I Couldn't remember the credentials to my old account so I mean a new one. Its been years anyways, so I figured I'd actually post one of my most vivid experiences. Sorry for grammatical errors.
Friend was telling me about deprivation chambers and their experience doing it so as the story is being told, I thought to myself I'm going to that for my next sit.
I had only sat a few times, but enough to be confidant in myself for whatever may came. I was 19 at the time and I decided that night I would eat 7g and to the best of my ability , make my bedroom into a deprivation chamber. I prepped my room, putting towels and blankets to cover the window and block the ambient lighting that came from my door. And I unplugged everything electrical in my room minus my bass guitar set up (One cable).
I checked the amount in weight and ate the 7g of cubes which was the largest amount I had ever did at the time. Which was actually rather difficult to eat once surprisingly since I chose not to eat that day. After doing a brief meditation to calm my nerves, I listen to a speech from T McKenna regarding the species. McKenna was a new voice at that the time, that I took interest in. Found it insightful at the time.
Half hour or so goes by, feel nothing. So I go to my chamber and strum some notes and noodle around a bit on my bass guitar with no real direction for a while. No real perception of time for how long. Eventually I feel the species starting the usual build up So I turn off my gear and sit comfortably meditate some more.
The fractal and visual experience of the build was similar to what I've seen before you hit the wormhole in dmt. Then it stopped after however long. The best way I could describe this next part would be.. I Had an avatar of a blue figure appear in front of me, my eyes were open. I could see the figure from about the mid torso upward. Its avatar took up my entire field of vision. Yet at the same time, I could see the surroundings from behind it simultaneously. its the best way I could describe it. I dunno the words for that.
It briefly spoke to me in a language I've never heard still to date. Yet I understood the energy it was presenting. At the time, looking back at it. I would describe the feeling as having a picture of the message but not having the words for. The moment I had a thought to ask a question, it looked at me disapprovingly and disappeared. I didn't have a negatively interpretation of that though.
That moment I instantly felt sober. Literally was. I grabbed my phone and called my friend to see if they wanted to hang and no reply, it was actually later in the night than I thought. Knowing them, they asleep. Instead I grabbed a movie from the stack I hadn't seen. I ended up choosing the movie "Being John Malkovich". I recalled I went to the FYE earlier that today to get a movie and I asked the cashier whats the craziest/trippiest movie they've seen so I grabbed it regardless.
On a side note , if you haven't seen this movie. It's quite the mind fuck regardless of whether you've intoxicated or not. Anyways, I grab the DVD and opened the case then the portal opened. The weird art and images on the booklet inside the sleeve totally messed with my head in a way that I could not comprehend what was happening. It was extremely disorientating. I couldn't even sit up straight and completely lost control of myself and blinked my eyes and woke up in another location.
I was now in a desert like sand dunes, hills as far as the eye can see. Extremely reminiscent of the Sahara desert. So I started walking in the direction that I believed to be hearing polyrhythmic drumming. After however long of walking, a panther appeared behind one of the dunes. We both look at each other then walked together in the direction of the drums.
As the drums got louder and could actually see the destination at the end of the horizon. It just kept getting brighter and brighter the closer I got. The moment I couldn't anymore I woke up to my mother asking me what I'm doing. I roll over on the floor and told her "tripping, you?". And she just goes "oh" grabbing a cig to smoke before going back to bed.
I look at the clock to see about 6 hours went by, I wasn't sleeping anytime soon. So I finally popped in that movie and understood nothing watching it. Had to watch it again another time later on.
Weeks later, I was surfing the web late night just reading random whatever and stumble on a picture of Vishnu only to be struck by deja vu. Immediately reminded me of the experience. I have no real knowledge of that culture either. That threw me off.
It took me many years to actually understand the message I was given. Ironically to this post and the message, I'm going to keep that message to myself. If you made it this far though, don't be afraid to express yourself.
-------------------- Best piece of advice I could give right now is; Be patient, kind and respectful to everyone you meet. You really have no idea who you're going to come across.
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