took last night must have somehow combined with the 5g extract already in my system. It was definitely not an 8.6g trip, but it was also definitely a lot more than a 3.6g trip.
You have to laugh people; I have a lifetime making these elementary mistakes. But at least I’ve survived to tell the tale. And I feel much more comfortable now having had almost a year off mushrooms to take the plunge again. Let’s get January out of the way where I’m planning to stop drinking, stop smoking, and stop smoking cannabis.
I think 2021 could be a good year.....
Mush love DJ Ed
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