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Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended 1
#27104843 - 12/23/20 08:25 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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So the last two years I have been getting drug tested, and would normally only smoke weed and take psychedelics and maby an adderall here and there. Rarely even drink. Well since I couldn’t smoke anymore, I started using a little kratom that wasn’t tested for, which turned into a real problem. At first it worked really well, but after awhile I started losing weight, having anxiety, other weird physical and mental problems from it.
At one point this year I started abusing phenibut not knowing how bad that can turn out. Phenibut turned on me after 3 months of use, and it felt worse to take anymore then to cold turkey it. I went through a solid 3 weeks of pure terror, it just flipped my panic attack switch (I’ve never had one before this,) and I couldn’t stop having them. Primordial fear was the worst part, walking my neighborhood for hours late night trying to deal with panic attacks. I felt completely better about 40 days after my last dose.
I took LSD and mushrooms more times this year than I’d care to admit, mainly due to boredom and the quarantine.
I tried to kick kratom and did really well, using gabapentin but got bored cuz I couldn’t smoke weed still and have a little drug issue, and started taking kratom alongside the gabapentin... which lasted about 3 months.
I am officially 5 days clean from kratom and gabapentin, and only smoke weed. I did take an adderall or two to help get through some rough patches but am starting to feeling better. I recently got my first house which is bigger than I need, with a big yard with a few neighbors who are quiet.
I’m not able to concentrate on more than just drug stuff. I’ve been wanting to go to school for awhile but wasn’t sure. Going to figure that out, I have had the same solid job for 7 years and would love to advance there with schooling.
I’m starting a living soil “no till” cannabis grow, alongside my mushroom hobby and enjoy it. Looking forward to playing around with cloning mushrooms and maby even trying to grow some in my canna is soil, we’ll see. I’ve had bad anxiety from the kratom that I didn’t realize was causing it, and it feels good to start to feel normal again. It’s been a rough year, finally looking better.
And boy do I love to watch stupid shit while high, therapeutic.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: CatsLoveHouseMusic] 1
#27104857 - 12/23/20 08:34 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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kratom is gross dude
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: CatsLoveHouseMusic] 1
#27104858 - 12/23/20 08:34 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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kratom is so tough to stay away from once you get clean because it's so easy to get, it's dirt cheap, and nobody tests for it. and the high is great, to boot- at first.
the subreddit r/quittingkratom is a decent resource, although i have at least one philosophical disagreement with them.
you're almost out of the woods with the opioid W/D, but you should expect to have lingering effects on your mood and motivation for many more weeks or even months, depending on how much you were taking.
when you're stuck in that mode of being it can be hard to see how it might be possible for your brain to heal and go back, but to a large extent it can. it's never totally the same- there will always be moments when using seems like a good idea- but it's possible to get to a point where you're happy enough and almost never think about using drugs anymore, and that's good enough.
i would advise you stay away from alcohol for a while.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: morrowasted]
#27104876 - 12/23/20 08:44 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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any drug can increase ur anxiety cause addiction is just fillin temp holez and when u cant phil em reality crashes in worse than b4. or whatever stress u were runnin from
even if you can fulfill ur addiction its a runaway reaction and ur body is all fucced up n shit
unless its weed
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: cannabinated]
#27104901 - 12/23/20 09:03 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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No till Living soil is the way to go, its how I grow!
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CatsLoveHouseMusic
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: Demonic_Chronic]
#27104955 - 12/23/20 09:46 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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The kratom I was getting last year actually had a really good high, then I had to change suppliers and everything went to shit. Regardless I’m happy that I’m done taking it, and can smoke weed. Kratom and phenibut are both TRASH if abused, felt toxic.
One reason I like weed is because I’ll smoke late night and I’m able to just listen to music and close my eyes.. on kratom I was addicted to video games or my cellphone due to the odd anxiety it was causing me. I smoked for about 15 years and just getting back into it, I have to take tiny hits or I get too high. It’s crazy how intense weed can be just starting out. It’s just soooo nice closing my eyes and just thinking even at night, I never could do that before.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: CatsLoveHouseMusic] 1
#27104966 - 12/23/20 10:02 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Weed is the best drug, I would be an alcoholic without it. The fact millions of people are still be tested for it is insane. I've never done phenibut or kratom, Probably never will. Welcome back to 420 land OP. I'm about smoke one and watch a movie, which has pretty much been all of 2020 for me
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: viraldrome] 1
#27105015 - 12/23/20 11:08 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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What are you going to watch? Any suggestions in general?
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: CatsLoveHouseMusic] 1
#27105182 - 12/24/20 02:54 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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welcome back to the fold. Hopefully getting the pot back in you will curve the interest in pills.
I find it really interesting to hear about people who struggle with kratom use. Though I do enjoy it I just can't seem to understand it's addictive potential.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: CatsLoveHouseMusic]
#27105346 - 12/24/20 07:32 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I like kratom in all but that shit got right on top of me fast. It has a tendency to kick in blackouts when drinking, the withdrawals are no joke either. After four months of everyday dosage I saw that I was using it to run and went ahead and let the stash run out. The freight train that followed hit hard and prolonged.
I didn’t think it was supposed to be that bad, but it was.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: CatsLoveHouseMusic]
#27106476 - 12/24/20 08:17 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Kratom is fine as long as you do it occasionally, but as soon as you start doing it regularly a lot of it's negative side effects rear their ugly head. I started to take more then I normally do in April and by May, I started to have panic attacks, but I continued to take it despite feeling like shit and my condition just kept getting worst from here on. By the middle of May, I started to have difficulty standing and I couldn't stop shaking, By the second week of June, my left side of my body was numb all the time, my heart was racing 24/7, every time I stood up it felt like I was going to collapse at any second, there was a constant ringing in my ear and it felt like any second could've been my last.
I continued to feel this way for the rest of June because I still took it despite feeling like shit. I finally decided to start taking less of it and I started to feel a little bit better throughout July and August, but I still occasionally felt like shit for awhile after those months too. I'm just now starting to feel normal again. About five weeks ago, I was feeling like shit and I decided that it's time for me to get 100% better, so I thought maybe I should start taking CBD to see if it helps me out at all. So, I went to the store to pick some up and I've been taking it ever since. It's actually been helped me out a lot, I haven't felt that horrible since I started taking it and for the past two weeks I've been feeling pretty good, best I've felt in a very long time now.
Also, I can smoke pot again. I had to give it up because every time I tried to get stoned my heart started to race like crazy and it wasn't fun at all. I had about a half of ounce of various strains on me for about four months that I couldn't smoke until now. Well, there gone now
I think I've learned my lesson and I'm never going to let it get this bad again.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: no_one]
#27106544 - 12/24/20 09:13 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I had a similar experience with kratom. Great at first, the best high, but over time more and more negative side effects, especially anxiety.
I had a really weird reaction the last time I took it. My skin felt hot like I had a bad sun burn, mostly on my back and shoulders but all over too. It was actually painful, and it really freaked me out and caused an anxiety attack. It felt almost like an allergic reaction. I was checking my skin in the mirror to see if it turned red but it looked totally normal. It was my first time trying some from a new vendor and I threw the rest away. I don’t plan to ever take it again.
And yes it’s great to be able to enjoy weed again. When I was on kratom, weed was constantly causing anxiety attacks.
I did it for about a year, daily. I quit cold turkey and had zero withdrawal symptoms.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: drr]
#27106667 - 12/24/20 10:56 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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That's so wild what kind of dose where you taking?
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: GreenHorns]
#27106678 - 12/24/20 11:04 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Ya I was having weird reactions as well. I can’t even remember the majority of them but I was in tears one morning with how bad I felt. I’ve been through methadone WD and whatnot but I felt worse then if I was going through methadone WD
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: GreenHorns]
#27106695 - 12/24/20 11:22 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Quote:
GreenHorns said: That's so wild what kind of dose where you taking?
Nothing too crazy, probably 2-3 grams? I don’t remember. This was after a break so I wasn’t trying to dose high.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: drr]
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: cannabinated]
#27106757 - 12/25/20 12:21 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Try acupuncture.
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Re: Years of drug tests had me abusing anything that wouldn’t show up, they finally ended [Re: cannabinated] 1
#27106864 - 12/25/20 03:49 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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cannabinated said: any drug can increase ur anxiety cause addiction is just fillin temp holez and when u cant phil em reality crashes in worse than b4. or whatever stress u were runnin from
even if you can fulfill ur addiction its a runaway reaction and ur body is all fucced up n shit
unless its weed
Weed can fuck you up too. You sound like those pro-pot people who think weed isn't a drug and holy hail the maihuana plant
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