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Nifflerz
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: zZZz]
#27104727 - 12/23/20 06:50 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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zZZz said: yea u’re moar than a friend we’re practically family now 1234 aswell
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zZZz
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: Nifflerz]
#27104731 - 12/23/20 06:54 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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@1234 go eat sum chicken wangz
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1234go
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: zZZz] 1
#27104738 - 12/23/20 07:03 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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You're dead to me...
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Texas Honey Badger
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: 1234go]
#27105039 - 12/23/20 11:25 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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You need a xanax
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1234go
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: 1234go]
#27105552 - 12/24/20 10:10 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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I wish i had a few, i would dose up and go back to sleepy
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1234go
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Yeah, a trip to the xanny bar would be great right about now.
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Nifflerz
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: 1234go] 1
#27105577 - 12/24/20 10:33 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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I will say this about xanax -- it was absolutely epic sleeping on a good dose of xanax. Good enough dose and the bed felt like a damn fluffy cloud.
-------------------- Aka Pudge (the real one, not the bitch ass fake one from 2020)
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1234go
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: Nifflerz] 1
#27105602 - 12/24/20 10:47 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Yeah, a friend gave me a couple .5's the other day after I mentioned not sleeping very well lately. I slept for about 6-7 hours straight that night...which is rare for me.
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: 1234go]
#27105609 - 12/24/20 10:50 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Buncha druggies in here
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1234go
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: feevers]
#27105621 - 12/24/20 11:01 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Nifflerz
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: feevers]
#27105630 - 12/24/20 11:06 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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feevers said: Buncha druggies in here
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Texas Honey Badger
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: 1234go] 2
#27105690 - 12/24/20 11:56 AM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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-------------------- Some call me Paw 🐾
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1234go
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"" ...and this guy's sayin'...what do you want from me? ""
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1234go
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: 1234go] 1
#27105740 - 12/24/20 12:24 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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"one dog goes one way, and the other dog goes the other way"
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: 1234go]
#27105765 - 12/24/20 12:36 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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1234go said:
I like that. One dog goes one way one dog goes the other way.
damnit someone beat me to it
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: Shroomslip]
#27108048 - 12/25/20 11:12 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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Shroomslip said: I destroyed my life with benzos. The worst part is, in the beginning I was fine, even the people closest to me would tell you I was fine. I didn't go crazy, I didn't do anything that would put me in jail. I did random weird shit like use vanilla pudding as dip for tortilla chips or get myself covered in chocolate as I tried and failed over and over again with the motor reflex capabilities required to melt a hole in a chocolate Santa and seat a bong stem in it..
For years that was me. Just goofy and weird but never violent, psychotic wouldn't even leave the house and get into random chaos. Then it all changed. For no real reason. It became a likely to throw me into sub psychotic rage as it did to make me just relax and go to sleep. There was no rhyme or reason, it just happened. Like there was a switch in my brain it flicked every time I took it, but you never know which way it was going to flip.
I recognized this. Realized that no, I can't keep doing this. I got off it. My withdrawal story is well documented on this site. Most people probably can't access it because it was in romper room, but it's there. It was fucking hell. They're are people in my life I've fantasized about killing, and I wouldn't even wish it upon them.
I couldn't move because of the nausea, I couldn't look at anything that produced light because it hurt my head (I still made it a point to let people know how it was going). I couldn't eat bedside I had no appetite, but I was also weak and sickly for the same reason. Couldn't sleep, and best I might get 20 minutes where I wasn't entirely conscious of the hell I was in. Worst of all.... And this is one that you'd just have to experience, keeping in mind what I've just said about the physical. There was no sense of time. None. Not just it seemed longer, I mean there was no sense of time passage at all. Everything, all of this was not passing, and is was all happening at once. That time I spent a week ago just puking into the toilet? It just happened. That time my stomach started hurting and I couldn't bare it that began a minute ago? I've been dealing with it a year. I know what eternity feels like more than the average person will ever even be able to fucking comprehend. People think and experience everything so linear it's like second nature. Let me tell you, if you're ever unlucky enough to go through the concept of time disappearing.. you'll know hell as you've never known it in the pass.
So should you stop? Yes. Because you're digging a hole and it only gets worse.
Also, I quit benzos with an actual taper. I researched and prepared. This is the hell I suffered while managing it the best way that can be. I didn't fuck with the taper.. I knew that total relief was right there, and I fought it, I fought like hell.. I stuck to it, and I eventually quit. Then months later I got into a fight with my wife, took doses that should've killed me, chased it with alcohol and damn near threw my whole life away.
Imo, the best way to describe benzos is insidious. Not only is quitting a real habit probably one of the worst experiences you'll ever face in life, but if you let yourself go back, it's going to bite you in the ass so hard you'll of wished the withdrawal had killed you.
That's just my opinion and experiences. Make of it what you will.
Thank you for sharing your story man, stories like these is what kept me from going to deep into benzos addiction, but i still manage to screw up somehow.
I know what you're talking about, when i was withdrawing from klonopin, i had disturbing nightmares like my mother getting killed in every possible way, this has traumatized me more than any mushrooom or lsd bad trip, it's really a horrible psychotic experience.
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: Heinrik]
#27108077 - 12/25/20 11:37 PM (3 years, 3 months ago) |
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hey heinrik ure kool
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Nifflerz
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: zZZz]
#27108682 - 12/26/20 10:44 AM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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zZZz said: hey heinrik ure kool
what about me
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Barnaby
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Re: I've been taking xanax everyday [Re: Heinrik]
#27109319 - 12/26/20 04:27 PM (3 years, 2 months ago) |
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Wow that is a heavy dose daily. I take 3 milligrams a day of k-pins and alcohol. For almost ten years now. Merry Fucking Christmas. I don't even get the point of that. May you manage your withdrawls. Buy a big fucking t.v. and just watch. Or read a book, play games and use the internet, buy a camera and get into photography. Wow. Somehow you will make it through your detox.
Take some Datura. Would be amusing.
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