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Pzk
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4.2G Psilocybe Semilanceata
#27088290 - 12/14/20 06:14 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Sunday 13 December 2020
4.2g because it was all that i had.
All started pretty much as usual. Some anxiety since i haven’t done a ceremony since last January the 10th. I also never had liberty caps before and didn’t know what to expect.
As an intention, i asked for clarity, guidance, for the ability to let go of the past and embrace the present and the future. For artistic inspiration, love and health for me, family, friends and colleagues.
22h
I drank the tea while mindfully breathing while seating in my usual meditation position. Burned some palo santo and turn the lights out.
I had my wireless earbuds with a 5h Ayahuasca ceremony recording from the shaman Wiler Noriega Rodrigues. I had made that same journey back in 2015 in Peru.
After some rounds of deep breathing and what could be 20m i felt the need to go my usual ceremony position. I was on my knees, head down and arms next to its, similar to praying.
Lost my consciousness.
Can really pinpoint what kind of visuals i was having when i came back to my senses. But all senses where altered, distorted like my body pose. I was sobbing, crying, releasing mucous.
I remembered that i had some paper towels so i reach to them on my back. They seemed few for the amount of liquid i was excreting. I accepted it and came back to my position.
I open my hand, I have to release her, i have to let her go. Im still clinging to the memories of a past relationship. I have to move on.
At this point i didn’t know where i was, Wiler was singing, was i in Peru? I couldn’t tell. Some weird time/space paradox. It was like he was really there with me and the icarus still dictating the pace “Medicina, medicina” Medicine he sang and i agreed. It was working.
Visions of the people to whom i relate to, my mother, father, what i can do better, boundaries, friendship, jiu-jitsu, art.
My body is still in the same position but this time more submissive, arms contorted, my hoody is sliding up my back leaving it exposed. My arms touches my belly and feels it in spasms, irregular breathing. Cannot feel temperature.
Touch my head and my face trying to figure out the limits of space but everything is a blur. Feel the waves of the medicine coming as i yawn over and over again as WIler repeats some of the icarus. I feel like an exorcism is being made and i trust the process.
This cycle happens several times as far as i can remember to the point that like in previous ceremonies i lose my identity, i don’t remember who i am or what everything means. I only know one thing: one reassuring thought: “I know that i drank some tea, i have done it before and i will be fine. Its for the best.
I place my body in downward dog position, feels good. I feel like a stable pyramid and helps the blood flow of many hours curling into myself on the floor.
Slowly i become more erect, i stand up slowly and start to feel my body. I shadow box a little and realise that i have some martial arts skills, i feel like Neo from the matrix “ I know Jiu-jitsu”
I turn on the lights, i look around my room and explore each corner. Its so cosy and i find real beauty in it. The plant corner, books, mushrooms growing. The curtains transparency creating subtle shadows and folding over the laptop screen. Everything is flow, organic, connected.
I find the mirror, stare at myself, laugh, grin, show my teeth, the icarus change, tears run down my face. I recall my age, my own mortality.
I grab my camera, take some picture of the room, i remember that i haven’t done as much photography as i used to. Needless to say that the photographs don’t even look close to the image i was actually seeing in the moment.
Unlike the previous moments where i was wobbly but energised, i start to feel tired and sleepy. I lay down in bed surrounded by pillows and comfortable bed clothes, I feel really relaxed and embraced by my surroundings. I close my eyes but the visions continue, more art and design realisations, shapes and colours flood my minds eye. After around two hours and finally manage to get a couple of hours of sleep.
The alarm sounds, a turn it off, sleep for one hour more and get out of bed for breakfast. Im starving and lost a lot of weight since i was fasting since the day before at noon…
Im still precessing a lot, maybe ill update this report, maybe not, who knows.
Peace
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ZenZone


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Re: 4.2G Psilocybe Semilanceata [Re: Pzk]
#27096460 - 12/18/20 07:18 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I loved your report... holy macaroni! You do know that a level 5 with semilanceata is around 3.6 g right? 
Anyways, great report and experience, thank you for sharing
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Re: 4.2G Psilocybe Semilanceata [Re: ZenZone]
#27097433 - 12/19/20 10:22 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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ZenZone said: I loved your report... holy macaroni! You do know that a level 5 with semilanceata is around 3.6 g right? 
Anyways, great report and experience, thank you for sharing 
I also love this report. I'm noting a better than average description of the headspace, perhaps there's something to libs have amongst the biggest headspace? IDK, I've yet to try them.
I'm a little bit cautious about applying those calculators, though. The use of a point-estimate without any variance statistics seems fraught. And I think there are those of us who are just a lot less sensitive and need more mush than most. Obviously, this was a profound journey, so this person isn't likely that far from typical tolerance.
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Pzk
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Re: 4.2G Psilocybe Semilanceata [Re: ZenZone]
#27102430 - 12/22/20 11:59 AM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Thanks! Man i wish i could remember or better, be able to express more into words but...
I probably had done around 5 or 6 ceremonies with 5g cubensis and the last one was 6g so i thought 4.2 liberty caps would be something similar...and it kinda was. So far the only journeys that felt and looked different from liberty or cubensis were Panaeolus cyanescens. The visuals were more, lets say, more scientific and futuristic with colours more on the blue\dark spectrum and my body was less affected. But maybe because i only had a couple of grams.
Im 1.80cms, 74kg, athletic build.
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Pzk
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Re: 4.2G Psilocybe Semilanceata [Re: LeafRaker]
#27102439 - 12/22/20 12:04 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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I'm a little bit cautious about applying those calculators, though. The use of a point-estimate without any variance statistics seems fraught. And I think there are those of us who are just a lot less sensitive and need more mush than most. Obviously, this was a profound journey, so this person isn't likely that far from typical tolerance.
When i do ceremonies i also fast for a long time before i drink so my body is completely vulnerable to the medicine. I also havent drink, smoke or taken stimulants in close to 6 years now.
Cheers
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DJ Ed
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Re: 4.2G Psilocybe Semilanceata [Re: Pzk]
#27110936 - 12/27/20 04:16 PM (3 years, 1 month ago) |
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Great report, Pzk. Liberty Caps give an amazing trip, so different to Cubensis, in my opinion. Much wilder open eye visuals, much greater time and space distortion, much more religious. Generally stronger lol
Take care DJ Ed
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Pzk
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Re: 4.2G Psilocybe Semilanceata [Re: DJ Ed]
#27113562 - 12/29/20 06:21 AM (3 years, 30 days ago) |
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DJ Ed said: Great report, Pzk. Liberty Caps give an amazing trip, so different to Cubensis, in my opinion. Much wilder open eye visuals, much greater time and space distortion, much more religious. Generally stronger lol
Take care DJ Ed
Thanks! Looking back and after some consideration i agree!
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