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Stranger Registered: 09/15/20 Posts: 588 |
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Welcome to the esoteric occult gnosticism.
Set and setting: A silent dark room at my best friends place. The room was spiritually cleansed and setup by his wife following Wicca tradition. A few items where placed in the room. There where two/three pentagrams, different types of healing/vibrational stones, a couple of candles, white sage incense and a bed. Ingredients: ~45 grams of fresh Psilocybe Atlantis truffles crushed with a garlic crusher, together with fresh ginger prepared following PrimalSoups tea tek. Strained twice. Intention/Goal: Being in the middle of a divorce (abusive relationship), no longer staying in my own home, recently being diagnosed with a form of Autism Spectrum Disorder/Asperger's (they are not sure yet, more tests to follow) and just having received the news that my mother was diagnosed with Stage III N-H Lymphoma with no treatment options my goal was to sit in lotus posture, meditate, and watch the walls dissolve and be transported to a deserted tropical island for some serious healing and relaxation, maybe catch a inter-dimensional wave or two. -------------------------------- The journey: Been fasting for the best part of the day. After ingesting the first shot I planned to wait a bit for the come up and then drink the rest. I put on some music while waiting. It didn't take long before my stomach started to feel upset. This increased my anxiety by a lot and before I knew it I was purging a bit. After this happened I really started to doubt whether or not I should continue with my plan and drink the rest. After some contemplation I decided to take a few pufs from my Pax 3 with some cannabis to calm myself and my stomach. I only needed two to three small pufs and my stomach issues subsided, so did my anxiety. I drank the rest, blew out the candles, and sat down in lotus posture on the bed. Started singing along to the music that was playing and started praying inside myself. Not sure how long this lasted before I started to feel the come up at which point I stopped the music and closed my eyes. Some time past and the come up started to get really heavy now. I was unable to keep sitting in my lotus posture and decided to lie down on the bed with my eyes closed. Nothing was really happening, just a vast blackness all around me until I opened my eyes and saw a white fluffy something lying next to me. Closed my eyes again and there it was as well lying next to me. It gave me a reassuring and safe feeling so I didn't give it a second thought. All of a sudden some kind of meter appeared in my minds eye that was slowly filling up. Curious as I am I asked what it was measuring. It told me they where measuring the active ingredients being absorbed by my body. I posed the question how could they know the amount and at which rate my body was absorbing it. The answer I got back was that they just did, and that I should stop worrying about such trivial things, to trust them and let them do their thing. As this meter was slowly filling up they started cracking jokes about how much I had ingested, that they kept detected more coming, and that they were going to wait until that was absorbed as well, however long that would take. The jokes got up to a point where they were making a "mockery" out of me, telling/showing me that the amount I ingested was way too much, and that I was an absolute n00b with measuring, and that I was an idiot for overshooting my goal by so much. I told them, well this is what you guys suggested I should take next time during my last journey, thinking I would outsmart them. Their reply was; So you believe in, what normal people might consider a hallucination and a figment of their imagination, as true? Maybe it is all in your head. I told them; yes, you bunch of paradoxical inter-dimensional mind f******. And laughter and some more words of affection ensued on both sides. During this time I was literally laughing my ass off because it was just too incredible and the way the jokes and jabs against me were put. It was hilarious. It felt good, friendly, familiar, and full of love. Like being with your best friends pulling each others legs. I noticed my breathing was changing, as if they where controlling my breathing in such a manner that is similar to Yogi breathing techniques. Like they where making sure I would reach a certain state or point. I started hearing a buzzing noise which kept growing louder. As the meter started to reach max capacity I started to get really cold. I pulled a thick blanket over me hoping it would help a bit. I felt like I was dying, however, compared to my previous experiencing this, I was able to let everything go fairly easy and let it happen smoothly and calmly. The white fluffy something was transforming slowly into a Lamb, both in CEV and OEV. All of a sudden the meter was gone, and I felt myself, my soul/spirit, my minds eye, folding up back into itself, into what I would describe with my limited understanding and vocabulary, into some sort of a singularity. Once I collapsed back into inside myself, which I think lasted for not even a millisecond (my perception of time was long gone at this moment) I was traveling with the Lamb and one other entity which looked like a big 5D figurehead, at what looked like warpspeed through the galaxy and dimensions. Since the friendly "paradoxical jesters" were also gone I decided to pose some questions to the Lamb and the big 5D figurehead instead. Questions like, what are you doing here, where are you taking me, why are you in the image of a Lamb, and who are you guys? The big 5D figurehead entity indicated to me that he used to be/is a representation of Adam, the first man. The Lamb indicated he had cast me into some kind of protective shielding to protect my soul/mind/spirit from harm. That everybody would eventually experience similar to this, one way or the other. That I should be patient and I would see for myself where he was taking me. That I know the answer who the Lamb is if I looked inside myself. And that the Lamb also stood for innocence, love, compassion, empathy. And that these answers are meant to be taken two fold, figuratively, literally, both from a persons true "inner reality" and the outside "real world" reality. Now, I only know of one person in history who gets compared to a Lamb and that is Jesus. So I posed the question if he was indeed Jesus. The answer was yes, it is his "vehicle" or "avatar", but, he added, that the Lamb has a much deeper and bigger meaning outside of just being a synonym with him that has been lost for most. That it should not only be a synonym with Jesus, but also with myself, and that by working on my own inner and outer "Lamb", such as innocence, love, compassion, empathy, not only towards others, but also towards myself, then we can find him. I was shown that the original communion, the original sacrament with God, that was practiced for ages in history by the shamans, mystics, believers, religious practitioners, etc, was by taking certain "magical" plants and go inside yourself to connect with this higher realm. And that this knowledge had been lost by most throughout the ages. That religious texts and certain mystery religions and practices (not just the Bible, but all the other sacred texts; eg Quran, Torah, Kaballah, Dhammapada, Tripitaka, Rig Veda, Mahabharata, Ramayana, Corpus Hermeticum, Nag Hammadi, Ancient Greek, Ancient Celtic, Ancient Egyptian, Ancient Sumerian, Ancient Mayan, etc, and all others as well, are all connected with each other and compliment one another, but that all of them come from the same origin. Passed down from the first true masters and explorers of inner and outer exploration (with or without "magical" plants. And that it is up to the individual to recognize and get their own truth out of it, since it is highly a personal experience, different for everybody). And without the borders, dividing and segregation we find ourselves in today pushed on to the people, in the modern world), should not only be taken as historical stories, or spiritually, or literally, or figuratively, or symbolically. To put it in my own words and understanding; As it is on the outside in the "real world", so it is on the inside in our "own world". I immediately had the thought that the genius of this, hiding it in plain sight, for anybody to find as long as they bother to look, complete and detailed instruction manuals, was absolutely mind blowing. During the warpspeed travel with the Lamb and Adam where I saw galaxies, dimensions, fires flash by me, I felt my body getting colder and colder. I was even shaking a bit under a thick blanket. After what seemed like a very long time of traveling we arrived somewhere. It was a bit dark. I saw some figures standing around me in the shade and couldn't really make them out. I couldn't move. I was being held in place by something. The place I arrived at looked like it had big hexagram-ish round-ish layout, and everything was see through similar to a crystal or clear diamond. In the middle there was some sort of cordoned of circle with what seemed to be ways to move down some floors. Hanging over us was some sort of shroud what looked like silk. Above and behind it shined a bright light. Sometimes the shadow of what looked like a big feathered wing shone through. Somehow I recognized this place, it felt so very familiar, like I had been there before a couple of times. It almost felt like I belonged there, like it was a second home for me. Then the Lamb invoked Cherubs to cast their protection on me. Then the Lamb invoked God to cast protection on me. Me being me, I asked for Adam, the first man, to cast his protection on me (you can never be too much protected in these unknown places I though by myself) and was granted it. They told me not to worry, and that they will be going through a certain process to determine who I am, and who I was. Not sure what they meant or wanted with all that, and from my experience from previous travels to not fight it, I let it happen and let the experience flow over me. It felt like my soul/spirit/energy was inside some kind of giant tune-fork (that is the best word I have found for it) and they where plucking the "strings" of my very being, with each string they touched I felt it reverberate through my body, from head to toe. Each string they touched gave them answers on who I was and what my experiences and actions where somehow. They started adjusting my strings, winding them up tighter and tighter. All of a sudden I noticed that my physical body was shaking with each string they plucked and winded. My physical body started to shiver and shake more intensely and uncontrollably. All of a sudden I was starting to get afraid that my physical body was going to go into a fit. I quickly asked them, whatever they where doing, to make sure my physical body would stop shaking because I was afraid they would give me a fit or something. Immediately my body fell silent, the shaking and shivering stopped and my body was completely silent and at ease. They continued what they were doing with my strings. Then the Lamb told me who I am, my characteristics, my persona, etc in my current life which was overall pretty positive. They all greeted me with my name. I felt a quick relieve and thought they were done. But then they continued with my strings, they wanted to determine who I was before, before my current life in a previous incarnation. Now this got me a little bit nervous and afraid, not knowing what to expect, and personally never believing in reincarnation. The Lamb told me, depending on who I was before, I would either stay here, or, if I used to be an evil/negative person, or having caused harm to him personally some way or the other, he would personally take me through some hell-ish dimensions for some lessons. Experiencing this my anxiety and nervousness shot up another notch. I started to doubt myself and looking back on my own life on what I possibly could have done wrong to invoke such wrath. I was getting afraid. After some time the Lamb came back to me and told me they were on the right track and almost got their answers. Not knowing what to expect, feeling afraid, anxious and nervous I started to make assumptions on who I supposedly was in previous incarnations. I gave him all kind of answers but it was always no. Then all of a sudden he said you are definitely closely involved in my life on earth. I thought by myself, oh shit, now we are going to get it, I was probably some ignorant fool who rebuked or harmed him in some way. Yes, you are definitely closely related to me he said, you definitely had a big influence on my life on earth. I was getting more and more anxious and afraid. Then he said you actually go further back then myself, you have a even older history on earth. The Lamb indicated to look behind him but since it was a bit dark and shaded I couldn't see anything and I didn't get it to what he was referring to. And I thought oh shit, now the cats out of the bag, here we go to the hell-sih dimensions for some harsh lessons. Then the big revelation came. They released me from this tuning fork apparatus. The Lamb told me I was basically family, going further back in the family tree. He told me who I was in one of my previous incarnations on earth, and that I had been a huge influence and guide with his own work on earth. The Lamb told me I had previously incarnated as Moses. The Lamb and all the entities that where standing there all of a sudden greeted me, and welcomed me back as Moses. My mind exploded this moment, I couldn't believe what I was hearing. All my fear, anxiety and nervousness disappeared and was overtaken by bewonderment, amazement, surprise and doubt. After all I am highly skeptic about reincarnation and I will never stop questioning anything about everything. However they kept greeting and welcoming me back, and shouting Moses has returned. They suspected it for a while already, but had kept me in suspense, and just to make sure they had the right one out of the ~7.8 billion souls currently on earth. I told them again they were a bunch of paradoxical inter-dimensional mind f******. Laughter ensued. So my first response was a question, not surprisingly; show me, proof it some way or the other. What followed was me reliving certain parts of Moses his life. Parts of the Exodus out of Egypt. Wandering in the desert for fourty years. The good times, but also the bad, atrocities such as enslavement, killings, etc. The best times though were the memories from spending time in tents together with certain people. I started receiving visions of a huge inter-dimensional whirlwind where I found that time doesn't matter. Gods plan transcends time and nothing will be able to stop it. It seemed like people where in contact with each other in this inter-dimensional whirlwind throughout time simultaneously, people existing in the past, present, and future all at the same time, communicating with each other. It was like being with long lost friends you never knew existed but knowing each other in and out all based on love. The visions subsided and other memories came back in, of finding solutions to certain needs and/or problems, food, water, fire, etc. I felt a huge surge of emotions, and a strong longing back to this past. However, they reminded me again, it wasn't all good, they made me relive certain killings out of Gods name, not being able to enter the promised land, reliving other lives during that time period of being killed in various ways, usually with a sword. Feeling really confused by now, and still almost certain they made a mistake, I asked them what about the other people and their experiences, why did you pick me out of all the people? Their answer, what about other people? What about their experiences? Everybody walks their own path in life, and it is up do the individual to find their path. You walked and are walking your path and it led you here. If you can do it, so can they. Then what about the aliens, what about the insect entities, what about the hyper dimensional self dribbling basketballs, machine elves, and all that? They explained to me that they control the trip/journey. Everything that exists consists of vibrations including these journeys, and with vibrations they can control and influence what the experience is. They quickly gave me some examples, they transformed into aliens, showed other worlds, happy bright trips through mandalas and mandelbroth shapes and "bad" dark ones in scary dimensions. Accepting their answer (who am I to tell them in their otherwise in their realm, I assumed they know their own stuff best), I was back in the shade in the presence of one of the entities. He looked like, what I could best describe as a 5D representation of some ancient God they usually depict on the stone carvings out of Egypt, Mesopotamia, South America. I could only clearly view the outlines which where a bright blue purple, seemingly changing between different hues. His skin and outfit was what looked like a dimmed display of a fractal of dark purple and blue colours, it was like galaxies were flowing in and out of each other on his outfit. His head looked animal like. I introduced myself and I asked for his name, he gave his name, not surprisingly, in some ancient dialect, some ancient name which I recognized to be either Sumerian or Egyptian. I then asked for his Biblical name, which was Michael. I asked him where I was, he told me where I walk and rest in the shadow of God, in the presence of God, your home. Confused about this answer since I didn't know anybody who stayed in the shadow of God. Since I was now able to freely move where I was, I went exploring. On each of the separate corners of the pentagram was an angel like entity and two in the middle at opposite sides of the circle. All looking like different depictions of ancient depictions of Gods from across all the world. They all greeted me with much joy and welcomed me back as Moses. I kept referring them to my current name, but they kept ignoring it and calling me Moses. I introduced myself to all of them, and they in turn, introduced themselves to me. All their names in ancient dialect. All the while welcoming me back home as Moses. Happy all around, giving praise. The first few I asked their Biblical names, Uriel, Raphael, Gabriel, Azrael. Also asking them where I was, and all answered I was where I walk and rest in the shadow of God, in the presence of God, my home, my favorite place. Once I introduced myself again to the next angel, the angel again gave me his name in the ancient dialect. Twelve in total. I got the point they were trying to make, to truly know them, is to read some more on all the worlds (ancient) religions and their different depictions throughout history so I didn't ask them for their Biblical names any longer. During my introductions, they kept reminding me I needed not to introduce myself since they knew who I was and I knew them. The Lamb suddenly came back and took me away for a short while. Suddenly being transported back in history to a garden with some trees and a hill looking out over a town, is where I met Jesus, some of his apostles, and somebody else. Being introduced as Moses, I quickly tried to correct them by saying I am actually (my real name) and I am, from their perspectives, from 2000 years in the future. I started explaining to them what would happen in the future and how our current world looks like, using modern terminologies. Confusion ensued with some who where present. Jesus explained to them what had happened and they understood (probably better then me). After some chatter they left, and I was alone in the presence of Jesus, I warned Jesus that he would be betrayed and put on the cross. He explained to me that he already knows everything that will happen, and that I shouldn't be concerned, and to place my faith and trust into God, it was all part of the plan. I received the same vision again of a inter-dimensional whirlpool where I was present with lots of other people spread out throughout time communicating with each other. I was afraid of leaving this garden since it would be the last time I would see him, but he assured me again that everything would be alright and that I would see him again. I showed him my love and appreciation for him and hugged him before saying our good byes. A few moments later I found myself back in the place called in the shadow of God - in the presence of God. There the angels suggested that I should actually rest and take in the scenery, and enjoy the moment. The angels and me where chatting like we knew each other for a long period of time, close friends. Lots of laughter and merry making. I asked them if my current autism might have something to do with my fourty years in the desert and consuming "Mana" every day. They told me the changes for that where probably very high, that I was so changed by that experience it persisted through time in my very being/soul/spirit. I was laughing so hard about what I heard. Then, one of the angels pointed out that I was really in the presence of God, and that was what the light was. I asked them if I could step into the light, and the answer was yes. I immediately jumped outside the structure to be in his light, I then saw a vision, myself being as a double-sided broad sword being sharpened further by the light. I received more visions, that I am not the only one from the olden days who is currently reincarnated on the earth and that it is all part of the plan. I received visions of wheat being cut, and separating the wheat from the chaff. I received visions of having a covenant with God established a long time ago. Once this ended I stepped back on the platform in the shade. The angels had prepared a very bright shining armor outfit that I could try on, which I did. I saw myself shining with a bright radiant light and a huge shining sword, as if I was in Gods army. Appreciating the sight of this, I was stunned and amazed. I took it off after a while. I made the request if it was possible to meet up with my grandfather and mother on my mothers side, and my best friend, it was. They appeared before me and I was overjoyed with emotions. We talked, hugged, talked some more and then God took me. God showed me two visions while talking to me. What I saw I cannot put into words. What God then asked me, was that he wanted my assistance in identifying the negativity/bad/evil. It was like a game, where I, with a sword, needed to cut out what was bad/negative/evil that was hiding in and behind a whirlpool of galaxies like vision, like playing a game. This went on for a while and I guess my results pleased God. Because afterwards God spoke to me again, and God then asked me if I wanted to help him by identifying the negativity/bad/evil among his own ranks at a certain time. I told him I would be honored and would happily help him with anything he requested. By the time this ended I felt the intensity of the journey was nearing its end and slowing down. I said my goodbyes to the angels, the Lamb, God, my grandparents and my best friend. Adam was the one that would take me back. But not before a pretty long chat where we flew through journeys other people where currently having at that time. I saw all kinds of people lying on floors, in beds, walking the streets, parks, you name it. Some of the people noticed us and where surprised, asking questions like; who are you guys, what are you doing here. However most of them didn't perceive us. I saw what they where experiencing and seeing in their journeys. This lasted until I was completely back in bed completely exhausted and left with a completely unexplainable and mind blowing experience. Edited by spinvis (12/13/20 11:28 AM)
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nomad Registered: 11/28/11 Posts: 718 |
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Interesting read! You have gone to new places, IMO, in describing both the vastness and the intricacies of a profound journey.
I'm very glad you were thoughtful in your preparations. I'm always put at ease by seeing that type of care. Do you read a lot about religion and ancient history? I'm intrigued by how things in a trip are either rehashing of previously explored territory or possibly totally new things. I certainly haven't ruled out trips as a place where new information is revealed, so I wouldn't be at all surprised if your answer is "both". Also how do you think this relates to the end of your marriage? To your likely ASD? I'm certainly familiar with journeys leading me to think of larger issues and larger contexts and how healing that can be. I'm just wondering if you have yet come to see this experience as directly applicable yet. -------------------- Knowledge is finite, ignorance is infinite.
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Stranger Registered: 05/18/20 Posts: 104 Last seen: 1 year, 14 days |
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This is an out of the ordinary experience, wow!
If I were you, I'd follow up with this experience with another for clarification. You were thrown mountains upon mountains of stories, lore, 'truths', history, and potential revelations in how the universe works. I'm all about honesty and I'm not going to lie when I say the 'reincarnation of Moses' aspect doesn't stand out in a glaring fashion. Were you a Christian/believer of the Bible before this trip? I've read many many trips and I have never read such an affirmation of those texts/stories in the way yours did. One aspect that IS rather common among reports is reincarnation. Makes me wonder if maybe you were a witness to the man or hell, maybe the world is weird enough that you are the dude himself. It's interesting how you had personal confirmation of 'God.' I feel like psychadelics tend to have visitors come out in more of a polytheistic fashion rather than a monotheistic point of view. One thing is for certain, you had genuine visions to the point it sounds like the difference between what was happening with your eyes closed was as real and vivid as if your eyes were open. I can only imagine the beauty and love you saw. Intense experience man! Look forward to follow-ups and your reflection on your journey. -------------------- Trip Reports I Argued with the Universe and Lost First Heroic Dose, Meeting the "Other" Resources The Wishing Well
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Stranger Registered: 09/15/20 Posts: 588 |
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Thanks a lot, to both of you, for taking the time to read my long wall of text, and for taking the time to write replies, much appreciated. I will write my answers as extensively as possible, to make sure I give a complete answer which would cover any possible follow up questions due to me being unclear, and hopefully any misconceptions that might result from a incomplete answer. So please forgive me for the long wall of text again.
Quote: Do you read a lot about religion and ancient history? Yes, I have always been fascinated and in awe of life and existence, and read a lot about ancient history of humankind on earth ever since my late teens/early twenties, ever since at one point in my life, a thought stuck in my head that whatever happened here on earth, must have been recorded by somebody somewhere. And that the true history and answers lie in our history that have been recorded all over the planet. I read mostly about the "dead" ancient religions and believe systems and I only read the first part of Genesis and the story of of the creation of Adam and Eve. Ancient Egyptian, ancient Greek, ancient Celts, ancient Germanic, ancient Sumerian, ancient Babylonian, ancient Hebrew folklore, ancient Aztec, ancient Mayan, ancient Zoroastrian, ancient North American folklore, etc... I always had the feeling, that whatever the churches, Jehovah witnesses, etc, where trying to shove down my throat was missing a lot, like it was corrupted and incomplete somehow, and that always left me with more questions than answers. While reading these ancient scriptures and believe systems, I came to my own insight that most of what the Bible had written in Genesis and the creation fo the universe and humankind, relates back to these ancient belief systems and their stories of the birth of humankind. However these ancient writings usually contains much more details and information regarding these events, instead of the condensed and summarative story of the creation of the universe and Adam, in the book of Genesis. And thus by spending long hours reading, I received answers on a lot of the questions I had. And this also resulted in, that, when I pray I also usually address it to all the older names of the Gods that I can remember depending on how much time I have obviously lol.... And trust me, once you start reading all these stories, not even the best science fiction story and movie can top it, never ever, it got even up to a point I had to stop reading because everything sounded so out of this world crazy. Also how do you think this relates to the end of your marriage? Good question, and to be honest I am clueless. Maybe it was the stress or pressures from everything (divorce, diagnosis of ASD, my mothers diagnoses) that happened in such a short space of time, that brought me to the place in this journey. However, in one of my previous journeys (which you can find on this forum as well) I got the answer that I made the right choice to file for divorce so I am thankful for that. Also a huge load fell of my shoulder once I made the decision to file for divorce (it was a physically and mentally abusive relationship). And I am feeling much better because of that choice. To your likely ASD? Well, as I have written in my journey, I asked them if it might have been related to the excessive use of "Mana" for fourty years, to which they answered (see my journey report), I also received the impression they couldn't do something about it now. Funny thing however, during my inner journeys, I do not suffer from this at all, I am perfectly fine, being able to speak my mind exactly how I intend. But other than that, I haven't received a definitive reply. I have been living with this my whole live now, and always thought it was normal and that everybody is like this. Only later in life, during my ten year time in South Africa, I began to suspect that I was different from everybody else. Meaning, I am a lousy conversationalist. I have trouble maintaining conversations or having small talk, since I never really understood the purpose of, or could grasp the subtle intricacies of conversation. I seem to not be able to voice exactly what I think and mean through talking, it always comes out corrupted and that is one point I really have trouble with, close to a point of hating this infliction. I also have huge trouble in big crowds of people, where I just become overwhelmed by the external stimuli and usually withdraw inside myself, or find a quiet corner somewhere. I am a big introvert, compared to most "normal" people which in my eyes are way more extrovert then I am. Writing however, I have less issues in expressing myself, close to zero. The pen almost flows naturally, and compared to me talking, this is the only way I found I could express myself without corrupting the message I am trying to convey. I'm just wondering if you have yet come to see this experience as directly applicable yet. This answer might surprise you, but, writing this whole thing down and sharing it on a public forum brought me a certain sense of peace. And not surprisingly after this journey, I immediately started reading through the five books of Moses (the Pentateuch, first time in my life) to see if what they had shown me was actually true, and if I could catch them on a lie. Now to my own surprise, two big revelations happened, which I never knew before reading the Pentateuch. The first, Moses was the only one, with a written account (as far as I am currently aware), that he spend time in the shadow of God. I was always under the impression you needed to be in his light, not his shadow, but this proved me otherwise. So I was completely unaware of this before and during my journey. The second was, that during my journey, Moses and that other person I referred to in my journey appeared before Jesus on a mount, in front of some apostles. I had to look it up, and found out the other person I was with was actually Elijah. I was also unaware of this fact before and during my journey. As you might be able to imagine, this has blown my mind, and I have no proof or explanation on how or what made this possible, except for me now being able to place my complete trust in "them", that "they" were actually completely truthful in everything "they" showed me. And that "they" are really always there for us, to help and assist us. No matter who you are, with or without magical plants. Even tough I will always be skeptical to a certain extend, and will always have questions. But I guess that is what it means to live life on Mother Earth in this realm. They also took away a doubt I had, and opened my eyes in a sense, that I shouldn't only focus on Genesis and Adam and Eve in the Bible. Not saying I do not doubt at all now, but at least I found answers which in turn resulted in an almost abolishment of the believe I had, that the complete Bible had been corrupted by the Roman Catholic church, which is certainly not the case. They might have tried to hide or exclude a lot of info, but the truth will always win in the end. If I were you, I'd follow up with this experience with another for clarification. I actually have taken truffles three times after this. I have the journeys written down in my native language, and still need to translate it to English. However, these where of such a personal and crazy nature that I am a bit hesitant to share it on a public forum. To give you a small whiff, I was getting a bit tired of the whole religious concepts and imagery that kept reoccurring on my journeys with truffles, so the first journey I had after this, I convinced myself and went into it without any believe whatsoever in any God or angels or whatever. I told them to f*** off with their things and I ended up in a black hole for a long time completely alone, until I thought by myself, well this is weird and typical, lets create some light, and it showed me, that without something external, God in this case, there can't be anything at all. So two forces are needed, like Ying/Yang, light and darkness. But what is the definition of the darkness then if God is the light? I am also planning to go for another journey somewhere in the future. Quote: I feel like psychadelics tend to have visitors come out in more of a polytheistic fashion rather than a monotheistic point of view. True, if you read my previous journeys I experienced this as well before, and on journeys from a long time ago that I haven't posted. With blue Hindu Gods, demi-god/angel type beings, spirit animals, and all kinds of other entities. I was also very surprised and almost shocked when this experience happened to me. However, during my times reading various ancient texts, there is usually, not always, some kind of supreme force or deity behind it all, including the other demi-gods that were created. Please also read one of my previous answers to LeafRaker where I quickly go into a journey I had after this one. Were you a Christian/believer of the Bible before this trip? No, I am not a Christian, and I was raised in a non-religious household. Attended non-religious public schools growing up. I was left to my own devices and to find my own path in life. I was however baptized after birth in a Roman Catholic church. That was more due the fact my grandparents where Roman Catholics, and I never had the choice. I did attend some Christmas services and burial services, but since at that time, I was a child, I never paid attention, and was always climbing up and under the benches and running throughout the church spreading mischief lol.... If I was given a choice now, I wouldn't do it due to my believe that the whole Roman Catholic organization seem to stand directly opposed to, of the teachings of the ancient religions, and to what Jesus preached and intended. It is also then no surprise to me, that once the Roman Catholic church was established, that they continued to persecute and kill all the apostles and followers (except maybe for John, whom which is theorized he fled and found save harbor) of Jesus. That raises the question, what are they so desperately hiding or clinging on to? What are they so afraid of? This is actually something that was revealed to me after this journey, and I actually started reading seriously through the Bible and the story of Jesus and Moses, and all the apocryphal texts that where left outside the Bible and came to that conclusion. I still haven't read the complete Bible yet. I am currently reading ancient Buddhist and Hindu scriptures. My own believe system wouldn't fit into the Bible at all anyway since I have a more Buddhist stance on life in general, and a believe in the different religions that are not included in the Bible.
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